So last August my mom was diagnosed with lung cancer at age 59. At the same time I fell ill and have been battling some unknown illness. I'm 42 years old and been smoking since I was 14. In the back of my mind I've been concerned I might have what my mom does. I got a call from the doctor last week that he found something concerning in my chest XRays. He didn't say what but only that I need more detailed tests. In the meantime I quit smoking cold turkey. I haven't had a cigarette in 7 days. The withdraws have been pure hell. I can't focus on anything other then wanting a smoke. Part of me just wants to start smoking again because if I'm a goner what does it matter.
When I was a kid my grandmother smoked. She grew up on a tobacco farm in Kentucky during the great depression. She smoked her first cigarette when she was 11. She lived to be 80. I never though I could get sick at such a young age. I'm just hoping for the best. I've seen what my mom is going through with radiation and chemo. My mom is cancer free and she still won't quit smoking.