What a man does for pay is of little significance. What he is, as a sensitive instrument responsive to the world's beauty, is everything!H P Lovecraft
I like this particular quote from Lovecraft as it describes fairly well my current standpoint in life.
For pay, I work in a restaurant. It's a dead-end job with little reward, and certainly garners no ultimate satisfaction to me.
But my writing? I approach my writing in the sense that I'm interpreting my thoughts and feelings and/or my own experiences in life into another medium. I have never been paid for anything that I've written, although I certainly aspire to. Writing, to me, isn't so much as a hobby so much as it is a star in the far off horizon that I hope to one day be able to navigate to and inhabit. Certainly, I toil ceaselessly, reading countless websites and books and pouring over my own work in an effort to better myself and refine my tactics to a point wherein I feel comfortable enough to present a body of work to someone and hope to get some money for it.
If I never do, I can live with that. But I want to merge the insignificance of money with my passion for being a sensitive instrument responsive to the world's beauty. We are all able to see and experience the world, but those of us who write, who sculpt, who draw, who compose, who paint...we interpret the world around us in ways that is [hopefully] unique to our own vision, and responsive to the range of beauty in the world from birth to death, from salvation to homelessness, from riches to unfathomable poverty, and everything in between. Still, on my hard-drive and in notebooks and binders lie everything about me as a person. My thoughts, my fears, my romantic entanglements, every single imperfection that comprises me as a human being and every single lesson I've learned from them that moves me one step forward toward some intangible goal...these are all the things sprawled out for anyone who cares to read them.
I just hope that one day that happens to be millions of people so I can kick back and be one of the lucky few who's able to do what I absolutely adore doing for a living.
I was just reading over a few quotes by Lovecraft today, and then realized that we haven't had a new quote of the week in a month of Sundays. This particular one struck me, as it unequivocally sums up why it is that I write.
What do you think?