• 30Jun 09

  RAGE QUIT!!! no all caps titles? madness gamespot.

  Well I had my first Conduit rage quit and was quite the epic ragequit. Anyone who knows me probably knows I have a temper and a very low tolerance for frustration. During the SAT's because I had to sit and wait for the end of the section before I could continue, thus wasting my time by dragging out the test, I almost crushed my pencil into two pieces. Oh man and every time the proctor said 5 minutes remaining, boy did that get on my nerves.

  Anyway for several games in a row I was playing with a group of people who were pretty much on my level. There's nothing wrong with that, in fact thats a good thing. What does piss me off though is having my kills stolen. For an entire match EVERY SINGLE ENGAGEMENT I got into went like this. I attack person. Person and me get into heated fire fight. I'm about to finish off person. Person got me down to about half health. Guy comes along and kills person as I'm about to get off the finishing shot. Kill is stolen. I am weakened and need to reload. Guy kills me as he has a full clip. I die.

  It went like that or variations of that involving 4 people all attacking me at the same time for several consecutive matches. Not to mention the mini team. It seems a couple of friends were talking to eachother via the phone or skype or the like and were working cooperatively as a team. This was especially a pain in ASE football where one guy held the ASE and the other ambushed me every time I went to kill his buddy. Then in quick matches they just ran around together teaming up on people. AKA CHEATERS.

  After several rounds of this I just couldn't take it anymore and then came the most epic ragequit I've had to date. My original wrist strap has been immune to everything and my TV remains unscathed, that is until today. My wrist strap was ripped to shreds from the wiimote. My couch and chair got a pummeling. My chair especially which now has a permanent handprint from my fist. My soda cans were crushed by bare feet. A box of Cheezeits has been exploded via screwdriver impalement which was rather dumb on my part as there are crumbs everywhere now

  There was no permanent damage done to anything really important. Some minor permanent damage to the chair and bed but nothing that will make it unusable. And my hand got but up a bit on the wood but I'm used to that and I'm like a masachist light so I tote it proudly in a sense. Oh and a bitemark on my nunchuck.

  To all of you who are like "oh my such an angry child you need help its just a game" don't lie. You've thrown down the controller in rage. Everyone who's played a reasonable amount of games that doesn't have the patience of a saint has had one of these moments. Its true. Besides sometimes breaking **** is the best therapy am I right?

  Therapists should just have a really nice room, give you a baseball bat, and say go. That'd be an awesome business. Anyway steams been blown, all calmed down

  I don't ragequit often and they're usually not this bad but after an hour of having my kills stolen EVERY SINGLE TIME. Keep in mind I mean this literally. EVERY. TIME. I just snapped.

  (I control myself better with people around )

  • Posted Jun 30, 2009 9:07 pm PT
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• 23Jun 09

  Ghost Hunt

  In an attempt to prevent myself from insanity at not having the Conduit yet (especially knowing other people do because some stores cheated) I decided I had to distract myself somehow. I went looking for animes (I usually read manga but felt lazy ) and seeing as how the last anime I watched, Higurashi no naku koro ni, was so freaking awesome I didn't even care that it made less sense than the fact that platypuses exist. So I went and googled "crap similiar to that" and they gave me Ghost Story. Let me say this is the first anime with its official demographic listed as "female" that I've watched from beginining to end (in fact my only other experience with anything termed shoujo or josei is when it comes on after a nice manly show on the funimation chanel or something).

  Anyway the only reason I even decided to give this series a chance without instantaneously shooting it down due to its target audience was because I saw some pics or clips of it where there was some creepy dude covered in blood staring down a girl as if to say "I am going to kill you so bad that you won't even recognize you". If anyone knows me, I like horror, gore or not. All I ask is that if there's gore in a movie it not be senseless. I don't like gore for the sake of gore, I like gore used to a good effect. Well thats not entirely ture as madworld kinda has gore for the sake of gore but it's also what made the game so damn stylish and cool so whatever.

  Anyway I was right about the series. There was a lot more awesome ghost action and mystery than there was "oh lovee dovee silly little girlish glee and stupidity". I mean every once in a while usually briefly between two "oh **** I'm going to die" moments I had to sit through 2 minutes of "oh she's so jealous blah blah blah" nonsense but the good parts outweighed the "shut UP" parts.

  As much as I hate to admit some of the inbetween nonsense actually made me laugh a bit. I hate that I found humor in their stupid love triangle but there it was and every time I caught myself laughing I was like "aw dammit but its funny". Then there were other times when it was just not funny and I was just like "get on with it so we can get back to the possessed dude with a knife please".

  But yeah the ghost scenes were for the most part good. Some of the mysteries were predictable and I was like "Um X is the one who cast the curse" 2 minutes into the story arc but other times I was just totally wrong. Anyway if you check your manhood at the door this is a decent enough series. Higurashi is better (and I also had an interesting start into Higurashi as the first 2 chapters of the manga were like "hey lets cosplay and dress up the only male character in a french maid outfit" so I was like "why is this labeled horror ._." so I skipped ahead 3 chapters and it only took me one panel to be like "oh, that's why...I should probably keep reading this...") but that's a given because I love that series.

  But yeah. Maybe some of those other horror series labeled shoujo might actually have some value in there but I'm still going to approach with caution to avoid what I like to call "no longer a man" syndrome. I'm listening to Gojira right now after finishing the series just to regain any lost manhood during the stupid scenes.

  But yeah, decent series is decent

  • Posted Jun 23, 2009 8:50 pm PT
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• 22Jun 09

  Religion Through the Eyes of an Athiest. (the easily offended be wary?)

  I've seen a couple of religious rants, preachings, etc scattered throughout my life the past several days and I decided as an athiest to explain why I think there is no such thing as a god and why I'm against organized religion. If you are a religious person and are reading this I'm not going to sit here and hate on religion in the sense that I'm going to make claims like "God is dumb and so is everyone who believes in one", I'm going to try and rationally explain the reasoning that lead me to believe there is no god and why I struggle to understand why people do believe in a god. I will also try to express why I am against organized religion. If you feel you'd be offended by this then, stop reading. Simple yes?

  Lets start with why I don't think there is a God. First of all lets take a look at the origin of religion and the steps its taken as its evolved. Ancient people had very primitive science with no means to explain natural phenomena such as tornados or lightning. Unable to provide any logical reason for tornados and the like people invented a reason, something was angry at them, the gods. The whole concept of Gods and deities originated because people were unable to explain very simple natural occurences that we can explain today.

  That then brings me to my next point, the evolution of God. Most early religions were polytheistic and now today most major religions are monotheistic. Somewhere along the line something had to change yes? The earliest religions like Zorastrianism are now nearly extinct while newer religions like Christianity and Judaism came to be. Greek Mythology is now considered just that, mythology, but to the Greeks it was just as true as Christianity is to Christains. There are so many different religions out there from Islam to Christianity to Judaism to Shintoism to Bhuddism to Hinduism to Daoism and so on. How can any member of any of those groups claim "we're the ones who are right, all the other religions have it wrong". And even if one of those religions were right and all the others were wrong does that mean everyone who was raised believing in the wrong god is doomed to eternal damnation? To me it just doesn't make any sense.

  In addition to that the effect religion has had on people even in this modern era can range from silly to ridiculous. The fact that, I'm not sure of the exact statistic, but a ridiculous amount of the Republican party candidates for the presidency raised their hands when asked if they did not believe in evolution is extraordinary to me. There is so much scientific evidence to suggest that evolution is how things happen in this world that to believe otherwise would be almost outright insane. Even if evolution isn't correct, creationism is (and this might be the one direct shot I take at specific religions) absolute insanity. Creationism should've died the second the first fossil was discovered but no, to this day it's widely believed in some places and it certainly plagues the republican party. I consider myself a moderate politically and I can say I'm not a fan of Bush or Obama and many of Obama's policies concern me very much but the Democrats are going to continue to dominate elections until the Republicans stop walking around preaching because outside of the bible belt no one actually takes them seriously anymore. They need to stop being the party that caters to angry old men and go back to their fiscally conservative roots. Back on topic with Relgion however I was told that in some states creationism is required to be taught along side evolution in biology classes. So much for separation of church and state.

  The idea that what I believe to be a fictional deity is so influencial in people's actions and every day behavior is both crazy and frightening to me. People making decisions because they "heard the voice of god" when what they should be doing is getting checked for schitzophrenia because they're hearing voices in their heads. More importantly many of these people who make claims like this are the ones with signifigant power (Bush). I have no problems with the message that Religion is at its heart trying to preach, be kind, be moral, etc but people have warped religion into something evil and monstrous. Religion has been a justification for countless wars and acts of violence, the crusades, 9/11 (something I could witness from my own back yard, I also knew someone who's father was killed), the war in Iraq, the Israeli-Palestinian conflict, the holocaust (although this should probably be considered more genetic than religious), human sacrifices ontop of Aztec temples. The list is far to long to write up completely.

  What started as a means to explain the unknown mutated into a (perfectly acceptable) message of benevolence and was then further mutated into a corrupt means to do harm onto eachother. I'm an athiest, I don't believe in God, that doesn't make me some sort of heathanistic puppy slaughtering satan worshipping psychopath like some very religious people might think. I mean I'm no saint but I'm not completely amoral either. There's no reason people need a man in a robe to tell them how to live their lives. People should live life, experience situations, and construct their own moral codes based upon those experiences. People should be taught moral codes from their parents, not that blowing themselves up and 20 other people on a bus will lead them straight to eternal paradise. Without religion the world wouldn't fall into chaos in fact I think it'd be a better place as religion sprouts so much violence that its reached the point of absolute insanity.

  People fear the unknown and people are curious creatures. We can't help ourselves but to wonder what comes after life and many seek answer through religion. The truth is we really have no feaking clue. Priest X will preach one thing and Monk Y will preach another. People shouldn't look to these figures for answers, they should live life to the fullest and discover their own answers to the mystery of life. I don't believe in an afterlife, it doesn't mean I sit cowering in fear at the concept of death. Sure I'm not looking forward to the day I die but its going to come eventually and when it does that's the only time I'll ever find the real truth. Who knows maybe I'm just spouting total nonsense right now and there is a heaven. In that case, awesome. I just don't see it happening that way though.

  God was invented as a means to explain simple phenomena and god has come in so many forms over the years how can anyone claim to be right. The truth is we can't really know for sure but I haven't seen any evidence to suggest the presence of a higher being. If there is a higher being it certainly isn't personally involved in everyone's life like many people want to claim. All in all I see no proof, just a supersticious explanation and that is why I don't believe in God or religion.

  (athiests are the most mistrusted group in America. Kind of ridiculous that me not believing in something someone else does means I should be mistrusted. Kind of like a 4 year old not trusting their parents because they told them there was no boogeyman)

  • Posted Jun 22, 2009 9:56 pm PT
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