I'd like to share this with you, since you don't know me...So there is this urge inside of me for a long time (already years), and that is to write and make music, but something in me keeps on ignoring it. Like if I'm starting to I would just go to sleep or do other things like play games, watch tv, or go to the internet. I just can't focus, take on it full attention. It's like always evading,escaping for me, but whenever there are times I am thinking about it I know and I feel that is my purpose in life. I know I have wasted and currently is wasting lots of time, but I can't help it. Like your a car and you can't even accelerate.