Being a teenager is hard compared to being a child (which at this point is the only thing you have to compare it with) but it's not as hard as being an adult with responsibilities (what we compare it with) so there's bound to be some tension; your problems will always be more pressing to you than to anyone else and in time you'll learn how to deal with changes...in the meanwhile it will require some patience from the people around you but also a bit of self-evaluation from you...if you say or do something that you know you shouldn't have but couldn't help in the heat of the moment, don't be too proud to apologise and explain the situation from your point of view; that'll go a long way towards avoiding long lasting resentment from either side.
So, to summarise, while your impulses and behaviour might not be entirely your fault (hormones, new situations you haven't developed answers to, the stress of having to create a future for yourself, wanting to have your own independence...all that fucks you up a little bit inside) they are definitely your responsibility and it's up to you to fix what you break. Now, whatever you do, don't think you are a "fucked-up human being"...you're going through some stuff and it's only too easy for us "respectable adults" to forget how it felt to be in your situation and how pressing and desperate life felt sometimes, mostly because it's easier for us to just say "I was being overly dramatic, it wasn't that bad" but it didn't feel that way while we were going through it.
You seem to be a very nice, respectful and polite guy (I agree with the other posters that you sound older) and I hope that when I have a teenager they can show the same traits. The fact that you worry about your behaviour is a great sign that you will overcome it, so just keep trying your best and before you know it, it'll all be behind you and you'll be a respectful member of the society looking down on teenagers just like the rest of us =P
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