I was going to do a bit of trolling here.... post a picture of a car trunk and some duct tape but meh.... you seem kind of disturbed.
First off you have to understand there is no "heart" and "head" conflict going on. Its all in your head and having these discussions, asking people what you can do to make someone "love" you or if you should pursue someone is not helping. This is obsession, its an addiction.
Second, you seem to be placing yourself in a non-existent relationship. Pretty much everything you are saying here is something i'd expect to hear from a 16 year old who just broke up with someone he was in a year long relationship with and lost his virginity to. Now, unless ive misunderstood the situation, you're no where near this.
Third, you've already established that this woman has no respect for you........... What more is needed? There's a big difference between not "liking" someone, not wanting to date them, or even disliking them in general and not respecting them.
I really dont know what else to say or have much advice here, i dont really get why you're thinking the way you're thinking. The only way i can really relate to it is by remembering being in 8th grade, dating a girl for a year who i lost my virginity to and had regular pussy for the first time in my life.... losing that situation is mentally devastating for a teen. But you're 23... go find someone else to obsess about. Go get a girl and obsess about her... go get a few hookers. Go to a strip club, good strippers are like cheap psychiatrists but you also get to see tits and ass and they might blow you for a few extra bucks. Are you drinking? Alone? It sounds like you're drinking alone. Thats not a good idea if this is your mental state, and its also not a good idea if youre on medication.
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