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#1 DeadPark121
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@-Blasphemy- said:

Nice analogy OP, and I understand what you are saying but when you have no friends at all and you don't see things changing for you it's hard to still want to be a part of the big picture.

I also have no friends. a tough job. a wife i fight with constantly. house & car payments. a daughter..... i coasted through life. accepting what life gave me and waiting for it to give me something better. it never did. and i eventually attempted suicide. it's a shame that i let things get that bad. but it did open my eyes. i may still have no friends. but several of my co workers visited me in the hospital. if i put the effort in, i'm sure i could make them into the friends i always hoped to have. which would make my job easier. my wife has also come around after this whole thing. she's helping out more which is what we always fought about....things just don't seem as bad.

i know i'm putting kind of a positive spin on my suicide attempt. please don't think i'm encouraging it. i could have died. but i'm lucky i didn't and i'm glad it opened my eyes to things that were there all along. i was just too preoccupied with my self pity to see any of it. Things aren't going to change for you unless you put at least some effort into changing them. again, i hate to encourage my suicide attempts. but it was one of the first real steps i ever took towards shaping my own life. even if that shape was ending it. and the result is that it brought to light a lot of the supporters i ignored.

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#2 DeadPark121
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Thank you everyone. I'm really happy hearing all the kind words.

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#3 DeadPark121
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Hello everyone. I am finally home from the hospital today after a failed suicide attempt. During my recovery, i had a lot of time to think. and i thought of something i wish to share in hopes it will make someone else feel better about themselves.

My suicide attempt was at least partially due to depression from not knowing where i fit in this world. With billions of people in the world, how important could my one life be. That's partially why I'm a gamer. you're always the main character. The whole world revolves around you. You're the Hero, You matter. It always made me feel good playing games because of that. I want to stand out a feel important in life. i think most people do. But standing out is hard. Most people will live a normal life. And for some, like me, that was never good enough.

After a lot of thought, I noticed something. My PSP has a single dead pixel towards the lower right corner. 1 pixel. the screen is 480 x 272 pixels for a total of 130,560 total pixels. That's A LOT. When I'm looking at the screen, i could never identify any single pixel. They all looked the same to me. they were all part of the bigger picture. But that one dead pixel. I always noticed the hole left by that 1 single individual pixel. And the image as a whole suffered greatly because of it.

You're never going to be the center of the universe. But that doesn't mean you're not an important part of the big picture. If i can notice a single dead pixel in 130,560. Imagine the impact your life has on the people around you. If you know it or not, you play a part in the big picture. And your absence WILL be noticed by the people around you.

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i'll do my best not to. but possible spoilers

late in the game Madison had a conversation that mentioned the detective Scott Shelby. After hearing his name, she instantly know both who he was and where he lived. unless i missed it. or didn't see it because of how i played. the two of them never had any direct interactions.

 

also late in the game, Madison has the option of calling the FBI agent Jayden on his personal cell phone number. Again, i don't remember them ever having any interactions that would give her his personal cell number.

 

did i miss or forget these situations. or are they just one of those little plot holes?

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thanks for everyones input. i knew from the beginning that it didn't really fit with modern games. and it was more of an arcade thing. it was just a curiosity that popped into my head to see if any games still used it.

i am a bit surprised about the catherine example though. i haven't gotten around to playing that game yet, but i had no idea it had any kind of system like that. thank you for that info.

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i gave her kirby super stars for the snes and TMNT: hyperstone heist for the genesis. and she LOVES them. she's also playing super mario world and is in love with yoshi. as all gamers should be.

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I was just playing some NES games, and it made me wonder. has the lives system pretty much disappeared? i know games like Mario still use it. but i'm not counting them. mainly because it's a joke. by the end of new super mario 2, i had like 300 lives.

but seriously. are there any relevant games anymore that use a lives and game over system? where after you die 5 times you are done and have to start your game over?

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#8 DeadPark121
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demon souls, of course. why didn't i think of that. that's a perfect easy game for a 5 year old girl. LOL

thanks for all the suggestions already. i'll be sure to look into some of them. as for kingdom hearts. while i'm sure she would love it, i love it, she hasn't gotten the hang of a 3d environment yet, so i want to keep her to side scrollers. build up her basics first. and make her enjoy playing games in general.

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#9 DeadPark121
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Hi. my daughter has been playing the old mario and sonic games and really loves them. so now i'm trying to expand her library. but i can't think of any good games to give her. anything i can think of would be too hard for her i think. So please. what games do you recommend? (NES / SNES / Genesis)

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#10 DeadPark121
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Has anyone heard any news about a possible collector's edition like with the first game?

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