Random Encounter - Depression Quest

The full two hour stream of Danny's experience with Depression Quest.

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D1E1F1
D1E1F1

Thanks for that, Danny. You do phenomenal work. I'll echo the chorus of people who want to see you more in Giant Bomb content, but I've also accepted that I just need to start typing gamespot.com in more often. It's great seeing all that you've done here. This in particular brings up some emotions. Definitely a different ending than I got with my own playthrough a few months back.

foxworks
foxworks

I happened upon RE about two weeks ago and now I'm enjoying past episodes.  I just wanted to give thanks for sharing so much of yourself.  I wish you all the best.  

On a side note, I'm pleased to read all the positive posts below given how the "online community" can get obnoxious.

korvus
korvus

Best RE so far. And I thoroughly enjoyed the depth it's given you. It's good to see a guy with real life experience and a kind heart taking the place of "that guy that plays random games". I came here because of the other article and thought "maybe I have 10 mins for a RE and check what that depression quest thing is". Then I started watching and thought "should go play the game first and THEN watch the video, just so that I don't 'cheat' and choose the 'right' answers". I'm now an hour in and my free time is gone so I'll have to continue tomorrow but I wanted to say I really enjoyed the seriousness with which you played this "game", and how you spent enough time seriously considering the options and not just click on whatever you decided in a fraction of a second; the fact that you took the time to explain your choices was appreciated.

Also endearing to see how much you struggled at points because of your past experience with the subject. I'm sure I will feel the same when I play it.


Keep up the good work Danny. +Respect to you ^_^

Pawfalcon
Pawfalcon

Great show, interesting game. Glad to know theres stuff like this out there.

jvguima
jvguima

Funny thing, I suffer from depression, i've played the game. Choose pretty much all the same options as did Danny...

samsta2
samsta2

Excellent episode. Wasn't expecting to be moved when I sat down to watch RE, this has really been fascinating. Thanks, more games like this!

The_Gaming_Baby
The_Gaming_Baby

Damn, wasn't expecting this when I was going through the episodes. Powerful stuff, made even more powerful by the fact that I'll never be able to accomplish what you just did in the game

befo72
befo72

Thanks so much Danny for this one. I've spent hours catching up on Random Encounters today and was very surprised to come across this one. I have struggled with these issues too for most of my life (I'm now near 41) and spent a lot of those first years thinking I was the only one as well. Most people simply don't understand clinical depression and anxiety unless they've experienced it.


Kudos for giving this extremely insightful "game" some exposure!

jessie82
jessie82

same godamn super loud ads over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over  and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over vand over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over...

opinions2
opinions2

@dannyodwyer 

Just wanted to say a huge well done to you Danny for doing an RE on this game. I've watched a number of the ones you have done and thoroughly enjoyed them, but this is by far my favourite. I was only able to watch for an hour but was very surprised at how many of the things you mentioned from your own life matched feelings I either had or have now to some extent.

I must commend you for taking on this, especially with your lack of confidence with reading, you did a fine enough job, but also that you have a MASSIVE selection of other games that you could have featured but instead you have taken time and put a lot of your self on display by featuring a game that most of the impulsive parts of the gaming community wouldn't look at twice.

Keep up the good work and I look forward to more Random Encounters in the future. 

misterBullseye
misterBullseye

"Pretending you are sick is a constant tactic." Oh my lord, this scares me. I feel hit right in the groin by this video. I know I have symptoms of depression from time to time, but never spoke to anyone about it except my closest friend. Am unemployed at the moment. Lost my last job due to not being there on time and missing alot of days due to "sickness" even though I am a heltahy person. The future is uncertain and I quite frankly don't know what to do.

millerboycls09
millerboycls09

I watched this whole stream, and yeah:  This game hits the nail on the head.  Thanks for going through it and giving this game some very much deserved publicity.  God, a lot of this game hits close to home.

snova9308
snova9308

damn, when i tried to play this, i didnt know the ost was suposed to stutter like that.

i thought my speaker was going crazy, since i just formated the computer a few weeks ago

Jamoid
Jamoid

Been struggling with agoraphobia/anxiety and the inevitable depression that goes with it my whole life and this pretty much nails it. You spend more time worrying about being a burden and blaming yourself than you do even trying to get better. You never give yourself the benefit of the doubt and always emphasize the negatives while ignoring the positives, which is mirror'd beautifully by the fact that you can't choose those options in the game. That's how it is in reality, those options are either terrifying or you convince yourself that they aren't viable or even that you don't deserve them.

Some of the best writing I've ever come across in a game, they really should be proud. Probably never would have come across it if I didn't randomly see it here, cheers Danny.

ojugyujxsygrh
ojugyujxsygrh

gotta admit, i laughed really really hard at the whole "rubbing the light switch" thing

AndCarlsen
AndCarlsen

That was really nice. I didn't think I would, but I kept watching until the end. It was a change from the usual Random Encounter games, but I enjoyed it, if that's possible in this case.

tobster21
tobster21

Great video couldn't take myself away from it. Both the story played through the game and your own personal experiences give a really good insight into a person's life with depression. Will play myself and donate. 

PecoSan
PecoSan

I usually sit down and watch random encounter expecting to sit there for 15min. I noticed that the show is today nearly 2h. 
I kind of got stuck there for the whole 2h watching this. Really good work Danny! 
I know a lot of people who work on social department and will ask them to watch this!

Hellequin85
Hellequin85

Deep man, nice to hear you being open about something that's clearly very personal. though I still managed to laugh my ass off at 1:15 "3 and 4 are off the table!!!!... the fallout..." etc :P You're awesome man!

rsawyers
rsawyers

This was excellent.  I have suffered from environmental depression in the past and my girlfriend suffers from clinical depression to this day.  It was great to see this game played and commented on by someone else who understands what it can feel like.  Well played Danny, thank you.

macaque12
macaque12

Nice seeing this show back : ). And congrats on the choosing, Danny. I think this subject/game concerns everyone, in different kinds of ways, 'course

blackpuddytat
blackpuddytat

It's great that Danny is willing to go out on a limb and take a moment to indulge in a game and a subject that is personal and close to home.  It is a rare moment and a risk in game journalism where webcasts are metered on viewer attraction to subject material and thus advertising revenue could be affected.  Well done Danny, and thank you Gamespot for taking a punt on a very human and worthwhile topic and reminding us that game journos and indeed gamers are not automatons.

LatinproX
LatinproX

Everyone is a little crazy, Danny. You wouldn`t be human otherwise.  We`re not as civilized as we pretend to be. We are this world`s apex predator.  I have rage and panic attacks regularly.

neowolfgeo
neowolfgeo

Hhhmmm, you read fine to me. -_-

rasputin177
rasputin177

IGN has nothing as raw, personal or unique as this. Again, I thank you for thinking outside the usual box and taking risks. One of the most interesting things I have seen on GS in a long time.

Dreamscape4123
Dreamscape4123

I signed up for GS to comment on this video. Just wanted to thank Danny for such a great video. Having suffered from very severe depression a couple of years back it was great seeing a game like this being highlighted. But more than that, your candid comments, and general attitude with the video was fantastic. 

Keep up the good work, Random Encounter is the best thing on GS right now!

rasputin177
rasputin177

I think alot of gamers have suffered from depression myself included but I found this video to be very funny. I have a weird sense of humor so its rare that GS makes me laugh. I would "usually find a task to do like go to the bathroom". Too funny, I think many of us can relate. Probably the most innovative person working at GS right now.

naryanrobinson
naryanrobinson

At the beginning, for maybe the first 30 minutes it was scarily close to a reality of mine.

In fact, even though I was depressed, it actually sounded more like my current life than when I actually *was* depressed.  Creepily close.

As it went on though, I couldn't relate to it quite as well.  Probably because the awful time I had in school is getting further and further behind me now, and I'm slowly forgetting the details of exactly what it was like.

The guy in the game is in his mid-twenties during his depression, which is a little different.  Even though the mid-twenties is statistically the period during which most people get depressed, even more so than in secondary school.

I eventually went to a slew of psychologists who were on the house from the NHS because I was under 18 and some of them were alright, but they never really helped.  I always took the stance though *never* to take medication for it, and I still take that stance.  I hate to sound like my mum, and the mum from the game, but I think it's a battle in your mind, and once you decide to take medication for it, then you really are depressed.  It's almost like removing yourself from the fight.  I never wanted to be in a situation where I wasn't sure if what I was feeling was my own emotion or some chemical trying to muscle its way into my brain.

madjack1812
madjack1812

Really interesting concept for a game- both for helping those with depression and for helping highlight the issues to those who don't.  Reminds me of some pretty crappy times of my own.  Thanks for being so open about your own experiences too!

noah364
noah364

Look at the screen in the background. Danny's from Avatar!

DOW161
DOW161

Wow, thank you for doing this video. It has given me some insight into someone I know. 


_Judas_
_Judas_

Oh no, mate. I know why you were down, and I guess it all maxed out yesterday...when losing to Bayern Münich. I suggest you do as RvP -- follow your inner child and start supporting his new team :D

Obviously, I am kidding... and I realize now that I am that crazy guy that always keep slammin' football-related facts at Mr. O'Gamer. By doing some fancy mathematics I found out that I and @Dannyodwyer are infact the same age, which is great because I sometimes feel old here on GameSpot, and that we've grown-up during the same time. I believe that ALL kids have some sort of trouble during their teens -- many of my friends have succumbed to depression and the likes. Yes, me aswell. But most of 'em probably didn't know that they were (labelled) "depressed"... or that, as Danny points out, their "condition" has a name. The only kids that haven't been tainted, are the kids from 70's and 80's commercials...and they're fake!

This wasn't the best episode (my thoughts only! plz no flame), but I liked it because it allowed @dannyodwyer to truely (kind of) connect with the game. It's not awesome watching someone read you a game, but it is awesome to see the true Danny O'Dwyer and learn more about the GameSpot-crew, something I want to see more of. Great work, Danny!

Verenti
Verenti

I've had what I've characterised as "intense ennui", but it is nothing like this. Which is strangely comforting. Mine is more like... Sherlock Holmes, and "my mind rebels at stagnation". When I'm doing something, especially when I have interest, it feels like I have more energy that the sun, and I could work days straight, and when I don't, then the world is a wretched place.

I think it was interesting, but I don't get it. I don't get how people can't just push through something. I don't mean this to offend anyone, but from my perspective, we often have things we don't want to do. I mean, things we fear to do. Really dread. But the only way past that is to charge through and soldier on.

I mean, in certain ways I've had emotions that I would normally associate with depression, but they aren't the ones expressed here, like wanting to sit in a dark room and gorge on sadness. To play merose music, sit in my arm chair and howl with pain and quote Poe with a degree of venom and bile usually reseved for ex-lovers. Because by diving into that dispair, I know the storm will break and the day after I won't have any emotion left to be sad, so I can go out and get some fresh air, and smell the flowers.

Yeah, that sounds messed up, but it's not so bad.

Thanks for putting it all in perspective Danny.

KingofCabal
KingofCabal

This game would make me die of depression.......

OBEYG1ANT
OBEYG1ANT

So glad youre back, Danny. With the new EFMS, and Random Encounter going strong! all I will ask for now is community service and were good!

SkylabOne
SkylabOne

@Korvus85 Same. After seeing the other article I immediately searched for this one, apparently I had missed it when it first aired February.

Thanks you fir this, Danny.

befo72
befo72

@misterBullseye I liked your comment not because I actually like it, but because I've been there too...many many times.

korvus
korvus

@Jamoid Even if it's a struggle don't give up. Struggling means you're still trying to overcome it, and that means you can! It might not be easy, it might not be pleasant but it's definitely worth it!

dannyodwyer
dannyodwyer staff

@PecoSan Thanks man. Yea I won't make a habbit of sticking the full versions up (they're availalbe on Twitch anyway) but this worked best as the entire video. Glad you enjoyed it, spread da word!

sancota
sancota

@naryanrobinson 
I do understand your reluctance on using medications that would change your state of mind.
Every person wants to have the feeling of safety about the idea of oneself, 
especially if you are in a state of depression where everything slowly looses value.Even though people suffering from depression perceive themselves as being unworthy, they still clench on the self-build ruins of the idea of "me". In the end the ultimatum of depression is letting "me" cease to exist. So it is on wonder that we all feel the intrusion of medications so negatively because we see them as that they are meant to change the thing we do not want to change.

But drugs used in non-clinical depression cases are only a tool used to ease the person into activities (socialization, creative work, sports etc.) that have the same effect of anti-depression and later happiness,  but are also considered useful to that person and to the people around them (family, friends, co-workers).

loafofgame
loafofgame

@_Judas_ Ah, come on, I'm sure there are plenty of people with the same age. I am only a year younger than you and mr. O'Dwyer and I can't imagine I'm the only one...

loafofgame
loafofgame

@Verenti Well, it was mentioned that depression can be compared to a physical disease or injury. When you break your leg, you can't just push through and stand on it. Or when you have a bad flu, you can't just say that you have to feel better. It's similar with depression. If you do not get the proper treatment, it can go on forever. But because it's a mental phenomenon it's harder for people to understand or to accept it as an illness, I guess. I mean, the fact that people with depression are often advised to take medication, says a lot. But well, I'm not talking from experience... It's what I got from the stream and the chat.

_Judas_
_Judas_

@loafofgame @_Judas_ Maybe you are right :) I am not to determine how the age ratio of GameSpot-viewers is split, but I fear I am among the upper spectrum...anyway; this is how I "feel :)

Verenti
Verenti

@loafofgame see, I don't get that either. I tend to try to push through physical injury and illness. After a day of lying in bed, I am so frustrated with my impotence that I force mysel to get up, to buy oranges, to go for a walk. Likewise, when I messed up my ankle bad at fencing. The next day, I got up and pulled myself across town on foot to make sure I didn't miss a class, which was about a 30m walk, drawn out to about an hour. These things are obsticles. Again, not meaning to be insulting, but when faced with these sorts of problems, I see them as an insult to me, like someone heckling me to say that I don't have the willpower to overcome something because it will cause pain. Isn't pain there to break us, so we can be reforged stronger?

I mean, my brother suffered from depression in high school, so let me reiterate, that I genuinely don't understand this. I stayed up to three am, putting in job applications, for which I certainly won't get. I've been doing this for a couple months now, and it's just a world of constant rejection. There are days I just want to say **** it and just quit, but I end up redoubling my efforts, and putting in another five applications that day. I soldier on despite the last thing in the world I want to do write another stupid cover letter. But there isn't any other way forward, so I do. I do so with a bravado, because I know eventually someone will be dumb enough to think hiring me is a good idea. I keep throwing myself at this stone wall, for which I don't even get so much as a polite no thank you. Is that despair that goes with constant rejection not mental? This is what I don't get. I try and try to overcome my obsticles, mental, physical, social and otherwise, with no rational reason to keep trying except "It has to work out in the end". Why is it so unconquerable?

TheThoughtless1
TheThoughtless1

@_Judas_ @loafofgame  I think many "Gamer's" are led to believe that the average age of someone who plays vidoegames, is much lower than what is likely to be true. Also I think that society (the US to be more specific) still casts a negative light on anybody that plays videogames or watches anything that isn't a reality show or heavy handed drama. Video games are good for your brain, keep playing and carry on.  

Verenti
Verenti

@loafofgame @Verenti I suppose that actually makes sense. That man is made by his mantras, so to speak. If one thinks that the ultimate truth of life is bleak and despairing, I suppose I can understand why it might be insurmountable. Destiny is a funny thing. Thanks, I suppose.

loafofgame
loafofgame

@Verenti That's some mental toughness you've got there. In that case I can only say that you probably won't get it until you hit your own limit. I can only reverse your situation. Your most extreme reason is 'it has to work out in the end'. It seems to me like it's pretty hard for you to conquer that thought and think 'it might just not work out in the end'. Well, for some people 'it's never going to work out in the end' is your 'it has to work out'. I mean, you must accept that not every person is and thinks the same, so your ultimate positive reason is just as understandable as the ultimate negative one. But well, that doesn't really help understanding it, I guess.