I have a brain tumor that's recently changed grades to become more malignant. I've been dealing with this for over a decade. The tumor can be removed but ALWAYS returns probably due to chromosomal damage, but they really don't know. I'm having invasive surgery in about a month and there is a chance I will die on the operating table. I'm 34.
The average lifespan for a grade 3 oligodendroglioma is 3 years.
Anyone who says they don't fear death is either lying, insane, devoutly religious (even then I think most of them are deluding themselves), or extremely elderly (most people just want it to be over). It's one of our most primal fears that have been around since we were simple proto-humans. Most people if they were drowning with another person would push that person underwater to reach air because at that point they're no longer a reasoning individual but are acting solely on instinct.
For those who say they wouldn't fear it, wait until death is literally knocking on your door and then tell me you're ok with unlocking that door and embracing it. I guarantee most of you would panic, lock, and barricade that door. I have a brain tumor and know I would.
If I'm going I would want it to be on that operating table. No fear, no pain. But instead I will probably just slide into dementia due to fear of waking seizures and from having portions of my brain removed.
I think I will get my parents to buy me a PS4 after the surgery. When you're dying you can do shit like that.
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