So, I've completely lost it with D! I can't even stand this anymore! I'm seriouslyplanning toarrange to talk with theVPsometime nextweek - I'll go insane listening to her blabber anymore, distracting me and others from our work, andshe's obviously got a few problems that require more help than I can offer.

I will not bore you with moredetails about D, not today. =D Happy notes? Yes. Indeed. This shallbe the topic of today.

So, I think I like a guy. He's gonna be referred to as C hence forth. He's, like, one of Ben's best friends, and I've gotten to talk to him a lot more of late. I quite enjoy his company, as I find him easy to talk to and rather relaxed. He's great to be around when you want a laugh, but doesn't go out of his way to make himself stand out. =) Refreshing. xD Of course, because all things in life have downsides, C's is that he has a girlfriend. x.x One he's been dating for... *counts on fingers* Something like 6 months. T__T Ah, well. For the time, I shall enjoy his friendship, but you never know...

Also. Happy Thanksgiving you all you Americans out there who celebrated it yesterday, and happy belated Thanksgiving to all of us Canadians out here!

The topic of this blog entry being Report Cards, I feel it would be wise to atleast mention mine. My total 1st term average is 87.28%. I'm rather pleased, actually, considering I know how poorly some of the other students are doing at the moment. =DD I think this has sort of been a slap in the face for a lot of them, and they're finally starting to realize just how big this year is and how they're gonna have to kick up their working effort.

Anyways, more marks:

• Science: 81
• Phys Ed & Health: 83 (Higher than my Science mark. o___0 Who saw that coming? SRSLY.)
• Socials: 90
• French: 88
• Media and Film: 90
• Language Arts: 91
• Math: 88

Yeah, now you know my life updates.

In conclusion, I feel I ought to post with my regular note, a song/Youtube link. Today's video/song of choice is Iris by the Goo-goo Dolls (and that name strikes me as incredibly odd...):

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SsK90GWBVLY

xox: PERCY

D, infamous in the life of this blog. +pokes previous entries+ Guess what? The legacy continues. And I mean that in a bad way. Terrible way. With absolute irritation and unwavered bitterness. Last year, she was clingy and annoying, now (though still clingy), not only is she in my homeroom, which hence means I see her a great percentage of the day, but now she's also with my IN MY JOB. Lunch hours, Mondays and Wednesdays, she's invaded. I've never felt so awful in my life as I do when I say that I loved lunch because I could get away from her. I hate the feeling that I'm a horrible person, the way I feel when I think about my day and how much I wanted to be anywhere but near D, and as much as I wish to put these thoughts at ease, it can hardly be done, even possessing the knowledge that my dislike for her is miniscule in comparison to others. There are people who've never spent more than 5 minutes with her and have already created a permenant opinion. Her nature, though bubbly and energetic, tends to swoop, dive-bombing down. D's on anti-depressants and sees a psychologist, not to say either of those things is wrong, only that her depressive lows are really low.

Of course, now, there's a whole new issue where she's been playing around with the idea of suicide. T___T Honest to God, I sat through her crying for two hours. Gave her some advice, but if this doesn't stop, I'm seriously talking to the school vice-principal. She says it's something she talks about, but never does, and that's hardly much consolation, I fear. She calls me her best friend, which is flattering, I have no doubt, but I admit it is quite contradictory to my own line of thinking, though this does work to my advantage, is she is most assured I'll do what's right for her, and I truly hope that my talk with him will be what she needs.

So, with those new additions to the situation, anyone have any comments/ideas/suggestions/assistance? xDD And, yes, Becca, I will remember to tell her you're glaring. I confess, it slipped my mind today.

So, other than D (yes, there is more to my life than the topic of my previous rant), we've recieved a few marks back, as our report cards are coming out this Friday, and some of our teachers are being generous. x_x Our Science class average is 65%. God, that is the most pathetic thing in the world! As an average! Anyway, I went to my teacher to find out my mark, and I'm sitting at a 81%. I was going for higher, but I guess, when next to the average, it's tolerable. =DD In Socials I'm getting an 87%, which is a bit disappointing, because I set the hope on a 90, but it's sufficiant. xD +sets high standards+

Because every good blog entry is incomplete without it, I feel it is absolutely necessary that I post some lovely musical piece for you all. This is a group called Within Temptation, and they've been described as "Dutch gothic". Their music is rather Evanescence-like, in a sense, so if you like them, I totally recommend listening to this, Memories:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PvM0kn-Q_7M

Anyway...

xox: P E R C Y

So; my life. That's why you're here, right? To read about it? To get updated? Well, good (and if you weren't here for those reasons, I don't give a damn so stay and read anyway)! -- this is what you get when I'm bored out of my mind at 6:30 in the morning. urgh, that reminds me of the sleeping patterns I've yet to complain about.

My life is, currently, a mountain of homework. Somehow, I'm managing to get on the computer while doing it, as my work requires to be typed up, but stills, it's no fun. +shrug+ Well, what can ya do, eh? Just sit there and take it. =__=' At the moment, I'm summarizing newspaper articles for my Current Events project, typing up an essay on the settlement patterns across North America, typing a summary of a poster a friend and I made for The Sniper, and uhm, dying of boredom.

Musically, I have recommendations. Of course, they're not to everyones' taste, I understand, and this is coming from the girl who can listen to nearly any type of music except rap, so perhaps you really ought to be prepared for something different. While I know it doesn't fit the liking of a lot of people, I am incredibly interested in Loreena McKennitt's music. A new age, Celtic singer of sorts, she's really good! In particular, I'd recommend the Highwayman, A Mystic's Dream, The Old Ways, Santiago, Dante's Prayer... +is just going to stop there before she lists every single song+ but I'll just link you to one of my favorites. The Bonny Swans:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qTXbT2l2kV0

Also, I've rather gotten into listening to Sarah Brightman. She's one that's, well, a little more difficult to listen to without a love of that musical form,but I'll post a link anyway:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a2C3fH28uPg

Though, personally, I wouldn't say I loved that concert preformance, so, generously, I've linked you to a FinalFantasy version... ^^ Yeah, it's a little weird, but I love it. xDD

So, onward. Topics change; now they've moved to D. I got an email from her the other day - just to give you a tiny clip:

"I HOPE THAT WE DONT GET SEPERATED NEXT YEAR.
CAUSE THAT WOULD TRULLY BREAK MY HEART IN HALF.
ITS LIKE NO MATTER WHAT I CAN TELL YOU ANYTHING.
IVE ALWAYS TRUSTED YOU MORE THAN ANYONE."

Yes, well, kudos to her for that incredible use of capitals and lowercase. o___0 Not the point; remember last year? All those rants about D? THEY'RE BACK. She's driving me up the wall and over the edge. This is the part where you all go, "Why, Percy?" And I do, "Because she's inmy effing homeroom this year." Last year, she wasn't, she was just her clingy little, I-feel-like-driving-you-all-mental self during the little breaks between courses, and this year, it's all s. I have nearly no room to breathe, because the second I get out of myroomomfg, D! x_x My best friends in school, aside from the guys like Ben, C, S, and E and L. (If you go back to the beginning of the blog, you can hear about Ben and/or E, L comes in more recently, S's always been there, but not frequently been mentioned, and C never at all.) Anyways, so I've been feeling a bit put out because E and L have been spending a lot of time together, and so I finally brought it up; "Are you avoiding me because of D?" Because that was my obvious suspicion. They said yes, and that they felt bad about it, but D drove them insane. I wanted to ask them what that said about our friendship, but, as awful as itis, if D was sticking to them, I might be the one running.

Er, sorry; I needed to vent. Seriously. Anyways, I had to use courses and homeroom because the won't let me say C L A S S

Anyways:

xox: P E R C Y

I guess you're all going to want to know the plot, eh?

So, this is a modern day fantasy. These magical people are at a boarding school in New York-Forth Shadow, for ages ten to eighteen, learning to control their powers. But what they don't know is that they're doing so much more than that.
They're hiding.
There are creatures, demons that cannot be summoned, called the Haristol. The Haristol are after the children in the school, as they are the one thing that stands in the way of their total control of Earth. First chance they get, they will destroy the school and all who reside there. The Haristol are everywhere, inside and out.

Want to join?:

http://vaeali.proboards58.com/index.cgi

Follow the link below the image and viola! there you are!

Well, I can't really say anything except that I'm home again! Whoot! I regret to inform any readers (though I have few) that in London I never did see Orlando Bloom or JK Rowling. Pity. Would've loved that. ah, well, the Tower was good too. xD

Ohmigawsh! The Deathly Hallows was WAAAAAY the best book in the entire series! If anyone wants to discuss it with me, send me a message! Actually, it's a little embarassing because Ihadn't read any of the harry Potter books for a while, not since that last movie came out (GoF, not the OotF), so I completely forgot what some of the stff was! *cough* Horcrux. *cough*

Hey, everyone! Well, school's FINALLY out! Whoot! Shake it!

*cough* Er, anyways... we had out awards ceremony on Tuesday night and I got a medal for my Grapics Arts class!!

My report card was alright, I got a 94.42% full year average. in Graphics Arts, guess who got 100? MEEEEEEEE! heh, look, I need to gloat once in a while, okay?

So, this post is titled "Absence" 'cause I'm going to be absent from Monday evening until August 1st. Europe is calling me and my parents for a few weeks vacation. So, I won't be posting nor commenting for a while.

Ciao!

Okay, today? Not too bad. at first it was a little weird, but I acted normal to everyone, and they returned it with equal respect, if not more. Might have something to do with the fact that on sunday (yesterday) I flat-out told E that I knew what was going on with her and Ben, and her sincere(ish) apology was all I needed to hear, as on top of things, H has decided we're all friends again. Talk about freakin' weird! How she went from hating us to loving us is completely a mystery to me. My parents say it's a cycle that people go through, to hate the world for a while, then move on again. o_0

Life is weird.

Well...

Live and let live.

I don't think I feel better. I think I've just gotten worse. I felt better, until all but 5 minutes ago. I'm on MSN with L, and she gave me this heads up that Ben and E are gonna tell me how they feel about each other. And I was curious, after recovering from my shock, I continued, "How do you know all this?" And here's our MSN convo, I've just changed the names;;

L: Ehas told me everything.

L: as she has told edited versions to several others.

Me: OMG, who?!

L: she really kept it away from your ears.

L: A, Liz.

L:S knows some

Me: Even S?

L: her parenst know the whole thing

L: i'm sorry.

Me: Thanks for being a good friend and telling me.

Me: Better than them. ALl of them

L: I couldn't keep from you anymore, you knew half of it, and it was really obvious you suspected SOMETHINg.

L: withE shutting up EVERY time you came within ten feet.

L: but she wouldn't let me tell you.

L: ive tried hinting to her that you know everything, but she's so lost in her own world.

Me: Everybody knows.

L: everyone of importance

What does that make me? No one of nothing? I can't even believe how much that hurt. It hurt so much I just changed every single name mentioned in the convo to the first initial of their name to post it here-to ask for a little advice. I was over him-I am over him-and she did this in good intention, not to hurt me, but why is it that I couldn't find out just an edited version? It hurts more to find out this way.

I'm not even sure how such a floaty-overall-above-the-clouds year could end up like this.

Ben and E? Yeah, E, the one who's dating Z? Looks like they're a couple. Yes, that's what i said. She's taken and she's cheating on him. Oh yeah, this is her first boyfriend too-and she's already cheating. I was talking to my friend L, who says that when she was over at E's, Ben came online MSN. She says it was really bad and that he said: "I wish we could be like this at school"-and she said-"I know, I heart you". She's trying to break up with Z, then maybe ask Ben out, and all I want ot know is how this'll work. She's too afraid to break up, and I'm not even sure-for sure-that the conversation even happened. It's just L's word, but L tells the truth, she's a good person. What do I do? When what was an overal perfect year, my friendship with H falls apart, and now Ben and E?! Oh, did I mention that apparently this happened two weeks ago? L says that E didn't want to tell me because she thought it'd hurt?! I'd rather have known then than be unsure.

Like I said a few weeks ago-Hell, I know the place.

*squee* I'm seeing PIRATES OF THE CARIBBEAN in;;

4 hours!!

I can't wait! I saw Dead Man's Chest the day it came out with a friend I don't see often, and i'm seeing at World's End todya with her too!

I did just say what you all think I did-snow.

It snowed. 6 centimetres of it. Snow. Puffy white flakes. And guess what? IT'S THE END OF MAY! Great timing. Now, ontop of every green leave, between every pink petal, there's snow.

This week is classified as a nightmare. After getting hatemail from someone you once considered a friend, it really hurts, let me tell you. If you want someone in the art of death stares and ignorance, talk to H. I've had to walk home alone, listening to her talk to our 3 other friends we walk with, while I'm left to walk by myself. I'm not ignoring my other friends, but being around H right now is so awkward! I mean, I stood next to her INVOLUNTARILY in French, and I could feel the cold vibes.... *shudder* Oh God. I mean, H's sister calls, "Hurry up! Run, so you can walk with us!" and H yells, "No, hurry up, *sister's name*! Let's go."

E wants to talk to her, and so do I-just to find out what this is all about and where it's coming from, as we understand none of it. I'm angry-furious-and don't know if I'd talk to her again anyway, but if E does, I'll forgive and forget. "When someone hurts us, we should write it down in the sand, where the winds of forgiveness can erase it away. But when someone does something good for us, we must engrave it in stone, where no wind can ever erase it." But the thing is, if we talk to her, we could anger her more, and if we ignore her, she'll keep us wondering(which I reckon is her whole plan). E is going to say, "Hello, H!" to her tomorrow and see if she replies, but the only thing in the back of my mind is;; what if she does reply? What if they become friends again? What if, even after E's efforts, H never talks to me? What if I'm alone? I was so relieved that it wasn't just me alone in this situation, but with this going on, I can't be alone. It's hurting me more than it's hurting E (or atleast, more than she's showing), and I don't want to have to stand alone.

On a brighter note, I have two feildtrips on two consecutive school days!! One is to a Sewage Treatment Facility(*barf*), and the other is for French, and we're going to the Zoo.

"niether of you are my best friends.
you dont bother with me.
you hang out with people i know i hate.
you ignore me.
you dont make an effort to hang out with me, but im always trying with you.
I know you dont mean to, but this has been going on for the past two months.
im f***ing sick of it.
thanks guys.
Im almost always there for you.
but for me?
hahaha. yeah f***ing right.
you dont notice and you dont confront me.

P.S. Im depressed. when i say depressed, i mean "im thinking about killing mmyself"
i dont expect you to get where this is all comming from.
els pobably making a big confused face and going wtf?? or something.
nat, this probably hurts you alot.
but niether of you are great friends.

thanks a whole f***ing lot guys.

bye."

--

 An email sent to me and my other friend by a girl who's friendship means loads to us. She has told me she wants to commit suicide before, but I can't believe this! We have always been there for her, we have always cared about her, but she's suddenly said that we don't, when she just told us everything she does. She avoids us, she never listens, and she can be overall pretty nasty. She had a feeling it would hurt me, and she was right. I've decided not to talk to her, and let her cool down, as when I talk to her, I want calamity and clarity.

Am I? I can hardly tell? My friend, E, who you can read about on my first page of blog posts(and possibly second) kepts getting really furious with me. She says, "YOU'RE TRYING TO MAKE THE REST OF US LOOK BAD!" or, "STOP SHOWING OFF!" it's not my intention to make her feel this way, but she keeps going on about it, and I can hardly say anything to it. If I act hurt, I get support for some other friends, if I ignore her, she doesn't seem to pick up that I'm angry, and if I act angry, she doesn't get it either!! I wish there was some way I could tell her that I'd never purposely make any of my peers look bad, but she doesn't grasp the concept! I've told her to stop comparing herself to others, but she won't listen. What do I do?

 And about R? As I said on Becca's blog-I know Hell.

Because Ben didn't show, and R kept wandering around looking miserable, I started feeling really bad, and when R asked me to slow dance, I kinda told him yes... I FELT REALLY BAD, OK?! And now, he knows i don't like him in that way (he asked me out... again and I still told him no thanks) but now everyone else is making fun of us. Even Ben! Oh God, I have NEVER been so happy to have a half day at school. If it was a full day, i SO wouldn't go back. I have honestly never heard so many rude and inappropriate jokes.

  Actually, there was one part of the dance that was good. So, El is going out with a guy furthur referred to as Z and they're really cute together, so Lena, me, and Kyana arranged with the DJ to dedicate a song especially to them! He called them up on stage, played a slow song, and made them slow dance to it! Infront of the entire school!  They were so embarassed, but both were really super happy.