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#101 dragonmaster64
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2 things:

1. Link to topics, plz.
2. Hinty hint hint, if you've made topics before and no one understands the illness (and therefore cannot truly help you) why are you still making topics?

I'm not wrong, you're just making excuses now, you can fvck right off with the guilt trip too. 

Iceozo
ok it seems your idiocy knows no bounds. ill save you some energy and tell you that you shouldnt post here anymore because i will not take you seriously. as for your stupidity it seems it cant be saved.
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#102 Niff_T
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I can't believe this thread is still going. It can't be serious.

TC's repeated himself too many times without elaborating on anything. 'I'm intelligent.' 'My situation is unique.' 'My condition is too complicated to explain.'

What a load of ****.

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#103 chaoscougar1
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[QUOTE="br0kenrabbit"]

[QUOTE="dragonmaster64"] thanks for your input but im not the average joe. i am highly intellectual and i know. i wish it is that simple but as i said i believe this to be a condition never existing before and thats why normal routine advice wont work. this is something unfathomable. but just know i have tried what you asked and a hundred times more.dragonmaster64

No offense, but if you were as 'highly intellectual' as you think you are, I'd expect far better grammar and sentence structure. It isn't just "this is the internet, blah blah blah"...if you were educated to use proper English then that would be your natural way of writing: you would actually have to make an attempt to write poorly.

I'm wondering if you're a narcissist now. You think other people are stupid and you're so bright, so you're always nit-picking other peoples habits to find their imperfections. Yeah, that'd drive just about anyone nuts.

 

 

yes i am somewhat narcisstic but i know when to clearly divide the line. Through what i have been through i can see life through so many different perspectives thats why i am highly intellectual, my greatest asset/gift is that i am great at understanding. Dont write me off just because my gramer is off. There is no correlation. and im rushing and kind of emotional. in the end youll have to take my word for it.


And yet you couldn't understand why it was necessary to show respect to the judge in a courtroom
My thinks you need to re-assess your gifts

lol'd

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#105 Iceozo
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[QUOTE="Iceozo"]

2 things:

1. Link to topics, plz.
2. Hinty hint hint, if you've made topics before and no one understands the illness (and therefore cannot truly help you) why are you still making topics?

I'm not wrong, you're just making excuses now, you can fvck right off with the guilt trip too. 

dragonmaster64

ok it seems your idiocy knows no bounds. ill save you some energy and tell you that you shouldnt post here anymore because i will not take you seriously. as for your stupidity it seems it cant be saved.



For someone who is so "intelligent" (and I use the term intelligent in your case extremely lightly) you really don't understand the concept of backing up an argument. :lol: When I post asking about the topics you should probably post them. Anyway have fun with your imaginary illness, don't worry I totally understand it's fun to pretend. Sometimes when I play Minecraft I like to build little dirt mounds and then leave a rose and pretend I'm a mysterious Spanish gentleman.

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#106 dragonmaster64
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[QUOTE="dragonmaster64"][QUOTE="Iceozo"]

2 things:

1. Link to topics, plz.
2. Hinty hint hint, if you've made topics before and no one understands the illness (and therefore cannot truly help you) why are you still making topics?

I'm not wrong, you're just making excuses now, you can fvck right off with the guilt trip too. 

Iceozo

ok it seems your idiocy knows no bounds. ill save you some energy and tell you that you shouldnt post here anymore because i will not take you seriously. as for your stupidity it seems it cant be saved.



For someone who is so "intelligent" (and I use the term intelligent in your case extremely lightly) you really don't understand the concept of backing up an argument. :lol: When I post asking about the topics you should probably post them. Anyway have fun with your imaginary illness, don't worry I totally understand it's fun to pretend. Sometimes when I play Minecraft I like to build little dirt mounds and then leave a rose and pretend I'm a mysterious Spanish gentleman.

good luck with your mysterious spanish gentlemen. lol.
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#107 chaoscougar1
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contricting yourselfdragonmaster64

:|

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#108 dragonmaster64
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[QUOTE="dragonmaster64"]contricting yourselfchaoscougar1

:|

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#109 chaoscougar1
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[QUOTE="chaoscougar1"]

[QUOTE="dragonmaster64"]contricting yourselfdragonmaster64

:|

hiel hitler

For a "genius" You weren't even fucking close Also *heil
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#110 dragonmaster64
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[QUOTE="dragonmaster64"][QUOTE="chaoscougar1"]

:|

chaoscougar1

hiel hitler

For a "genius" You weren't even **** close Also *heil

do i have to begin to explain myself? or are you that behind that you actually think theres a correlation?

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#111 chaoscougar1
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[QUOTE="chaoscougar1"][QUOTE="dragonmaster64"] hiel hitlerdragonmaster64

For a "genius" You weren't even **** close Also *heil

do i have to begin to explain myself? or are you that behind that you actually think theres a correlation?

So you think there is no correlation between someones intelligence and their ability to properly articulate themselves? I think you're the one that's behind champ I don't know who gave you this undeserved sense of intelligence, but I would like to meet em
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#112 heytheredarlin
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I can't believe this thread is still going. It can't be serious.

TC's repeated himself too many times without elaborating on anything. 'I'm intelligent.' 'My situation is unique.' 'My condition is too complicated to explain.'

What a load of ****.

Niff_T

Don't forget whenever someone calls TC out on something he just calls them an idiot.

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#113 dragonmaster64
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[QUOTE="dragonmaster64"]

[QUOTE="chaoscougar1"] For a "genius" You weren't even **** close Also *heilchaoscougar1

do i have to begin to explain myself? or are you that behind that you actually think theres a correlation?

So you think there is no correlation between someones intelligence and their ability to properly articulate themselves? I think you're the one that's behind champ I don't know who gave you this undeserved sense of intelligence, but I would like to meet em

what ever makes you sleep at night "champ".
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#114 chaoscougar1
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[QUOTE="chaoscougar1"][QUOTE="dragonmaster64"] do i have to begin to explain myself? or are you that behind that you actually think theres a correlation?dragonmaster64
So you think there is no correlation between someones intelligence and their ability to properly articulate themselves? I think you're the one that's behind champ I don't know who gave you this undeserved sense of intelligence, but I would like to meet em

what ever makes you sleep at night "champ".

Good rebuttal
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#115 dragonmaster64
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[QUOTE="chaoscougar1"][QUOTE="dragonmaster64"][QUOTE="chaoscougar1"] So you think there is no correlation between someones intelligence and their ability to properly articulate themselves? I think you're the one that's behind champ I don't know who gave you this undeserved sense of intelligence, but I would like to meet em

what ever makes you sleep at night "champ".

Good rebuttal

yea
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#116 BenedictArnold7
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It is possible that you are very capable at certain things due to bizarre perspective, but it is obvious that your mind is poisoned. Good luck.
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#117 Planeforger
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It sounds like you are avoiding talking about the specifics of your illness, because you are afraid that it might end up being something mundane and easily labelled, which would mean that you'd lose your status as a special little snowflake. If I'm wrong, prove it by actually trying to talk about what you're going through. Also, I don't buy the whole "nobody else is smart enough to understand what I'm going through" story. It doesn't take a genius to realise that talking about your problems and hoping that somebody might recognise them is vastly more helpful than not talking about your problems and hoping that people might guess what ails you.
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#118 BenedictArnold7
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Listen to this poem... its on YouTube. It's called "Last Thoughts on Woodie Guthrie." That will help you.

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#119 dkdk999
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[QUOTE="Nengo_Flow"]

stop being a b*tch and act right.

problem solved.

dragonmaster64
thats kind of funny what you said. but the enigma of my life is beyond bizzare. you cannot begin to fathom what i go through.

The coldness of gamespot posters is rediculous, don't seek sympathy here. But ya sounds rough man, sorry :(.
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#120 lo_Pine
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[QUOTE="Iceozo"]

2 things:

1. Link to topics, plz.
2. Hinty hint hint, if you've made topics before and no one understands the illness (and therefore cannot truly help you) why are you still making topics?

I'm not wrong, you're just making excuses now, you can fvck right off with the guilt trip too. 

dragonmaster64
ok it seems your idiocy knows no bounds. ill save you some energy and tell you that you shouldnt post here anymore because i will not take you seriously. as for your stupidity it seems it cant be saved.

Delusional means you think people are out to get you. You have messianic thoughts about yourself (which by you calling yourself a genius seems pertinent). People are trying to communicate to you subliminally throught the TV or songs. Seems like this is one big troll thread if anything.
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#121 dragonmaster64
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[QUOTE="dkdk999"][QUOTE="dragonmaster64"][QUOTE="Nengo_Flow"] thats kind of funny what you said. but the enigma of my life is beyond bizzare. you cannot begin to fathom what i go through.

The coldness of gamespot posters is rediculous, don't seek sympathy here. But ya sounds rough man, sorry :(.

thanks man.[QUOTE="Planeforger"]It sounds like you are avoiding talking about the specifics of your illness, because you are afraid that it might end up being something mundane and easily labelled, which would mean that you'd lose your status as a special little snowflake. If I'm wrong, prove it by actually trying to talk about what you're going through. Also, I don't buy the whole "nobody else is smart enough to understand what I'm going through" story. It doesn't take a genius to realise that talking about your problems and hoping that somebody might recognise them is vastly more helpful than not talking about your problems and hoping that people might guess what ails you.

im not saying nobody is smart to understand. im saying its so bizzare and ridiculous one cannot begin to understand. its so bizzare that even if i tried my best i wouldnt be able to communicate it properly. and im not afraid i tried my best to tell the specifics to a doctor and yet to no avail.
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#122 hoola
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When these episodes happen do you still have complete conscious control over your limbs and mouth?  

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#123 Sphensen
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I thought I was the only one, weird i would find someone similar to me on gamespot

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#124 BenedictArnold7
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I think that when you see people you see their insides... their minds... you feel that you know what they are thinking and you don't realize that you could be wrong or are indeed wrong. AM I RIGHT?
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#125 deactivated-5f9e3c6a83e51
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This really isnt the place for this discussion.

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#126 Quaker-w00ts
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Rub some dirt in it :P

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#127 Optical_Order
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[QUOTE="chaoscougar1"][QUOTE="dragonmaster64"] what ever makes you sleep at night "champ".dragonmaster64
Good rebuttal

yea

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#128 dragonmaster64
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so i guess what it really comes down to, is what should i do? please only reply if you read the orignal post.
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#129 call_of_duty_10
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I am not surprised.I figured that out when you said that a lion can defeat an eagle.

Only a delusional person can say something preposterous like that.

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#130 dkdk999
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Does this stem from general social anxiety ?
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#131 dragonmaster64
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Does this stem from general social anxiety ? dkdk999
no
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#132 MrPraline
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This really isnt the place for this discussion.

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#133 BenedictArnold7
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Why the hell do people post this isn't the place for this discussion? If you don't want to participate in the discussion GET THE **** OUT OF IT.

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#134 LeBump
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Sorry to hear that man, phsycological problems are actually a big deal and I dont know why some of the people are being a-holes, but it is the internet :roll: What exactly are your delusions about?

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#135 MrPraline
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Why the hell do people post this isn't the place for this discussion? If you don't want to participate in the discussion GET THE **** OUT OF IT.

BenedictArnold7
That was well intentioned. This is a serious issue that I, and judging from the replies in here, OT as well cannot help him much with. He should see a professional.
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#136 BenedictArnold7
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[QUOTE="BenedictArnold7"]

Why the hell do people post this isn't the place for this discussion? If you don't want to participate in the discussion GET THE **** OUT OF IT.

MrPraline
That was well intentioned. This is a serious issue that I, and judging from the replies in here, OT as well cannot help him much with. He should see a professional.

It doesn't sound well intentioned. If you actually had good intentions you would have given some sort of advice. I don't want to argue with you, but it seems very unlikely that you care at all.
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#137 MrPraline
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[QUOTE="MrPraline"][QUOTE="BenedictArnold7"]

Why the hell do people post this isn't the place for this discussion? If you don't want to participate in the discussion GET THE **** OUT OF IT.

BenedictArnold7
That was well intentioned. This is a serious issue that I, and judging from the replies in here, OT as well cannot help him much with. He should see a professional.

It doesn't sound well intentioned. If you actually had good intentions you would have given some sort of advice. I don't want to argue with you, but it seems very unlikely that you care at all.

Well then that's my bad. I guess I should've clarified in the first post. But I do not believe we can be of much help in this matter. Guy should talk to a professional.
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#138 dragonmaster64
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read my original post.
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#139 mrbojangles25
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How long have you been taking your meds?

Mine took a good month or two to kick in (depression and anxiety).

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#140 dragonmaster64
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How long have you been taking your meds?

Mine took a good month or two to kick in (depression and anxiety).

mrbojangles25
about a year.
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#141 mrbojangles25
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[QUOTE="mrbojangles25"]

How long have you been taking your meds?

Mine took a good month or two to kick in (depression and anxiety).

dragonmaster64

about a year.

and theyre not helping?

Have you gone back and tried different medications, doses, etc?

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#142 dragonmaster64
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[QUOTE="dragonmaster64"][QUOTE="mrbojangles25"]

How long have you been taking your meds?

Mine took a good month or two to kick in (depression and anxiety).

mrbojangles25

about a year.

and theyre not helping?

Have you gone back and tried different medications, doses, etc?

please read the original post.
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#143 LeBump
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[QUOTE="mrbojangles25"]

[QUOTE="dragonmaster64"] about a year.dragonmaster64

and theyre not helping?

Have you gone back and tried different medications, doses, etc?

please read the original post.

hmm...maybe your lonely, since it you only get it around other people. Do you still get it when your with friends/close family?

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#145 dragonmaster64
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[QUOTE="dragonmaster64"][QUOTE="mrbojangles25"]

and theyre not helping?

Have you gone back and tried different medications, doses, etc?

LeBump

please read the original post.

hmm...maybe your lonely, since it you only get it around other people. Do you still get it when your with friends/close family?

yea everyone. this might be a bad example but its like having no right arm. whether anyone or anything is aorund you or not around you the right arm will always never be there. even when you sleep. my problem is similar as long as people are around me, i feel it. it does not matter who you are, it does not discriminate.
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#146 dkdk999
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Do you think you may want to come off the medications if they aren't helping ? I'm of the opinion that they can be quite harmful.
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#147 dragonmaster64
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Do you think you may want to come off the medications if they aren't helping ? I'm of the opinion that they can be quite harmful.dkdk999
yea iv been off for quite some time because they werent doing anything.
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#148 IdioticIcarus
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[QUOTE="dkdk999"]Do you think you may want to come off the medications if they aren't helping ? I'm of the opinion that they can be quite harmful.dragonmaster64
yea iv been off for quite some time because they werent doing anything.

Are you willing to try ones that you haven't yet? Or have you giving up on medication all together? Did you like any of your previous doctors?
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#149 LeBump
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[QUOTE="LeBump"]

[QUOTE="dragonmaster64"] please read the original post.dragonmaster64

hmm...maybe your lonely, since it you only get it around other people. Do you still get it when your with friends/close family?

yea everyone. this might be a bad example but its like having no right arm. whether anyone or anything is aorund you or not around you the right arm will always never be there. even when you sleep. my problem is similar as long as people are around me, i feel it. it does not matter who you are, it does not discriminate.

So let me get this straight, you becaome extremely sad or depressed, or just have suicidal thoughts, or get angry, or a strange mixture or a completly different feeling, or is it just unexplainable?

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#150 dragonmaster64
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[QUOTE="dragonmaster64"][QUOTE="LeBump"] hmm...maybe your lonely, since it you only get it around other people. Do you still get it when your with friends/close family?

LeBump

yea everyone. this might be a bad example but its like having no right arm. whether anyone or anything is aorund you or not around you the right arm will always never be there. even when you sleep. my problem is similar as long as people are around me, i feel it. it does not matter who you are, it does not discriminate.

So let me get this straight, you becaome extremely sad or depressed, or just have suicidal thoughts, or get angry, or a strange mixture or a completly different feeling, or is it just unexplainable?

its unexplainable. but i feel unbelieveable emotional pain and the end result is that i feel suicidal.