I've been uploading videos on YouTube since 2009. It's been a good outlet for me to talk about my hobbies and other interests. Getting a good following is tough though.

I made a GameSpot account just so I could post in the game-specific forums that were then shared with GameFAQs. At the time there was sort of a feud between GameSpot and GameFAQ users on those boards. I remember being ridiculed by some GF users for being a GS member. Pretty silly now thinking back to it.

I eventually started browsing the GameSpot forums and started watching the video reviews and the On The Spot show and became hooked. I would be on GameSpot daily browsing the forums and watching the video content. The community was bustling back then and it's sad to see that the community is mostly gone now, but nothing lasts forever. This is one of maybe two forums that I still continue to browse.

For me, the heydays of Gamespot were 2004-2007. So much exciting video game coverage, awesome shows, and a very active community on the forums. Things started going downhill after the "Gerstmann Gate", and I think the final nail in the coffin was when Gamespot essentially merged with Giant Bomb/Whiskey Media. From a business standpoint though, it's understandable. There really isn't a need for professional video game journalism and reviews anymore. It's part of the same reason G4 failed on it's attempted revival, no one asked for it.

That being said, I'll always miss the energy this website had in its prime. It was a great source for video game news and related events with a very cool staff.

A lot of people like to point out that everything natural on Earth is part of a cycle, i.e. recycled. This includes living things like plants and animals that can become food, or provide some kind of benefit, for other living things. What a lot of people don't want to believe is that we humans are part of that same cycle. Our bodies can become food for the soil or food for other mammals, just like any other creature. It makes sense, but we don't want to accept that fate. We can't fathom the idea of our deceased loved ones bodies being eaten by the Earth, so we bury them in caskets so that the soil can't get to them. People want to believe that humans are special; That we're more than just animals, and I understand why. Trees can live to be thousands of years old but we're lucky if we live to be 100 years. It doesn't seem fair that for how capable of a species we are, our lives are so short. But as everyone also likes to point out, life is not fair.

In short, while I would love to see my dead loved ones again, logic tells me that once you die that is it. Your life is over. So, make everyday count and enjoy life while you have it.

Moving out won't necessarily change you or your life, but I'd still much rather live on my own than with my parents. Having your own place is a major step to real independence and it's a great feeling, even if I am alone in it most of the time. Ironically, the worst loneliness I've felt has been when I'm around people (including family).

I feel like you might be in a similar rut that I was in about ten years ago. The years of 2009-2011 were not good to me, and by 2011 it was hitting me hard and I had enough. I knew what I had to do if I wasn't happy with where my life was going, so I just started to take action. I finally got my first job in 2012, met some cool people, had some new experiences, and made some new memories. After just a few years my life had really turned around and was heading in a much better direction. I've still got some things to work on and I'm not sure where life is going to take me next, but I'm trying to make sure that I'm ready for whatever life throws at me.

I'd like to visit England, Italy, and Japan but I don't know if it'll ever happen. Traveling internationally is costly and I don't know if I could handle the jetlag. Canada might be the only possibility for now.

@mycatismilk: I'm kind of embarrassed to say that I tried online dating a couple of years ago. I started talking to this girl on okcupid and we were having good conversations. She eventually gave me her number so we can text, so I texted her. But after a couple of days of not replying, she gets back with me and says we can chat on Facebook. So I add her on there and I send her a message. Days go by and no response, so I just delete her. It was really weird.

There have been a few people I've clicked with, but most of them were co-workers that I don't work with anymore. I don't go to many places where people gather like the gym, church, or bars (I don't drink). I've actually had more success making friends online. I met my best friend through YouTube and we started chatting and now we talk to each other on the phone usually at least once a week. But he lives about 800 miles away from me and he also works a lot so we don't get many chances to interact as I would like.

I moved out six years ago but I also have that same feeling. Moving out on my own didn't change my life much, and I find myself being more lazy and undecisive on what to do in my free time. I don't play video games anywhere near as much as I did when I was a kid despite having more now than I ever have, and that might be part of the problem. Between video games, movies, and a multitude of streaming services, the choices for home entertainment are way too saturated. I too have also never had a girlfriend, and I'm 33.

Sounds like me honestly, but I do occasionally step out of my comfort zone and the results can be mixed. I tend to feel like an alien amongst groups of people which in turn makes me uncomfortable and I come off as shy and quiet. It's a very bad feeling that I try to avoid.

I desire companionship and intimacy, but I believe the kind of love that I would require is nearly impossible to find or might only exist in fairy tales.

One thing that is missing in your life that's keeping you from complete happiness or satisfaction. For me, it would have to be a loving family or love in general. I've always had a relatively small family and it's just been getting gradually smaller as years go by. I lost my dad in 2009 to cancer and my mom doesn't really do much these days in her 70s. My grandparents have all passed away and my only sibling is going through a divorce. I live alone with no family or kids of my own. Even though I'm fortunate in many ways, I sometimes wish I had a bigger family that I could bond and do things with (I'm very selectively social). I just think I would be in a better place mentally.