I am in an odd spot personally, considering this has been one of the best and hardest years of my life. I really got a hold of my mental health issues and eliminated the last of my insecurities and transformed myself into a positive person. It took the last 6 years to realize that im no longer the person I was in highschool and realized that I have accomplished a lot and truly have limitless potential. I also finished college last month, so I have felt on top of the world.
The thing is I still am not sure what I want to do in life, and feel lost. But I feel a certain solace that I will find a place for me, and have been enjoying cultivating different interests into my life that I want to pursue further. It's like I know I have the material to accomplish what I want but I just have not begun fully utilizing it.
Lastly I screwed up and got myself into some legal trouble, and that has been bearing down hard on my mind. It was nothing severe(although it could have been), but the thought that I could potentate have a record and other setbacks resulting from this are in the back of my mind. I have been handling it well and remaining positive, I don't know if this comes from my prior boost in self esteem/sense of control or just denial. But every now and then I dwell on how my life could be better if I would not have made one bad decision and got myself in this situation. I have a lawyer working on it for me so I am extremely hopeful(another reason im not flipping my shit) but having this monkey on my back with so much other stuff going on is hard.
Enough about me, how are you all doing?