Do you ever worry about losing your mind?

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#1 Edited by warmblur (2541 posts) -

Life isn't easy obviously it comes with alot of stress, depression and anxiety that we endure in our lifetime. Do you ever worry or feel like you are losing it? I know in the past I've gotten so angry my head felt like it was spinning and nothing made sense and it felt like I lost control of my mind for a few minutes but that feeling wore off thankfully. What about you do you ever have that feeling? or worry that your mind may never comeback quite the same after some stressful shit?

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#2 Posted by Ezekiel43 (1616 posts) -

Kind of already there. I already mutter stuff like "It never gets better" and "They all hate me" to myself, almost involuntarily. But I still function.

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#3 Posted by foxhound_fox (97973 posts) -

Alzhiemer's is my number one fear.

I'll take extreme pain, cancer, necrotizing fasciitis, whatever... but to lose who I am, and everyone I love have to watch that slow degradation, with moments of clarity for 10-20 years? Terrifying.

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#4 Posted by XVision84 (16252 posts) -

Have you looked into therapy, warmblur? I'm saying this out of concern, not as a joke or anything. It might help, but I know it's none of my business so I don't want to impose.

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#5 Posted by XVision84 (16252 posts) -

@foxhound_fox: Although not my number one fear, this is definitely something I find very scary. I've seen this first hand and it's very sad. I'm lucky in that I at least don't have a family history of Alzheimers.

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#6 Posted by Heirren (1607 posts) -

Nope

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#7 Posted by MirkoS77 (14245 posts) -

Suicidal impulses are the closest thing I can think of. At that point, you kind of lose all bearing of sense, foundation and structure. It’s a feeling of complete instability.

My mother was recently diagnosed with early stage Alzheimer’s. She’s very forgetful, for example I’ll talk to her on the phone and six hours later she’ll call me and not remember we had talked at all, or will prepare herself a plate of dinner and then wonder who made it and who it’s for if she puts it down to do something else. I’ll find stuff left in the microwave from the previous night, etc. She has no trouble remembering who we are or how to do things (yet) but her short term memory is awful, sometimes seemingly non-existent.

It’s hard to see, but she’s still functional (driving, showering, etc). Some days are worse than others, some are better. It’s day to day.

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#8 Posted by Ovirew (9083 posts) -

Sometimes. I think losing anything would suck. There have been times where I fell asleep on my arm and woke up and that shit was numb, like dead-weight, and that was scary lol. I think that would be just as bad.

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#9 Posted by Heirren (1607 posts) -

You know youve lost your mind when you join a cult and become so deluded that reason or your own thought doesnt exist anymore.

I know a group of people like this. It is INCREDIBLY sad. The fact they get their own children involved makes it worse. What kind of parent takes the free will of their child away? Sooooo sad.

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#10 Posted by thehig1 (7305 posts) -

@foxhound_fox: to make it worse other forms of dementia have similar effects too.

Utterly terrifying.

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#11 Edited by tocool340 (21377 posts) -

No. I like to think I'm pretty solid mentally. I worry more about Alzheimers/Dementia more than anything else....

I've been down the road with suicidal thoughts. Thing that prevented from cashing out is this idea that "Hey, why not see this shitshow all the way to the very end instead of taking the expressway out?". It's also the curiosity of wanting to see how high or low this "gift" of a life can go before I inevitably become worm food anyways...

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#12 Posted by Horgen (120622 posts) -
@tocool340 said:

No. I like to think I'm pretty solid mentally. I worry more about Alzhiemers/Dementia more than anything else....

Something about forgetting who you are doesn't come in under losing your mind?

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#13 Posted by tocool340 (21377 posts) -

@horgen said:
@tocool340 said:

No. I like to think I'm pretty solid mentally. I worry more about Alzhiemers/Dementia more than anything else....

Something about forgetting who you are doesn't come in under losing your mind?

Yeah, I was thinking about it and technically it would fall under the same umbrella of losing your mind. Guess I should clarify that I'm talking more along the lines of suicidal thoughts or performing random acts of violence and destruction....

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#14 Posted by Heirren (1607 posts) -

One dai someone said "i can kill you in a million ways" and it turned out its a group in chicago which TRIES to inflict mental damage unto others. The lengths they go through is quite disturbing. Very sad. This kids father showed up at my job once and started leaving death threats......and my reaction was simply step up lol. When did guys become such sissies lmfao.

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#15 Posted by KungfuKitten (26654 posts) -

Of course. I think everyone feels like they are about to lose their grasp on reality every once in a while.

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#16 Posted by Speeny (1780 posts) -

Yep. I guess it's part of the reason why I don't drink as well..(not being in control.)

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#17 Posted by Heirren (1607 posts) -

@speeny:

Denial: still in that stage huh. Damn that sucks sorry to hear that.

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#18 Posted by uninspiredcup (33717 posts) -

Na.

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#19 Posted by Heirren (1607 posts) -

I do question whether or not my stalker has. Well over ten years shes still at it.

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#20 Posted by mrbojangles25 (44045 posts) -

I have social anxiety, so it's a constant worry, yes. I want to talk to people and be as social and eloquent as most of my family is, but I generally spend any time alone replaying encounters I've had and finding some way I screwed it up or showed the world who I am.

Pretty sure I have undiagnosed ADD or Asperger's, too.

@XVision84 said:

Have you looked into therapy, warmblur? I'm saying this out of concern, not as a joke or anything. It might help, but I know it's none of my business so I don't want to impose.

Therapy is great. It's nice having an objective, trained professional that isn't a friend or family to talk to and reframe your perspective. Best thing a therapist ever told me was "Don't worry, it's not like you killed someone" when I told them how anxious I was feeling about a conversation I had.

If I told my family about it, they'd probably be like "Oh, wow, yeah you shouldn't have said that" and I'd freak out. If I told my friends they'd probably laugh at me, and I'd feel worthless. But the therapist isn't going to lean one way or the other, they're going to be honest with you but also try to make you feel better. So they said that to me and I was like "Huh. You're right! I didn't kill anyone. I didn't even hurt anyone" and then those positive thoughts cascade into positive feelings which in turn promote positive actions.

Neuroplasticity is the best!

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#21 Posted by DEVILinIRON (4865 posts) -

I did lose my mind for a time. Went to a couple psych wards. It was a blast.

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#22 Posted by pook99 (869 posts) -
@mrbojangles25 said:

I have social anxiety, so it's a constant worry, yes. I want to talk to people and be as social and eloquent as most of my family is, but I generally spend any time alone replaying encounters I've had and finding some way I screwed it up or showed the world who I am.

Pretty sure I have undiagnosed ADD or Asperger's, too.

@XVision84 said:

Have you looked into therapy, warmblur? I'm saying this out of concern, not as a joke or anything. It might help, but I know it's none of my business so I don't want to impose.

Therapy is great. It's nice having an objective, trained professional that isn't a friend or family to talk to and reframe your perspective. Best thing a therapist ever told me was "Don't worry, it's not like you killed someone" when I told them how anxious I was feeling about a conversation I had.

If I told my family about it, they'd probably be like "Oh, wow, yeah you shouldn't have said that" and I'd freak out. If I told my friends they'd probably laugh at me, and I'd feel worthless. But the therapist isn't going to lean one way or the other, they're going to be honest with you but also try to make you feel better. So they said that to me and I was like "Huh. You're right! I didn't kill anyone. I didn't even hurt anyone" and then those positive thoughts cascade into positive feelings which in turn promote positive actions.

Neuroplasticity is the best!

If your friends would laugh at you for something like that than you probably need to find better friends.

Everyone gets some anxiety when looking back on random conversations, I don't know the framework for your particular conversation you are referencing here but it was obviously important enough to make you think about it so having some anxiety about whether or not you could have handled it in a different way is perfectly normal and nothing to be ashamed about.

Ultimately, most of the time we worry it is all in our heads and we are perseverating on something that probably didn't even register with the other person. I don't personally see a therapist but a couple of close friends of mine do and is certainly a positive thing for them.

On topic: No, I don't think I will ever lose my mind outside of disease. I have been through tons of horrible stuff in my life, currently going through some horrible stuff now. I know there is always light at the end of the tunnel and for me to overcome these obstacles I need to do my best to keep a clear head and try and figure out a way to resolve it the best I can. Depression and anxiety could drive you crazy for sure, but negative thoughts and hiding from the world has literally never solved a single problem for anyone, ever. Realizing that may help you shift your thoughts in a more positive direction when you begin to feel these feelings.

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#23 Posted by Heirren (1607 posts) -

Nope. (Again)

People overthinking aye.

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#24 Posted by Gaming-Planet (19966 posts) -

I've lost my mind before. I went outside and walked for miles contemplating suicide and having a mental breakdown. Good thing it was like 1am and the cops just saw me as an ordinary crackhead.

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#25 Posted by johnd13 (9756 posts) -
@heirren said:

Nope. (Again)

People overthinking aye.

Overthinking and anxiety is a bad combo. You slowly sink deeper and deeper into a well of introversion and self-destruction. Until you can no longer recognize yourself...

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#26 Edited by Heirren (1607 posts) -

@johnd13:

Gotta disagree.

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#27 Posted by dantesergei (2206 posts) -

@Gaming-Planet said:

I've lost my mind before. I went outside and walked for miles contemplating suicide and having a mental breakdown. Good thing it was like 1am and the cops just saw me as an ordinary crackhead.

I once walked 13 Kilometers to my house from 12:00 to 2:00 am more o less, melting my brain along the way. At least i wasn't jacked.

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#28 Posted by Heirren (1607 posts) -

Yall will get over it one day.

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#29 Posted by HEATHEN75 (730 posts) -

Nope. It's locked up pretty tight inside my skull.

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#30 Edited by DaVillain- (36954 posts) -

@heathen75 said:

Nope. It's locked up pretty tight inside my skull.

Same here.

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#31 Posted by Amnesiac23 (8452 posts) -

I have PTSD, Bipolar I and BPD (these are often comorbid with each other). I've already lost my mind. XD But that's what meds and therapy are for.

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#32 Posted by Heirren (1607 posts) -

@Amnesiac23:

Nah, you havent.

Careful on the meds. Like you said those 3 things are so close in description that they are often mis diagnosed. Psych docs push meds. Thats their job. Thats why they get paid. Dont think just because a "doctor" tells you that a drug is for you, that its the correct choice or right thing to put into your body.

Have you ever seen people whove lost their mind?

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#33 Posted by Peasly (328 posts) -

Feel close to it as am in chronic pain every second of every day in my eyes/face/neck/scalp/forehead. My head feels like i have cement in it and i feel like i can't blink without it hurting my head. Pain has taken over my feelings, find it difficult to think about normal stuff. No room for feelings i'm numb about everything. Seen numerous people nobody knows what's wrong with me.

Have to lie every day to husband as he doesn't know what to do about it and comes out with unhelpful comments like 'one step forwards two back'. As long as he thinks i'm ok he thinks i'm not in pain. Screaming on the inside. Hope died a long time ago. Sick of it.. :(

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#34 Posted by livingdeadman (215 posts) -

I've almost lost my mind when I was diagnosed with Psychosis. I would dance in the rain and my dad would always yell at me that neighbors will think I'm crazy. I would say it was beneficial because it made me appreciate nature more and Spiritually Awakened me when I never cared for God before.

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#35 Posted by livingdeadman (215 posts) -

@Peasly: I think it could be bad karma. Do you ever behave badly sometimes? Like swearing, lying, littering, getting angry, being lazy? Even putting recyclable trash in the incorrect trash is bad karma. Or not using your signal when switching lanes. Or not exercising. I'm trying to see if there is a spiritual connection to your pain.

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#36 Posted by Peasly (328 posts) -

@livingdeadman: No to all that you mentioned. I make a point of keeping my house clean, cutting my husbands hair, caring for my cat, taking in parcels for my neighbours when they are not in. I exercise regularly which makes the pain worse. I do yoga and meditation which does nothing for me whatsoever. My epilepsy has got worse due to the stress of pain 24hrs a day.

I don’t have good days I have bad days and been worse ones. Then there are days when I want to rip my face off and pull my eyes out..

No karma related stuff going on here.. :(

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#37 Edited by livingdeadman (215 posts) -

@Peasly: Have you tried prayer? Try praying before every meal and pray to the soul of the animal if you are not vegetarian, and thank the farmers who took care of the plants and animals. Maybe try a pescatarian diet. I think I remember you said you didn't believe in God before, but I think it would help if you start to believe that the physical realm was designed by multiple Gods.

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#38 Posted by Peasly (328 posts) -

@livingdeadman: Yes I have tried prayer. I prayed for death as the chronic pain is too much. I’m still here...

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#39 Edited by warmblur (2541 posts) -

@Peasly said:

@livingdeadman: No to all that you mentioned. I make a point of keeping my house clean, cutting my husbands hair, caring for my cat, taking in parcels for my neighbours when they are not in. I exercise regularly which makes the pain worse. I do yoga and meditation which does nothing for me whatsoever. My epilepsy has got worse due to the stress of pain 24hrs a day.

I don’t have good days I have bad days and been worse ones. Then there are days when I want to rip my face off and pull my eyes out..

No karma related stuff going on here.. :(

I can relate to that comment so much and I'm sorry you have chronic pain life is f%cked up and I honestly feel like life is to long there's alot of people suffering and it's hard to stay on this planet but I think we do it because we don't want to hurt our love ones. I know that's the only reason I'm still around I feel expired and should of died 20 years ago life wasn't made for me I just feel like a alien here. I am really sorry about your pain I also have a health issue nerve related that the doctors can't figure out so they say it's in my head. Boy does that make my blood boil I want to punch them in the face when they say that.

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#40 Edited by Peasly (328 posts) -

@warmblur:

@Peasly said:

@livingdeadman: No to all that you mentioned. I make a point of keeping my house clean, cutting my husbands hair, caring for my cat, taking in parcels for my neighbours when they are not in. I exercise regularly which makes the pain worse. I do yoga and meditation which does nothing for me whatsoever. My epilepsy has got worse due to the stress of pain 24hrs a day.

I don’t have good days I have bad days and been worse ones. Then there are days when I want to rip my face off and pull my eyes out..

No karma related stuff going on here.. :(

I can relate to that comment so much and I'm sorry you have chronic pain life is f%cked up and I honestly feel like life is to long there's alot of people suffering and it's hard to stay on this planet but I think we do it because we don't want to hurt our love ones. I know that's the only reason I'm still around I feel expired and should of died 20 years ago life wasn't made for me I just feel like a alien here. I am really sorry about your pain I also have a health issue nerve related that the doctors can't figure out so they say it's in my head. Boy does that make my blood boil I want to punch them in the face when they say that.

I cannot tell you how grateful i was for your comments, finally someone who gets what i'm going through. If the chronic pain was anywhere else but in my face/eyes/forehead etc i would maybe cope better. I'm scared of losing my husband to this mess that i have become, i love him after 24 years but it's hard sometimes when i feel he doesn't understand. Don't want to drag him into my pit of hell though so i stay quiet and lie every day and say i'm fine.

There have been comments about it all being in my head and i got pis£d off for a while. For a split second i thought well yeah the brain is a powerful thing maybe i'm forcing myself to do things subconsciously that is manifesting as pain. I do have a schedule for eating and having a drink (brew), this isn't normal..? Ugh.. Then i got despondent when i knew this is really not in my head.. Grrrrrrrrrrr.

Sorry to rant just wanted to thank you for your kindness and hope you can find a way to battle with what you have. If ever you want to message me to chat or rant feel free you sound like a really good person. Would like to chat if you have time.. No obligations. Crap do i sound too creepy now..? :)

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#41 Edited by warmblur (2541 posts) -

@Peasly said:

@warmblur:

@Peasly said:

@livingdeadman: No to all that you mentioned. I make a point of keeping my house clean, cutting my husbands hair, caring for my cat, taking in parcels for my neighbours when they are not in. I exercise regularly which makes the pain worse. I do yoga and meditation which does nothing for me whatsoever. My epilepsy has got worse due to the stress of pain 24hrs a day.

I don’t have good days I have bad days and been worse ones. Then there are days when I want to rip my face off and pull my eyes out..

No karma related stuff going on here.. :(

I can relate to that comment so much and I'm sorry you have chronic pain life is f%cked up and I honestly feel like life is to long there's alot of people suffering and it's hard to stay on this planet but I think we do it because we don't want to hurt our love ones. I know that's the only reason I'm still around I feel expired and should of died 20 years ago life wasn't made for me I just feel like a alien here. I am really sorry about your pain I also have a health issue nerve related that the doctors can't figure out so they say it's in my head. Boy does that make my blood boil I want to punch them in the face when they say that.

I cannot tell you how grateful i was for your comments, finally someone who gets what i'm going through. If the chronic pain was anywhere else but in my face/eyes/forehead etc i would maybe cope better. I'm scared of losing my husband to this mess that i have become, i love him after 24 years but it's hard sometimes when i feel he doesn't understand. Don't want to drag him into my pit of hell though so i stay quiet and lie every day and say i'm fine.

There have been comments about it all being in my head and i got pis£d off for a while. For a split second i thought well yeah the brain is a powerful thing maybe i'm forcing myself to do things subconsciously that is manifesting as pain. I do have a schedule for eating and having a drink (brew), this isn't normal..? Ugh.. Then i got despondent when i knew this is really not in my head.. Grrrrrrrrrrr.

Sorry to rant just wanted to thank you for your kindness and hope you can find a way to battle with what you have. If ever you want to message me to chat or rant feel free you sound like a really good person. Would like to chat if you have time.. No obligations. Crap do i sound too creepy now..? :)

It's all good I'm glad my comments made you feel better I know how tough and horrible life can be here's hoping that someday we can get the peace that we deserve.

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#42 Posted by Heirren (1607 posts) -

Karma

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#43 Posted by warmblur (2541 posts) -

@heirren said:

Karma

So what are you saying we deserve this?

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#44 Posted by Heirren (1607 posts) -

@warmblur:

Just making a general statement. Some people believe in it, some dont.

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#45 Posted by Byshop (19572 posts) -

@heirren said:

@warmblur:

Just making a general statement. Some people believe in it, some dont.

How about you take it down a notch or take a compulsory break from the forums? If a thread doesn't apply to you, don't feel compelled to respond to it but if you are going to mock the people discussing the topic at hand with more attention seeking, self-aggrandizing fabrications then we are moving on to strikes.

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#46 Posted by Heirren (1607 posts) -

@Byshop:

Its not mocking, just an encompassing word that fits with the thread title. Theres no condescending tone meant to be had with it. If thats how you interprete it, apologies.

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#47 Posted by Amnesiac23 (8452 posts) -

@heirren:

@heirren said:

@Amnesiac23:

Nah, you havent.

Careful on the meds. Like you said those 3 things are so close in description that they are often mis diagnosed. Psych docs push meds. Thats their job. Thats why they get paid. Dont think just because a "doctor" tells you that a drug is for you, that its the correct choice or right thing to put into your body.

Have you ever seen people whove lost their mind?

Unfortunately, I have to be on medications. If I'm not, I will rapid cycle and it becomes pretty dangerous for me. Although I do agree that the docs don't always know what they are doing. I have certainly been on plenty of medications that either don't work for me or cause intense side effects. Luckily, I'm on medications that work ok for me right now.

I mean, I've been pretty close. lol I have intense paranoia and delusions, not to mention major issues with suicide, when I'm not on medications. I was even hospitalized several times as a teen. I'm just glad I got an accurate diagnosis in my 20s. Things have been so much better now that I at least know what is going on.

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#48 Posted by Heirren (1607 posts) -

@Amnesiac23:

Sorry to hear all that. I dont think all that is uncommon. I think youd be surprised that the majority of people experience that stuff at some point in time. Social media has really hindered peoples ability to communicate; so many people complaining about everything or hating on someone, assuming theyre always right, etc.

Get this, and its something ive only recently discovered more than a few years back, but there are groups that actually wish to *cause* the sorts of things you mentioned. Someone i know showed me how it was done--basically a group will track your cell activity, from gps to google etc etc etc.

Not just one person but groups--modern day cults.

Apparently i made some guy really jealous and he tried to get me the way you describe. Failed, clearly, but i just could not believe that they even stoop so low as to get their children involved.

Im old fashioned. I saw/seen it as simply a waste of my time. Its a shame its still going on. I much prefer direct and to the point, but i guess the guy is scared of me. I cannot believe how delusional so many people can be.

Anyways, imo theres other ways outside of meds.

Have you actually sat down with people inside that field? Not doctors but people that understand how and what the meds are doing? I have. Not all of them are good. Theres a reason many are schedule ii drugs and with good reason. Some of them are just like legal cocaine.