Welp, I'm in the hospital again.

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#1 DEVILinIRON
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Yay me. Attempted suicide. Welcome me back to the world again.

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#2 horgen  Moderator
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hope youโ€™re doing ok all things considered.

Try to get some proper help, which I know is far easier said than done.

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#3 DEVILinIRON
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@horgen: Thanks. One of the conditions for leaving the hospital is to have a treatment plan.

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#4 Nirgal
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Sorry to hear that. What's the reason you attempted suicide? If it's not too personal to ask.

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#5  Edited By Macutchi
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im so glad you failed. whatever the reason im sure it's fixable. there's always hope. don't give up mate

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#6 GirlUSoCrazy
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I'm working on a get well card

@nirgal: I don't want to speak for Deviliniron but I think an answer to your question would require him to retread difficult ground so be careful what you ask and consider what it would require him to think about and go through to provide an answer.

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#7  Edited By LJS9502_basic
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Dude, don't do that. I know we don't agree on much if anything, but remember your life is valuable. A support group would probably help you because you'd find people do care about you. Take care. If you get those urges, tell yourself you won't act for 48 hours and seek the help you need. Good luck.

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#8 SOedipus
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Can't tell who's going through what even in person, let alone a message board. Hope you get better man.

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#9 SargentD
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Screw that man, happy it didn't work. Things can be outright terrible but that's never the way to go about it. Hope you can make a turn around from this. You are very lucky it didnt work.

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#10 horgen  Moderator
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@DEVILinIRON said:

@horgen: Thanks. One of the conditions for leaving the hospital is to have a treatment plan.

Good to hear. Looking forward to start with the treatment? Or is it the same thing you have been through before?

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#12 uninspiredcup
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Heavy stuff. Get through it, get well.

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#13  Edited By GirlUSoCrazy
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@LJS9502_basic said:

I know we don't agree on much if anything

I'm willing to bet there's probably more people have in common than they realize. Sometimes people make the small stuff big and they forget about everything else.

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#14 MirkoS77
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Damn.

Donโ€™t know you, but glad youโ€™re still here. I hope you have help lined up, and you persue it. Life can really suck, but please keep fighting and keep the hope alive.

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#15 Litchie
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Everyone here and around you are very glad you're still here.

I have parents who both have several attempts of suicide, one brother too. Luckily they were only attempts.

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#16  Edited By DEVILinIRON
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@girlusocrazy: Awww. Thank you!

And thanks everybody

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#17 GirlUSoCrazy
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@DEVILinIRON: ๐Ÿ˜Š

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#18 Sushiglutton
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Hope you recover and find meaning and happiness ๐Ÿ˜Š!


When I feel a bit down, I like to think about all the technical breakthroughs that are just around the corner. For example AGI. The world will get crrrrrazy, you donโ€™t wanna miss that ๐Ÿ˜!

Iโ€™m just too curious to see how it will play out to check out prematurly ๐Ÿค“.

Anyway, all the best to you!

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#19 DanishAnwar
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Gratitude, feeling grateful for the little things in life, can be a big tonic. This attitude will make you feel happy no matter what the circumstances.

But it's sometimes difficult to feel grateful when life seems like a nightmare for whatever reason (abusive parents, abusive relationship, poverty, etc). In that case, I suggest adopting a fighter attitude and work your way towards happines. Happiness is your right that only you can claim.

Lastly, you should not link your happiness to things that like a spiders web are fragile like relationships. Make a strong foundation for inner happiness and you will never ever will suicidal again.

Best of luck for your life journey from a total stranger.

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#20  Edited By GirlUSoCrazy
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@danishanwar: I think one thing that helps is volunteering or have a job working with people who need help, it feels good to have a positive influence and to see a positive result from your actions. You also are humbled by witnessing the struggles of others.

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#21  Edited By mrbojangles25
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@DEVILinIRON: I'm happy you're such a failure in this very specific regard ๐Ÿ˜‰๐Ÿ˜‹

With that said, I wish you all the success in your other pursuits not related to self-harm ๐Ÿ˜Š๐Ÿ™‚

@danishanwar said:

Gratitude, feeling grateful for the little things in life, can be a big tonic. This attitude will make you feel happy no matter what the circumstances.

...

This.

This x a million billion.

Practicing gratitude is one thing that has changed my life in recent years. Start small and build on it.

I wake up and I'm thankful for my blanket. Thankful for hot showers. Thankful for tea. Thankful for being able to see the sunrise at work, for that 10-minute respite. Thankful I work with friends. Thankful I have a job (even if it can suck sometimes).

The more you do it, the better you will feel. You're more or less rewiring your brain. And you don't need to be thankful for big things (though you can be, too!). Like this doesn't need to be some big spiritual journey, you can be pragmatic.

The thing is, as you acclimate to it, you (well, me I guess) will turn into this positive person and you'll see just how miserable people are around you and how they bring it on themselves at time. Not that people don't have serious problems, but we tend to dwell on the bad and don't acknowledge the good in your life. My coworker is always whining about his roommate, but never talks about how they're also good friends with years of history. He complains about his car breaking down, but doesn't celebrate how he has two cars and the other one works. He complains about taking his dog to the vet, but never appreciates having such a really great companion.

It's free, it's easy (with practice), and it works.

Gratitude! Try it out.

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#22  Edited By dracula_16
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Please don't be offended, but I will pray for you.

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#23 GirlUSoCrazy
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@dracula_16: Same

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#24  Edited By Macutchi
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@DEVILinIRON: can you just give us a thumbs up that you're ok, getting help / got things under control pls mate?

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#25  Edited By DEVILinIRON
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@Macutchi said:

@DEVILinIRON: can you just give us a thumbs up that you're ok, getting help / got things under control pls mate?

I'm ๐Ÿ‘Œ. Thanks for asking.

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#26 Macutchi
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@DEVILinIRON: great news x.

please dm if you waiver. here to help in whatever capacity i can

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#27 GirlUSoCrazy
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@DEVILinIRON: Glad to hear things are going well

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#28 outworld222
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Take it easy. This world is a madhouse sometimes.

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#29 judaspete  Online
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Glad you're still here. There's this desire to give advice, but I know everyone's depression is different. So let me just say that I hope you learn to navigate yours, and have the support network to help you keep stable when things get shaky.

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#30 GirlUSoCrazy
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Hope everything is ok.

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#31 alijos
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Sorry to hear that. Hopefully, the treatment will help and you will see that life is better than it seems now.

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#32  Edited By DEVILinIRON
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@girlusocrazy: Thanks. I have a bunch of support that was assigned to me as a condition of release. So I'm doing OK. :-)

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#33 GirlUSoCrazy
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@DEVILinIRON: ๐Ÿ˜Š

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#34  Edited By Bond007uk
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I don't visit this board very often, but I'm glad I came here today and read this. I really hope you get better. As I person who has had some, albeit rather minor, 'episodes' with my mental health over the years, and knowing of some others, I can appreciate what you've been going through.

Stay strong.

This may be rather a clichรฉ saying, but remember, 'it's okay, not to be okay'.