[QUOTE="needled24-7"]I can withstand it. But after watching stuff like that I go to YouTube and watch funny, happy videos to get my mind off the other stuff. :PLockedge
This. I'm desensitized to the point where watching videos of people getting mutilated doesn't effect me, but the fact it doesn't effect me gets me down in the dumps, so I tend to cheer myself up afterward.I may be misinterpreting things, but basically what I'm hearing is that you see things, feel bad, and then try to cleanse yor mind of what you saw in order to get rid of the bad feelings?
And was I correct in interpreting that your bad feelings were NOT the result of actually SEEING whatever you saw, but that your bad feelings were caused by NOT FEELING BAD about whatever you saw?
Am I wrong or was that pretty much spot on?
If I'm wrong, then I'm sorry but I was wrong.
But if I am right, and what I interpreted actually reflects what you intended to say, then THAT could be a problem.
It's about desensitization and acceptance. Feeling bad because you saw something horrible is normal. Feeling bad because you DON'T feel bad is admittance that you don't feel bad about seeing truly messed up ****. And THAT is a WARNING. That's admitting that you SHOULD feel bad about seeing truly messed up ****, which is like admitting that you lost a part of yourself once you STOPPED feeling bad about seeing messed up ****.
NOW, when you see messed up ****, it doesn't bother you. You admit that it's a result of desensitization. You've been desensitized to the ACTUAL messed up **** that you see, and what makes you feel bad is NOT eeling bad about seeing messed up ***. Do you SEE where this is logically headed? Do you SEE that it's equally posible to become desensitized to the feeling you get when you watch messed up stuff and don't feel bad, just as you got desensitized to the ACTUAL messed up stuff in the first place?
Search your feeling, I think you know this to be true.
We can't help the way that we feel. But it certainly becomes easier and more comfortable to feel a certain way after you've become "desensitized" to it. The Unfamiliar generally makes people feel BAD, until they've become desensitized to it. Is this the sort of stuff that we WANT to be desensitized to? Never mind ACTUALLY killing or murdering people. But If you have become so desensitized to basic human understanding and compassion, and feel bad about such a loss, then that's a warning. Maybe you need to spend less time on anonymous internet forums and maybe you should spend less time watching murder movies and playing murder simulators. Maybe it's help if you volunteered at a rape therapy center and actually got to KNOW some people who were victims of atrocities.
Or...maybe doing that would desensitize you even more. But you've gotta do SOMETHING different. At some point you must have REALIZED that you had made a transition from feeling bad about suffering to feeling bad about not feeling bad about suffering. That's the time to examine WHY such a change has occured, and what you have to do in order to keep you from progressing on a general trend towards lack of concern about human life.
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