@Byshop: I am 23. Trust me, I don't kiss her ass. We're always disagreeing on things and fighting by teasing each other and whatnot. I love her but I respect myself a lot. I would never beg her to love me. One of the big reasons I tried to stop talking to her and meet other girls was because she started to lose respect for me. So I said **** it and I stopped talking to her completely. I made so many different male and female friends but my heart is still attached to that girl. My stupid heart wants what it wants. Logically, my brain agrees with almost everyones comments here. I just wish I can control my heart the same way.

@SOedipus: I am talking to a therapist for my depression. I don't want to be deeply in love but I am. I don't want to be obsessed its a shitty feeling, but my stupid heart wants what it wants. I wish I can control it.

@blaznwiipspman1: I've moved to a lot of new places and met soo many different people. Thats what ive been telling myself all this time that youll meet someone else. its not working. I wish I can surgically remove those feelings I have for her.

@thegerg: i would never hurt her. I love her enough that im willing to let her go, but my heart is killing me. I've always taken care of her from the shadows. I would never force myself on her. On the contrary, I should be more outspoken on my feelings for her but i'm afraid that would destroy our friendship and i dont want that.

@SOedipus: The only way I can get through in medicine is by thinking about her.

@davillain-: I did bro. I just can't. I keep looking for the same girl in other people. I don't know why, I don't want to be pathetically helpless but I am. No one would attract me the same way. I'm just stuck on here. I know I probably won't get her but I have a feeling i'll be letting my soul mate go if I sit and do nothing.

@mirgamer: I did.. no one came as close. I just keep trying to find the same girl in other people.

@Storm_Marine: She feels like a soul mate :(

@Gamerno6666: Yes.. :(

Should I pursue? She didn't outright reject me, she's indifferent towards me.

I don't know what to do. I'm deeply in love with her and no one comes as close to my heart than she does. I tried dating and talking to other girls but my hearts want no one except her. I just keep looking for her in other girls. I love the sound of her name. I never felt the same way regarding anyone. She really feels like a soul mate.