I've been gone for months. A lot has been going on. I realize that I should probably just let Gamespot die, as I haven't been on the forums (hardcore) in forever. But I just wanted to tell everybody... Thanks.
Gamespot is one of the core reasons my life is now as wonderful as it is now. It is one of the core reasons I went from being a wanna-be priest, to a devout Atheist. And my becoming an Atheist has effected every moment of my life since, a gigantic domino effect that has led to now, where I have a fantastic girlfriend, plenty of friends at school, and have honestly never been happier in my life.
I guess I should explain a little more in depth. One and a half years ago (I'm rounding) in April-May '08, I wanted to be a Jesuit priest. I was extremely religious, prayed as much as I could, and was absolutely positive about everything I believed. But I was unhappy with life. I hated school, kids made fun of me, but I always blew it off, saying that I was getting closer to heaven, I would be out of this **** and in a seminary soon, yadda yadda yadda. So I got on Gamespot, as I liked videogames, and found a particular interest in the Off Topic forum.
Often times, I would get into religious debates with people, where I was a closed-minded idiot and always thought I was right, never really taking into consideration what the Atheists were saying. But then, I started to take it into consideration. Stuff started making sense.
I began to think about everything, and soon by early June, I had converted into an Atheist. Funny how fast things went by when I opened up and listened. But that summer was by far the worst summer of my life. Maybe it was the sudden jerk in religious beliefs, or the after effects of such a lousy school year that had made me slightly antisocial. I cried a LOT, and to pass the time by I would go on the Gamespot Forums, and stay up until 5 in the morning. Sometimes I would even venture towards the dreaded... *gulp* ... teh 4 chanz
Basically I went down a downward spiral that summer, but Gamespot kept me up. You can even look back into my blogs, and see all my emo posts that summer :P But the school year came, I got social, and I started to love life again. I slowly began to drift away from Gamespot. By far, it was my favorite school year ever. I had gotten used to my Atheist lifestyle, and everything seemed so much simpler. I made tons of friends, some Atheist so I wasn't totally alone at this Catholic school.
Fast forward to this past summer, I never even logged onto my Gamespot account when I got onto Gamespot. I still played games, checked out reviews and read what other people said on the forums, but never really logged in to say anything. Then about midway through that summer, I started talking to this girl... We'll call her "Jane" ;)
She's been in my class, but we never really talked. She seemed to be too popular for me, and she even admits she always just thought I was a shy guy. But one fateful night she chatted me up on Facebook, said she got a cell phone, and asked for my number. I thought it was pretty random, but we'd talked before and I used to have the biggest crush on her best friend, so we would always talk about her. Now it seemed she had a thing for me.
We started texting, badda bing, this school year came, we admitted we liked each other, the stage was set. The night I asked her out, we still weren't a couple yet, she invited me to come over to her house to meet her family.
I was scared poopless at first, but everything went great, the parents loved me, and I asked her out by the end of the night. She of course said yes.
And ever since then, it's been magic. I've never been happier in my life. And I feel I owe it all to Gamespot, for starting this domino effect. And now that I "have a life", haha, I probably will not be returning here very much at all. So I just thought I would post this final blog, to let you guys that care know how I'm doing. I'm doing perfect. I can already tell this school year will be a thousand times better then last. And though I know only 2 or 3 people will read this, I just wanted to post this.
As a thanks to Gamespot, and a thanks to all you Atheists that helped knock some sense into me. A thanks to all the people that helped me out in my angsty, emo moods during my "transitional summer". You know who you are.