@k41m said:
@Sword-Demon said:
@k41m said:
I do wish I could just find a women that I could be with that screws around and doesn't mind if I screw around.
You really must not be looking that hard; whores are everywhere..
but answer this for me - Why do you lie to these girls and say you only want them? Do you get some sort of thrill when you get them to date you with a bunch of lies? Is the sex better for you when it's not your girlfriend? Do you enjoy seeing them hurt when they find out? What do you get out of all of this that makes it worth doing?
To me, it seems like it's more trouble than it's worth to start a relationship, cheat on her, and then make sure you get caught. Since you seem to have no trouble picking up women, why the charade?
If you want me to be completely and totally honest with you, no I don't enjoy seeing them hurt it makes me want to die inside but I feel like I deserve it somehow.. I deserve the punishment that comes after I make it so they find out. I don't even really seek after other women, the past few relationships I've been in I tried my hardest but I always feel like I never deserved to be with anybody in a steady relationship.. I don't know I can't explain it to be honest. I tried to overdose after one failed relationship but it didn't work, I haven't done anything that crazy since and that was about 5 years ago but I am a drug addict (xanax and methadone). I don't know whats up with me.
Yeah I might have been joking around with the Boondocks video but honestly I wasn't trying to piss anybody off, I was actually looking for a response like this or the one that bowchicka07 put up. Who knows, I will never understand the human mind especially mine.
Well part of the answer is obvious. You lack self-control. If you really want to change, that's where you need to start. Whenever you make a decision, no matter how insignificant, make a habit of asking yourself what the consequences of that decision are, and if you really believe it's worth doing.
When I'm personally facing a tough choice, I think of two separate versions of myself: the person I am, and the person I want to be - still me, but perfected. The person I am might want to over-indulge in sex or food or drugs, but the person I want to be is strong enough to overcome such temptations. Making the decisions that he would make slowly turns you into him, and before you know it, you're a decent person.
If you never stop and ask yourself what you're doing, you'll never get the chance to truly make your own decisions. If you're not the one making your decisions, then who are you? Right now, you're nothing but a slave to your impulses; if you want to become an actual person, you have to take control of yourself and become stronger.
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