I'd say I would like the idea of being with someone I could trust that much but that's just it. I really can't see myself being able to put that much faith in someone again.

Plus i'm so used to my own space and like doing my own thing without having to think of someone else. Sounds selfish but I've done the whole looking out for everyone else thing and it's nice to just focus on my own life.

No...

The whole election. It's kinda like a big IQ test isn't it.

@Gamerno6666: Oh I didn't read the manga sorry! I thought you were talking about the anime.

If you like films with Will Smith being Will Smithy combined with tits and ass on the side then sure it can pass as a decent film.

@Gamerno6666: What was confusing? It's been a couple years since i've watched it.

Same in the UK. It's a forgotten skill. They still teach it in schools, well they did when I was there. But literally on a few basic lesson over a couple days.

It's a shame because it is actually a really handy skill to have. I've learnt a bit more from my mum. She sews for a living, used to have her own fashion business where she'd design and make garments for people. Now that she's getting on a bit she teaches a course at college and holds classes at community centres.

We just expect someone else to be able to do these things for us nowadays. But back then pretty much everyone could repair their own clothes and even make things for themselves. Absolutely a lost skill. And i'd say you are right with it being automatised. There wasn't much demand for people with these skills anymore so it's been left behind with each generation. It's a shame really.

Gantz lol hardcore.

The new 3D film they're making looks pretty good http://www.animenewsnetwork.com/news/2016-04-28/gantz-o-3dcg-film-reveals-1st-teaser-video/.101557

Ajin manga was awesome. The anime was so, bland, for how good the overall story was. Hated the style of animation they used for it.

I gave myself a serious kick up the backside.

Was tired of feeling awful. Tired of feeling horrible. Was tired of being tired of everything really.

Had a small history of self harm. Ended up in hospital one night, was given anti-depressant meds which I found gave me the motivation I needed to change things I wasn't happy about. Definitely better than what I was now but still a way to go, and this is three years on. So you can't really expect any "quick fix"

The thing is, different methods work for different people. It can be a long process but you need to find that will to try out different methods and find what works best for you and not be discouraged if a particular method isn't working. Could be one thing that helps. Could be a combination of things. But you HAVE to want to try. Don't do what I did and just put up with it for so long. It's not right that you feel like that for a lengthy amount of time that intensely.

Of course everyone can feel sad, lonely, worthless etc. We're human, that's natural. That's just what happens. But I know depression isn't just about feeling "sad".

Please. Go see someone about it. If you have supportive people around you that's great. But i'd go see a your doctor too. If you don't feel you can go to your doctor just yet there's this site I used to visit. http://www.horsesmouth.co.uk/index.publisha

There are always support groups online but I found this one good. It's basically a community of people that offer support and advice of ANYTHING you can think of. People that have first hand experience, people just offering support. Some people find it better to talk to people they don't know so you can always give it a try.

Essay over :P All the best.