To start off I've never had a girlfriend before. I liked this girl for several months and developed a kind of obsession with her. Not really an obsession, but she was all I thought about, and I felt like she was the one. I asked her out and she said "maybe some other time" and that was that. I still saw her two or three times a day which was torture. Anyways it's been 5 months and still I can't get over her. It's not like I'm even interested in her 'that' way, I just feel I need to be with her. Maybe it stems from the fact that she was alone or never had a boyfriend I felt I had a chance. I saw her at prom but I didn't dance with her (we were close to eachother). We stopped talking a bit before prom, but we did see eachother. I didn't ask her to dance because a bit before I asked some other girl to dance and she said no.. so in my mind I've developed some sort of thing for rejection, and I don't think I could handle her saying no. She wasn't with anyone at prom, she didn't dance with any other guy. I know I should have asked her, but it was realy hard for me.. it sparked the same feeling I got inside of me before I asked her out.
Anyways so I got into the same college she got into, and I was really excited to getting in (because it's kind of hard to get into), but I ultimately decided to go to another one (5 hours away). It was a very hard decision, one that I constantly have second thoughts about, and now I'm considered asking if I can switch. I feel if I work on my appearance a bit more I could have a shot with her.. she really is different than any other girl for me and I don't think I'll ever be able to forget her. I keep these feelings to myself though (and OT) because it's silly to tell her this because we don't know eachother that well. Anyways, I feel really depressed just going that far away from her.. I really just need to see her again.. I just want to interact with her, or at least to say goodbye and hug her because she meant so much for me. So right now I'm at a loss of words.. Any idea on what I should do? Should I email her telling her that I liked her and just wanted to say goodbye? Should I try to shift to the same university as her?
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