Firstly you're a towel! Well that's what it's all about really isn't it!

So I'm on level 12 which I am very happy about! Took allot to get that far!

I wonder what I'll get over the summer. I doubt not very much I have a Mexican friend coming over! A Mexican FRIEND coming to Ireland - I know! It's pretty cool!

Anyway so yeah season 5 of One Tree Hill was possibly the most disappointing piece of television for me! Honestly I've never been more pissed off with a TV show!

But I liked the season finale it wasn't as good as others but that was expected as for the mundane lucas/Linsday/Peyton storyline that cliff-hanger didn't do anything for me!

Gossip girl was a good TV show I like the first season its pace was perfect it seems that josh Schwartz has learned from his mistakes of trying to fit too much into one season!

Skins was possibly the best new thing I have ever watched! For anyone who reads this I urge u to watch that programme! It's fantastic!

That's all for now! Mexican buddy is on msn

so whats up??

ok ok i had an interview for college on wed to see if i could get into Film and tv. its a three year cousre and have been trying to get into this course for three years myself. i sh!t u not.

so i had my interview right and after they watched my movie the woamn asks "so what tv do you watch?".

i laughed and said one tree hill. i then went on about how well it wa written and how good the characters were. the woman who interviewed me had watched the show adn was liek so what would happen if dan wasnt int he show, i was like well there would be no conflict. she liked that.

thens he asked who i related too, honestly i relate to lucas but he was too central so i said mouth and she said "good choice cos he's not a central character but is still important"

then i said peyton cos of her love of music and then we started talking alla bout music. it was freakin sweet. i was so happy. but the chances of me gettign in are 900/40 so i wont get my hopes up.

ther was a shooting outside my house today.now i live in ireland. ireland has its gun crime but i live in glaway and that is insane that it happend in galway let alone near my house. police everywhere its mad.

also in Galway news WESTLIFE!!!! they are playing up the road from me. this is big news cos galway never gets famous bands and i know its westlife they're gay but they fairly rock in my opinion. the biggest irish export since U2.

dont know who they are, youtube them. they're this boy band but they've been around for ages and are and i quote "the most succesful pop group in europe"

And I Need You Now Tonight
And I Need You More Than Ever
And If You'll Only Hold Me Tight
We'll Be Holding On Forever
And We'll Only Be Making It Right
Cause We'll Never Be Wrong Together
We Can Take It To The End Of The Line
Your Love Is Like A Shadow On Me All Of The Time (all Of The Time)
I Don't Know What To Do And I'm Always In The Dark
We're Living In A Powder Keg And Giving Off Sparks
I Really Need You Tonight
Forever's Gonna Start Tonight
Forever's Gonna Start Tonight

Yes i am stil thinking about my ex!

Well well well! how are we all keeping?

havent been to bothered about goin on the forums cos the new editor really pissed me off. so they kinda scared me off! which makes me happy that they fecked off and retired! power mad nutjobs!

well my love life has always beena major part of my blogs... well this blog will be no different! so last tiime i blogged i had a date with a new girl. well it went down like this... i kept thinking 'your not the person im meant to be with. your nothe girl i want beside me'

guess what i was still in love with my ex and not over her. nothing new there i know! HEY it's along process but it's a work in progress.

so i otld her all about it and she was super cool about it! see i know i cant get back with her until im in a better place about myself. unitl that happens i dont think i'll be able to start going out with a new girl! so thats what she's done to me!

she's made me feel not good enough for anyone not even her. pretty pathetic isnt it!

been dying without one tree hill. i miss it! but its back on monday, sweet! but i live in ireland so it'll be tuesday! i can live!

in my four weeks off from it i watched every season of scrubs from start to present! doesnt improve with age thats all i'll say!

and also without fail another set of lyrics

Colin Hay - I just dont think i'll ever get over you

I drink good coffee every morning
Comes from a place that's far away
And when I'm done I feel like talking
Without you here there is less to say
I don't want you thinking I'm unhappy
What is closer to the truth
That if I lived till I was 102

I just don't think I'll ever get over you
I'm no longer moved to drink strong whisky
'Cause I shook the hand of time and I knew
That if I lived till I could no longer climb my stairs
I just don't think I'll ever get over you

Your face it dances and it haunts me
Your laughter's still ringing in my ears
I still find pieces of your presence here
Even after all these years
But I don't want you thinking I don't get asked to dinner
'Cause I'm here to say that I sometimes do
Even though I may soon feel the touch of love
I just don't think I'll ever get over you

If I lived till I was 102
I just don't think I'll ever get over you

and if u do read thank u for taking the time!

im really down today

Ok haven't blogged in quite some time!

enough about my ex however she's damn hot STILL!

i got me a date for tomorrow night! turns out to be an avid one tree hill fan. how perfect! the thing is i dunno how i feel about her yet, we havent kissed or anything but im still unsure what i'll do! like i dont wanna mess her around or anything but im just not sure! we're just watching movies and possibly one tree hill, what a date eh! but i have a bitta lucas in me when it comes to females, i get cuaght between two BUT i dont cheat unlike him! but i dont like hurting peeps so im gonna take it slow i guess!

ok so the twelve episodes ended and now i'm liek what do i do for a month! well i'll find something to do! im sure of it right?? looking forward to the next few episodes and season 6 thank god! i'm currently watching scrubs quiete a bit actaully! so i guess i'll just fall into that! maybe i should do work for college!!

another thing im on level 6 at 99% why can't they jsut give me the other 1% grrr!

anyways i'll post another blog sooner this time!

Trying to do work for college, but all i can do is think about my ex! its been what a month? we were so close and talk everyday! i havent really moved on since we broke up cos she was always there we just weren't kissing and stuff!

so now i know shes been kissing this other guy and met up with him today! man im hurting!

its not that i want her back its that i just dont want her with anyone else! now im single and shes gonna be all busy with him! its sucks!

yes i am jealous!!!

ps. i now im a guy but i have alot of emotions too!! my entire relationship was drama, its never ending!!

Valentine's night 2008!

So some of you know that my girlfriend and I broke up.... no my ex! i had been taking it ok but i still missed her!

however saying that i was looking forward to going to this big house party that i had heard about for about a week! guess what? she was going too!

she begged me not to go and told me she'd be drunk and make herself easy for guys and what would i do if i saw her getting with another guy?? that was low! that really hurt me! even tho we were broken up we were still close! u know! were goig out ten months and it was hard for me!

so anyways we ended up at the party together! wathced her flirt with so many guys! i wont lie it really got to me!

anyways eventually we sorted thing out and were friends. it was grand!

i got tlaking to a girl a tthe party and we went out side and we kissed but i turned around and saw my ex staring at me! she looked as if her heart had been rippped out and torn in pieces! i went after her but she told me to jsut stay away from her.

so now she wont talk to me only to send hurtful texts to me! i dont want to lose her and i know i hurt her so im a total mess about it all!

she texted saying i was a dikhead and that i never loved her, but i did! and she knows that! also last night she said she wanted her letters back (the ones she wrote to me when i was in germany for two months away from her). she knows those letters mean the world to me!

this whole thing kills me but im sure shes hurting more.

I'm Going To Stop Pretending That I Didn't Break Your Heart is a song by The Eels and i only heard it yesterday and bought the album instantly! i always need music to reflect my mood!

"I'm Going To Stop Pretending That I Didn't Break Your Heart"

I'm gonna tell you what you need to hear
And i'm a little too late
By three or four years
And it may not make much sense
Now that we are apart
But i'm going to stop pretending
That i didn't break your heart

You see i never thought enough of myself
To realize that losing me could mean
Something like the tears in your eyes
And i want to tell you i'm sorry
And it's too late to start
But i'm going to stop pretending
That i didn't break your heart

And it's christmas eve
Years down the line
Sitting here wishing i'd treated you better
When you were mine
And i have no way of knowing where you are
But i'm going to stop pretending
That i didn't break your heart

I didn't mean to hurt you
I didn't know what i was doing
But i know what i have done

As we grow, we learnt that even the one person wasn't ever supposed to let you down probably will...

You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time

You will break hearts too. So remember how it felt when yours was broken.

You will fight with your best friend....

You will blame a new love for the things an old one did...

You will cry because time is passing too fast and you'll eventually lose someone you love....

So take too many pictures... laugh too much

And love like you have never been hurt...

Because every 60 seconds you spend upset it is a minute of happiness you will never get back...

Love is giving them the power to destroy you...

But trusting him not to

Real love stories never have happy endings...

Because real love stories never end

You know when you're in love when the hardest thing to say is... goodbye

Never make somebody your everything because when they are gone... you're left with nothing

Having the love of your life break up with you and say: "we can still be friends", is like your dog dying and your mother saying you can keep it...

If you can't get someone out of your head... maybe they're suppose to be there

When you really love someone you are willing to let them go... and when they come back that's true love...because true love is worth the wait

Never give up on things that make you smile

It hurts when you have someone in your heart, but you can't have them in your arm

The greatest challenge in life is finding someone who knows all flaws, differences and mistakes and still loves you with everything you have

Love is like war... easy to start... hard to end... and impossible to forget

The best and most beautiful things cannot be seen or touched... they must be felt with the heart.

Never break the heart that truly loves you...

So remember you aren't going to be his last or his only...

He has loved before .... He will again

And if he loves you now what else matters...

He isn't perfect and you aren't either and the two of you will never be perfect

But if he can make you laugh at least once

And admits being human and making mistakes

Hold on to him and give the most you can

He is not going to quote poetry... he is not going to be thinking about you every moment

But he will give you apart of him... that he knows you can break

Don't hurt him... don't change him... don't expect more than he can give

Smile when he makes you happy... yell at him when he makes you mad... and miss him when he's not there....

Never hold her hand if your going to break her heart

It is wonderful when someone says... I love you