I'm so angry at myself. This site means the world to me, I've met some really great people here,.. but nowadays I just can't seem to find any time for this!

I know I should just sit down and write. and comment. but what the h.e.l.l. is this damn block I keep getting when I should. okay, this blog is mostly about complaining, but usually I wouldn't like to complain here. I have my finnish blog for that. but when I get the urge to write, it's when I feel sad and when I need to vent it off somewhere and to someone, though probably no one reads it. even the thought that someone might helps me.

but there's just so much going on in my life that internet has lost a huge part of its meaning to me. there are only a couple of pages I visit (including fb.. shame on me! ) and even during that time I'm on messenger aaaaaaalllll the time. (even now I'm "talking" with two, which makes this process really slow)

today I just wanted to stop by and tell (like nobody cares, but still) that I'm still very much alive and constantly watching tv. though now during the summer only top gear. and with work and all even that much seems impossible. I'm just waiting for fall and new seasons of lost, house, office, pushing daisies, desperate housewives, brothers and sisters,.. the lot.

funny how I feel I'm doing nothing and still I have no time. guess I'm doing something wrong.

I did do something destructive though.. I broke my glasses last week during my four day holiday. and today my phone started to seriously fall apart. not to mention my computer has just been fixed *again*.

but I'm happy with my life. I really am. what else matters when you have those around you who you love?

I did what I swore I'd never do.

I joined Facebook.

I have to say I've no idea why I did it. Well, I did find a couple of friends I thought I'd lost for good. So it's not all bad. But the bad thing is that it is extremely addictive, and I seem to be spending more time there than is necessary.

I should only think about school. And I kinda am. .. Too bad that this week is my holiday, and I could just relax. But all these haunting images of all the projects I should get done in five weeks keep my mind overactive. Plus I've exams every week, sometimes two! .. The good thing is that after these five weeks it's all about work. For two weeks I'm working at the tourist info of Turku. So please, you all, come to Turku during april or may! I'll be there answering your questions and helping you to find the best places.

And after that it's already summer! Yay! We've had the lousiest winter ever, so I'm already done with it. If it won't snow and it won't be freezing.. please, give us spring and summer. If it rains then, it's at least part of the season. I hate winter without snow.

I'm so sorry I haven't been here on tv.com.. I've been so busy in school. Hey! If any of you has been on a Disney Cruise, please let me know! I'm doing a presentation on it, and I'd love some honest opinions.

And now it's back to reading stuff about Turku.. When 1st of April arrives, I should know all about my town. And I mean ALL.

.. and on that bombshell I'll give you all an early present .

(not done by me.. but I love it.)

Fourth day of my summer holiday.. So far I've watched way too much SpongeBob, I've been sick since day one, I'm halfway through "The Dog It Was That Died and other plays by Tom Stoppard" (I love it, but I'm annoyed that the library doesn't have all the books I wanted, and I've no way of getting them), the weather has been dreary and I've only seen the new Top Gear (everything else can wait till next week).

I love this! .. well, except the flu, but cos I'm sick, I don't have to do anything. So this is a real, proper holiday for once. I don't have to work, I don't have to think of school,.. I can just be. Do what I want whether it's sleeping on the couch in the middle of the day, reading books and/or comics, watching TV (okay, SpongeBob!) and most importantly, I get to spend time with my parents. This is like childhood all over again.

Since I can do whatever I feel like doing, I decided to answer yet another bunch of weird questions. You know that feeling when you have a table full of all kinds of sweets.. when you just want a sandwich? (I've no idea where I'm going with this, but I'm loaded with different kinds of drugs and nothing works, so I don't care.) Forget what I said.

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EVERYONE HAS THEIR FIRSTS

first real friend: my cousin Tiia (I love her!)
first school: Karivirran ala-aste (I spent seven years there)
first cell phone: Nokia 3210 (once a Nokia, always a Nokia, now 6600)
first funeral: my mom's aunt when I was four (almost five)
first pet: my lovely white cat Minttu, now 14 years old.
first real trip: a week travelling around Lapland.
first flight: from Helsinki to Hamburg
first celebrity crush(s): Kake Randelin
first job: post office (more of that coming this December! yay!)

EVERYONE HAS THEIR LASTS

last person you hugged: mom last night
last car ride: .. last Friday from Lahti to Sysmä
last time you cried: last Friday (my chats with mom tend to be rather emotional sometimes)
last movie you watched: Shawshank Redemption a while ago (.. or was it some Ewan McGregor-movie, I can't remember)
last food you ate: coffee
last item you bought: .. I bought two comic books by Don Rosa, I've ordered the new Kent cd,.. haven't paid those yet, though. So the bus ticket Turku-Lahti must be it.
last shirt worn: the one I'm wearing now.
last phone call: .. ages ago!
last text message: hmm.. once again, ages ago.
last thing you touched: my computer of course
last funeral: my grandpa two years ago
last time at the mall: we don't really have those here in Finland..
last time you were excited for something: last Friday minutes before my summer holiday started
last person you saw: my mom
last thing you drank: .. thing? sounds weird. coffee.
last person that broke your heart: I tend to do it myself..
last time you were really happy: I'm really happy now! I'm having a holiday and there's SpongeBob from 9.30am to 4.10pm every day on Nickelodeon! I might have a terrible flu, but that won't stop me from being extremely happy.

COLORS

RED
1. Are you currently mad at someone? no reason.
2. Which of your friends has the worst temper? I think that would be me.
3. Have you ever thrown something at anyone? of course!
4. Does your face turn red when you're angry? .. I don't know.
5. When you're mad do you prefer to stare angrily or yell/scream? I yell for a moment before I start laughing. then I just stare.

ORANGE
1. Has anyone ever thrown you a surprise party? no. (.. stupid friends..)
2. Are you easily excited? yes.
3. What event is coming up that your most excited about? a free cruise!
4. Which of your friends is most excitable? no idea. I don't care about their feelings.
5. If you won a million dollars what would be your first thought? "hey, I just won a load of money!"
6. If you could have anything right now what would it be? a cure for my flu.

YELLOW
1. NAME? you know it by now
2. Where were you born? in a hospital in Lahti
3. What's your main goal in life? no idea, I live one day at a time.
4. Do you want to have children? yep, but not soon.
5. How do you want to die? in my sleep when I'm over hundred years old.

GREEN
1. Do you like this color? depends.
2. gay marriage: why not, but not for me.
3. Lowering the drinking age? uppity! anything that annoys teenagers is fine by me.
5. Abortion? yes.
6. Recycling? yes.

BLUE
1. What was your latest dream? I got stuck in an elevator.
2. Which of your friends do you dream about the most? no one, I dream of random people.
3. Do your dreams come true? never
4. Do you usually remember your dreams? bits and pieces
5. What was the weirdest dream you've ever had? it involved a blue pepsi bus, I went home from school in it.

PURPLE
1. Straight, Gay Bi? straight
2. Do you have a bf? nope *le sigh*
3. Do you have a crush? not at the moment
4. Who is the best "hugger"? I am!
5. Do you believe in love at first sight? no, I believe in friendship at first sight
6. Have you ever been in love? no. depressing.

you know I really hate to update this blog.. it takes ages to get the text approved 'cos apparently I use some forbidden words. I'd like to know what they are so that I could avoid them.

hey.. if anyone knows someone who owns a hotel or a travel agency, please ask them if they'd want free workforce for two months next spring.

I'm bored so I stole a quiz from somewhere.

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Name: Johanna
Username(s): pulkkanen
Nickname(s): Yoko, Joppana, Jossu, Johku
Gender: female
Birthday: 28th January (Aquarians rule!)
Sibling(s): two older brothers

Hair color: dark brown
Eye color: dark brown with weird green spots
Height: short
What's the story behind your username(s)? nothing much, it's my last name and I like it.
What's the story behind your nickname(s)? Yoko(hama) I got while I was in Ireland, Joppana is what my mother calls me, Jossu is what my friends have always called me, and at school some call me Johku

Current mood: so and so.. I should go shopping, but I don't really feel like going.
Current music: Kent - Ingenting (great new song from a great Swedish band!)
Current hair: long, straight and brown
Current desktop picture: Nixon! from BoB
Current thought: why can't it be sunny? why are there clouds without rain? this weather is not autumny enough for me!
Current hate: homework

FAVORITES

Favorite boy's name(s): Arttu, Oskari,..
Favorite girl's name(s): Sofia, Evelyne, Elli,..
Favorite subject(s): English
Favorite celebrities: Hugh Laurie, Richard Hammond,.. and so many others.
Favorite number(s): 33! 33! 33! 33!
Favorite character(s): House, Wilson, Jim, Pam,.. etc. etc.
Favorite season: I love all of them.
Favorite pet animal: cats and dogs, won't choose. I've both.

Favorite wild life animal: otter!
Favorite planet: just to annoy those stupid scientists; Pluto
Where is your Favorite place to shop: Sokos Wiklund/Lahti
Favorite book: Little Prince, Fever Pitch, BoB, Parachute Infantry, Seitsemän veljestä (Seven Brothers by Aleksis Kivi)..
Favorite TV show: House, Top Gear, The Office, Rescue Me, Brothers & Sisters,.. and from the new ones, Pushing Daisies. I love it!
Favorite movie: Rosencrantz and Guildenstern Are Dead
Favorite quote: "What's the Norwegian for 'Oh, c**k.'?"

Given anyone a bath? only cats and a dog.. the dog hated it the most.
Bungee jumped? nope.. but I'd love to!

Broken the law? kinda
Gone skinny dipping? yes
Loved someone so much it made you cry? well, who hasn't?
Broken a bone? nope
Played Truth or Dare? yes
Been in a physical fight? yes.. kinda.
Kissed someone of the opposite gender? yes
Been in a hot tub? .. yes.
Swam in the ocean? no, when I was in Spain the water was freakin' cold!

Had chicken pox? yes
Had a sore throat? .. yes, duh.
Had stitches? I was thinking no, but them I remembered that I've had stiches in my mouth
Had a bloody nose? yes.
Had a cold? YES!

DO YOU...?

Enjoy parks? yes
Like picnics? yes
Like school? sometimes
Collect anything? episodes of Top Gear.
Like to shop? not really.
Get in trouble a lot? I'm a good girl, I am!

MISC.

If you were stuck on an island, who would you want on the island with you? Jezza, Hamster and Captain Slow .. yes, I'm that addicted to Top Gear
Last word you said? .. can't remember. maybe something I sang.. but mahna mahna (from muppets) is not really a word.
What's in your CD player? I don't have one! but computerwise.. Manu Chao's La Radiolina.
What color socks are you wearing? white
How many kids do you want? two, a girl and a boy
What are you listening to right now? the sound my computer makes, traffic, church bells (now I started to sing Nancy Sinatra's Bang Bang)
Who do you admire? my parents. .. I really do!
How many buddies on your list? what list?

Have you ever hated any person in your family? no.
What are you most scared of: death of someone close to me
Who is the last person that called you: .. I think it was my former boss. she asked me if I could help out at the post office before Christmas. the job would be in Vääksy, which is half an hour drive from Sysmä.. So not only would I have to skip school, but I'd have to travel there by bus every day from home.. of course I said yes! now I have to convince my teacher to give me the week off.. easier said than done.
Where do you want to get married: somewhere special.. my parents got married on a cruise ship. first ever wedding there.
Best song you ever heard: there are so many great songs out there.. I can't choose just one!
Have a lava lamp: gawd no. there was a time when I wanted one, but nobody would give me money to buy it.. thank you for that!
Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? I do when I'm depressed enough to cry myself to sleep. it really helps to hug someone, even if it's just a stuffed bear called Kontti.
Most prized possession: I'm a hamster.. everything I own is important to me. but emotionally my most prized possession could well be the teddybear dressed in army clothes that my brother brought to me when he was in the army. that bear (who is now called Nixon, btw) travels with me everywhere and reminds me that my brother loves me and that he's always there for me.
Good at sports? me? only at watching. .. and according to others, I'm rubbish even at that! I scream, I yell, I curse,.. and I hit innocent people around me.
Good actor/actress? Hugh Laurie. I don't think I need to explain this!

Shy? with social anxiety disorder.. hard not to be.
Do you like filling these out? yes, I do. answering random questions is so much fun.
What are your plans for tomorrow? sleep, homework, Top Gear,.. the usual.

School.I should be doing all kinds of power point related thingies.. But instead of doing whatI'm supposed todo, I'mjust staring at pictures of Hugh Laurie! What a great thing it is to have computers in almost every cla.ssroom!

Why can't it already be Wednesday morning.. This week has too many days! Luckily MTV3 is showing the second season of House so that helps me today.

And Top Gear helped me yesterday.. With Ewan McGregor as guest and.. my ever growing love for Hamster and May.. episode 8x03 was all I wanted after a bad, bad, bad day.

I've been feeling a bit down again this week..The worst part was that yesterday after school I saw a bus that goes to Lahti (which I use when I go home) and I almost started crying! I has tears in my eyes and for a second I couldn't see where I was going. So I just stood there in the middle of the street staring at the bus that stopped right next to me.

But all will be well next week. House on Wednesday and home on Friday. In the mean time I need to browse the internet for more pictures of Hugh.

Two weeks of school behind.. and I'm sick! This must be a new record or something. I'm not gonna write a long text 'cos I thought I'd go back to bed asap. But while fighting with my school's email system, I found a funny music.. meme? I don't really know what it's called. But you just gather up all your music and put it on shuffle and.. you know. let your music do the answering. I've done this now a couple of times in my other blog and decided it was time to bring this here. Sorry about any weirdness and stuff, I'm really sick. And it sucks.

Is my life going to the right direction?
song: I Don't Even Mind
artist: Scott Grimes
comment: yeah.. who cares?

What would help me with my money problems?
song: Wishing Wells
artist: Ron Sexsmith
comment: where can I find one? I might just try this.

Why do others envy me?
song: My Yard
artist: Jamie Cullum
comment: really?! I don't even have a yard.

What side of myself have I not realised yet?
song: He's Evil
artist: The Kinks
comment: am I evil? or am I a he?! .. I'd rather be evil.

What will I be like when I grow old?
song: He's Is Not Dead Yet
artist: Original Cast of Spamalot
comment: .. again with the 'he'! I'm a girl! .. well, at least I'll be alive when I'm old.

What/who will I fall in love with next?
song: Cigarettes and Chocolate Milk (Reprise)
artist: Rufus Wainwright
comment: I'll take the chocolate milk, thank you!

Meaning of life?
song: Crazy Love
artist: Paul Anka
comment: really?! why not.

What to do after this?
song: Finland/Fisch Schlapping Dance
artist: Original Cast of Spamalot
comment: hurray! who's with me?! let's go fisch schlapping!

How do others see me?
song: Horoscope
artist: Harpo
comment: well I am a typical Aquarian.. weird and - weird.

Do I have a happy life?
song: For All We Know
artist: The Carpenters
comment: okay..

What do my friends think of me?
song: Always Look On The Bright Side of Life
artist: Eric Idle
comment: .. I've no idea how to take this.

How can I make myself happy?
song: A Bit of You
artist: Rufus Wainwright
comment: .. you know what? .. no, I won't tell you.

What to do with my life?
song: Poor Little Lamb
artist: Tom Waits
comment: .. what? oh, wait. what cute lil' lyrics!

Why is my life so full of pain and suffering?
song: Mr. Curiosity
artist: Jason Mraz
comment: "I'm looking for love this time, sounding hopeful, but it's making me cry."

Will I ever have children?
song: How On Earth
artist: Ron Sexsmith
comment:

What would be a good piece of advice for me?
song: See The USA in Your Chevrolet
artist: Dinah Shore
comment: omg! I love this! All I need now is a Chevrolet..

What is Happiness?
song: The Boy's Gone
artist: Jason Mraz
comment: well that sucks.

What's my favourite fetish?
song: Decomposing Composers
artist: Michael Palin
comment: oh my god..

I always seem to find the weird answers.. okay, it might be easy with all the weird music I seem to collect.I must admit I skipped the song if the title made no sense or I had no recollection of the whole damn song being on my computer. So cheating is allowed. I'll allow it right now.

Oh, and in case you want to know what my future profession will be.. (not that you care, but in my little head I like to hope that somebody does. .. what?! pretending makes me happy!)

a travel counsellor!

.. tadaa! sounds like something, well like marriage counsellor. scary. anyway, I study tourism and so far it has been fun. (it will not be on Thursday..)

I'm still hunting number 33.

and now I need to lie down or something bad will happen.

and the topic is a song by John Rzeznik. Nice song. .. and an even nicer music video featuring Malarkey by websterish on youtube.

omigod!

I'm back!

Well.. Not really. It's way too hot (love it!) to think about computers or internet. .. and yet, here I am. Writing a blog. Which probably no one will read. Not that I mind.. I've been doing all kinds of not-computer-related things and I will be doing those for the rest of this week and the beginning of next. End of my summer holiday.. I have to make the most of it!

But now I'm home alone and out with my computer so I've got nothing else to do but to write a blog. And I'm watching Boomtown at the same time.

I read Emmi's blog and decided I should update you on my lil' life.

Not that anything has happened. Well.. Something did happen, but I won't tell you what. Nothing big, just great.

But.. Here goes.

MY SUMMER

+ Paul Anka touched my hand! He's one of those I've loved ever since I was a little kid. So the concert was more than awesome.

+ I ran over a squirrel. In my defense, it was already dead. But still.. Poor thing. To die and as if that wasn't enough, be flattened after it.

+ My work is ending this Saturday. I haven't loved every minute of it, but it was great. So it's about to end, but I got so much out of it. .. Even a new friend! So.. Yays for me!

+ Only a week and my school starts.. Let's see how long I can take it this time.

+ I've been watching Rescue Me and Eureka. And Boomtown. I have Standoff still waiting for me. And I got my first ever House-dvd some time ago! *happy* .. Weird thing is, it's still wrapped. I'm waiting for the perfect moment..

+ I've read two books this summer, David Kenyon Webster's Parachute Infantry and of course the last Harry Potter. Potter made me cry, especially the "Even after all this time? Always."-part. Right now I'm reading Pollyanna which Emmi sent to me just to cheer me up. Such a lovely friend that Emmi!

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And that concludes my summer recap. That's not all that has happened to me after my last blog, but I can't remember things! It sucks to have a bad memory.

I managed to lock myself up with the pheasants yesterday.. I went to give them food and decided to close the door so that they wouldn't escape. .. Well after that neither would I! Lucky me I wasn't home alone.. I screamed for my mom and she came to let me out. Okay, I may be stupid enough to lock myself up there, but if that happens to someone by accident and there's no one else.. Have fun sleeping there with 104 pheasants running around you pooping everywhere. Unless you want to run among 5 extremely "playful" wild boars 'cos that's really the only, only way out. And that includes dropping yourself from upstairs to downstairs 'cos there aren't any ladders anymore. It's not a big drop (and you'll survive, ask my brother).

More with birds.. Gawd I'm obsessed with birds! ( and the number 33, but that's a whole different story. ) So, anyway.. Yesterday (as well, what a birdy day!) we were at our summer cottage. There are loads of ducks (you know, Daffy Ducks, not duckducks) and we feed them. This time there was this one which made me laugh all the time. He sounded just like Donald Duck laughing! And you know how I love Donald! .. So whenever something happened the duck would start "laughing" and it really felt like we were in some bizarre cartoon.

Meh. I'd love to stay outside and enjoy the warmness that is Finnish summer at it's best, but I have to work this evening. So that means I have to take a shower right about now. And there's something wrong with.. something and we apparently can't get warm water today. So yay me. Just what I need.. A cold shower and evening shift at work.

But I've decided to play Pollyanna's game, how you should always be glad about something in everything that happens.

Cold shower means that I'll enjoy this warm weather even more.

Evening shift.. I don't have to go swimming today as I get to spend this hot day in a cool place.

And the rest of my days end so that I have at least my evenings off.

So believe it or not.. I'm all happy!

1] What was the highlight of your week?
probably something at work today.. or after. but at work.

2] Who's car were you in last?
my own

3] When is the next time you will kiss someone?
hopefully soon!

4] What color shirt are you wearing?
purple

5] How long is your hair?
perhaps a bit too long

6] Last movie you watched?
Blades of Glory

7] Last thing you ate?
bread I guess..

8] Last thing you drank?
coke. .. which is weird considering I don't like it. but I had nothing else.

9] Where did you sleep last night?
in my bed.

10] Are you happy right now?
actually yes, really happy.

11] What did you say last?
joojoo

12] where is your phone?
I've no idea! probably in my car.. that's where I saw it last.

13] What was the last museum you went to?
Aboa Vetus & Ars Nova

14] What color are your eyes?
brown

15] Who came over last?
no idea.

16] When was the last time you had your heart broken?
never happened. I've no life.

17] Who/what do you hate/dislike currently
cruelty towards animals

18] What are you listening to?
Jason Mraz

19] If you could have one thing right now what would it be?
not what but who..

20] What is your favorite scent?
I don't know.

21] Who makes you happiest right now?
I won't tell..

22] What were you doing at midnight last night?
.. I think I was watching ER.

23] Are you left-handed?
nope

24]What's for dinner tonight?
chicken

25] When Is Your Birthday?
January 28th

26] Who was the last person to send you a text message?
Emmi

27] When was the last time you went to a swimming pool?
can't remember! my swimming pool is a lake.

28] Where was the last place you went shopping?
Sokos Lahti

29] How do you feel about your hair right now?
it'll be curly tomorrow.

30] Do you have any expensive jewelry?
I do.. I got it from my aunt after my grandma died.

31] AIM or MSN?
msn

32] Where does most of your family live?
Sysmä

33] Are you an only child or do you have siblings?
I've two older brothers

34] Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
no way in hell!

35] What was the first thing you said when you woke up
eih.. mie en kestä.

36] Do you drink beer?
yes. even at this moment.

37] makeout or kiss?
kiss

38] Myspace or Facebook?
myspace

39] Do you have T-Mobile?
nope

40] What is your favorite subject in school?
don't know yet.

41] Do you have any talents?
no.. I can be really annoying! .. is that a talent?

42] Have you ever been IN a wedding?
nope

43] Do you have any children?
nope

44] Did you take a nap today?
no, but I sure felt like I needed one.

45] Ever met someone famous?
"famous" Finns yeah.

46] Do you want to be famous one day?
not really.

47] Are you multitasking right now?
I'm multitasking all the time

48] Could you handle being in the military?
don't think so but I'd love to try.

49] What is your average cell phone bill?
around four euros.. or less.

50] Do you believe in Karma?
I do.. and I don't.

51] Ever been to Las Vegas?
nope.

52] What are you doing today?
not much. I'm gonna watch the newest Rescue Me (love it!) and then try to sleep more than four hours like last night.

53] Have you ever been gambling?
sure!

54] When is the last time you updated your blog?
umm.. not too long ago.

55] Have you been to New York City?
no.

56] Ever been to Disneyland/world?
no but it's one of my dreams.

57] Do you have a favorite cartoon character?
Donald Duck! .. if he was real I'd marry him in a sec! who cares if he's a duck..

58] Last thing you cooked?
my hand

59] What is one thing that baffles you?
why do people come to the store five minutes before it closes?

60] What are you looking forward to?
sleep.

61] Where do you see yourself in 10 years?
above ground.

62] What TV shows do you watch?
House, Rescue Me, The Office, Happy Days, Standoff, Brothers & Sisters, ER, Pasila, I'm sure I'm forgetting something important, Desperate Housewives, Lost, Eureka, Boomtown, QI, Monty Python's Flying Circus, The Simpsons, SpongeBob,.. and a helluva lot more!

63] Who is the toughest guy you know?
my dad!

64] Are you where you want to be in life?
almost.

I have a new crush.. there's a guy that comes to sort out the candy shelves, and well, whaddyouknow, he's cute! So he was there one day and I stared at him all the time. .. I think that's the reason he left early. I was so sad to see him leave 'cos I had an awful day and I really needed major cheering.. The only thought that kept me sane was to mock all the customers in my thoughts ("shh.. I'm trying to kill you with my mind."). So no matter how mean customers I had, I just smiled. I smiled all the time. Inside my head I was screaming. All the time. I seriously had no time to just be! .. My biggest joy is to laze around and talk with coworkers. Okay, I also love to fill the tobacco shelf although I no nothing about different tobaccoes! But I get to be me then, no need to smile when I don't feel like it, and no need to listen to someone whine about something completely useless! Although I have to admit; we cashiers talk through the situations we've had with annoying customers, but that's just therapy! And I need it.. If someone has made me angry, I want to vent it out. Luckily I have Emmi. If there's no time to talk with Emil, Antti, Eevi, Henna or Jaana [my lovely coworkers], Emmi listens to my rants. And now I've got Meredith who knows exactly what I mean!

And I just wanna say.. I don't hate anyone (I might dislike, but only for a good reason) and most of the customers are wonderful and funny. I do love my job, but it might not be so if I didn't have such great friends there. I just hope the guys don't see me as mean 'cos I keep teasing them. I just can't stay serious with them! I think it's because I have two brothers.. I'm totally different when I'm working with the "girls", all serious and that. And I must say, if I see I share my shift with Antti or Emil I know the day will be perfect no matter what.

Okay, enough about work! I have two things I need to say before I forget.

1. I do have boring moments at work. And I've got postcards and stamps. So please, PM me your addresses if you want a postcard from Finland. I would love to send you all something huge and awesome, but I hope a postcard would do as I don't have tons of money, but I do have 1,20€ for all of you who want it.

2. I haven't been to tv.com for ages.. And I feel bad about it. But it's summer! .. And work takes so much of my time that I don't want to spend the rest of it staring at a computer screen. I do spend a lot of my time on messenger though.. (I know, staring at the screen and all.. but I watch ER at the same time. I'm weird and I have weird reasonings, I know. ) So anyway, add me if you've got messenger and TALK TO ME if you see I'm online. I'm usually so passive that there's no point to wait for me to start the conversation. Lazy all the way.. So anyway, point of this second thing was that I'm not in a coma (or vegetative state) even though I haven't been here for the longest of times. I'm just to damn lazy. (lazy'n'crazy ftw!)

Okay, the topic. We got 112 pheasant yesterday. .. They look like, well, birds. You know, oddly long legs, smallest of winglets and cutest eye capsules ever. I love them all already (although one of them crapped on my hand when I was lifting them from the boxes) and I don't like to think about autumn when I'm eating all kinds of "major incredient: pheasant meat" foods.

I don't really mind. I've eaten steaks and hams, all from animals I've loved and cared for. I'm used to it but my mother doesn't like it when I look at a piece of meat and say something like "Well, Lil'Joe, you had a great life, I miss you.". She loses her appetite immediately. (I think you get the idea, I tease people I care for. .. So I'm pretty sure I'll never get married. )

So anyway, the pheasants came yesterday and already one of them ran away. Literally. Pheasants don't like to fly until they think they're seriously in danger. So they run. And these little buggers run damn fast! There were four of us trying to catch one little bird. Must've looked stupid. My mom finally caught it when it ran to the fence of the wild boards. I honestly don't know who freaked out more, the boars or the bird.

What else is new.. Let's see. Well, we got a "new" car a week ago. I love it! We all do. Anything is improvement after Toyota. I still drive my '80 Peugeot to work, it's all mine now. After we sold our Toyota we were all using my Peugeot.. What a nightmare!

I got accepted to the school I wanted. I'm gonna become a travel agent in two years! I'm really excited about that. .. But at the same time I'm really sad 'cos my holiday ends two weeks earlier now.

A bee just flew into my lamp and got killed. How sad, but at the same time beautiful.

My cat is still staring at the lamp, I wonder what she's thinking.. I hope it's not food.

I don't wanna stop writing! I'm scared I'll write my next blog in December if I stop now. I'm sorry I'm dragging you along. .. If there still is anyone reading.

So this is once again about little bits of useless stuff. This is what my thoughts are all about. I start with apples and end up with monkeys.

You know, one funny thing.. My friend is working as a cashier for the first summer and she's all happy and excited (and annoying) [did I say that?! .. whoops! ] and said that she's so good at guessing what people are like (who owns a cat and that stuff). So when I was bored (before my candyguy came) I did that. I guessed. Well it doesn't require much. Somebody bought catfood and I was like "wow.. this guy has a cat!". That kept me happily entertained for ten minutes. Honestly, it doesn't take a genious to realize somebody has a cat if they buy catfood. I mean, enjoy your job but don't be stupid. Sorry I'm being mean but one sometimes has to let the kindness on vacation. I love my job, but of course it has it's downsides as well! Take them as they come, don't pretend all is great and wonderful etc. We all know being a cashier sucks! .. I just like it, I guess I'm weirder than I ever imagined. But even though I love it, I realize it sucks and if I did it for a year I'd probably be on happy pills soon.

Not that my friend is a monkey or anything. She's great.

By the way, if nothing else helps I keep singing Mika's Grace Kelly in my head. You know, "I could be wholesome, I could be loathsome, I guess I'm a little bit shy. Why don't you like me, why don't you like me without making me try?" I always end up singing loudly "Why don't you walk out the door!" and I smile all the way.

.. Okay, I just got my eleventh bruise! My foot slipped and hit the table! I think I should crawl to bed and wait silently for Monday. Yeah.. For some reason I just wanna go back to work. I guess I'm in love.

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Winters: Let me know if you run into any trouble.
Nixon: Yeah, and you let me know if you run into any bacon sandwich.

The Sopranos ended. I can't believe it ended.

I'm feeling really sad.

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Just a small town girl, livin in a lonely world
She took the midnight train goin anywhere
Just a city boy, born and raised in south detroit
He took the midnight train goin anywhere

A singer in a smokey room
A smell of wine and cheap perfume
For a smile they can share the night
It goes on and on and on and on

Strangers waiting, up and down the boulevard
Their shadows searching in the night
Streetlight people, living just to find emotion
Hiding, somewhere in the night

Working hard to get my fill,
Everybody wants a thrill
Payin anything to roll the dice,
Just one more time
Some will win, some will lose
Some were born to sing the blues
Oh, the movie never ends
It goes on and on and on and on

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The Sopranos live on. .. And I do too, I've been waiting for Rescue Me since last August! Only a couple of days..

Hi everyone! Just dropped by to tell that I'm still alive. After what happened yesterday that's a first class miracle! .. Really, a day of the worst kind. Everything bad that could happen, happened. For example, I found out that an official complaint had been made about my actions. .. What a lovely way to start a day! So you can guess that took my thoughts completely away from work and I kept making stupid mistakes until my shift was over. At one point (when I hit my arm for the third time in an hour) I just wanted to scream "Can't somebody kill me?!". I had the worst day ever and the worst customers. Really, one guy came to me with a letter that didn't have a proper stamp. So I sold him the needed 5c stamp. He saw that I took the 5c stamp from a list of 5c stamps so his letter was 70c like it should be. .. He then said to me, pointing at the list, "I'd like to buy four more of those." to which I said "These?" (I of course thought he had those old 65c stamps somewhere and needed 5c stamps) so when he said "Yes." I gave them to him and took the money he gave and all. [during this time I was alone at the checkout *and* post office, major amount of customers everywhere!] .. Then this guy says "Hey, not these! I said I want the regular ones. Those 70c stamps. Not these.". At that point I swear I had smoke coming from my ears, didn't I just sell him just the stamps he wanted! .. But no, he blaimed the whole thing on me and laughed at me like I was an idiot or something! .. And I just had to smile while I really wanted to stuff him into the nearest trash can. My day really sucked.

It's funny how nobody ever says anything nice when you do your job properly, but when you piss someone off, then BANG! Official complaint. It wasn't even a biggie. A woman came to get a package without a code or anything. You should always have the arrival notice with you, but we sometimes give packages without them if we can find them. So I did find the package, but the package had to be paid right away but the sticker which had the information (bank account etc.) wasn't whole, it didn't have the info I needed! So I couldn't give the package to the woman without the arrival notice (which she should have had with her in any case!) and I asked her to come back with it. .. She left. And made a complaint about me! .. F- her! I was nothing but nice and said I'm sorry and there's nothing I can do and she makes a complaint! I wasn't even alone in the situation and now I have to explain the whole situation to my boss tomorrow.. As if I even remember every little detail! I feel really angry, I've done my job more than well but now one stupid thing! I still feel really frustrated so you can guess how I felt yesterday at work!

I still love my job, but yesterday was something horrible and I don't want another day like that. Luckily I'm an eternal optimist, I've been through so many bad things in my life and I've always believed in better tomorrow. So this one? Not a biggie!

Today was a good day. I spent the entire day outside, it was so warm. We were all out, including our sofa cushion Minttu. The true sign of summer, she voluntarily sleeps outside the entire day and only comes in to eat.

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oh.. I just had to do this. No reason. I just wanted to think of something else than work.

1. Are your parents married or divorce? Happily married.
2. For how long? In three days 29 years, and in 14 days it'll be 35 years since they got encaged.
3. How old are they? Mom 58, dad turns 56 in a month.
4. Do you think heaven exists? I actually do.
5. Ever run away from home? No, our home is in the middle of nowhere, where would I've gone? Behind a tree?
6. Favourite place? My bed here at home.
7. Favorite time of the day? Bedtime.
8. Favourite website? This one. (and postsecret, youtube, etc.)
9. Would you ever have plastic surgery? Only if I really needed it for my health or something.
10. Are you homosexual? No.
11. Ever kiss someone of the same sex (not including family)? No.
12. What do you wear to bed? My satin pyjamas. [yes.. luxurious]
13. Ever done anything illegal? Yes.
14. Been arrested? No.
15. Fired a gun? Yes, it's fun!
16. Shot someone? No, I've never shot anything that lives and I never will.
17. How many illegal drugs have you tried? None. I'm a good girl, I am.
18. Did you get caught? Now that would be impossible.
19. Hair color? Darkish brown.
20. Short or long? Too long.
21. Eye colour? Brown (with a hint of green, oddly).
22. Favourite saying? "Voi perseensuti!" or "Voi elämän kevät..".
23. Ever wore pajamas to cla.ss or work? I once had to wear pyjamas to school. Yes, had to.
24. Do you like The Lord of the Flies? I've never seen it nor read it.
25. Do you like The Lord of the Rings? Never read the book and never seen the movies. I will read the book someday, but I will never [never!] watch the movies.
26. Harry Potter? I bought the first book when the third had just been published as a pocket book.. And I immediately went back to buy the second book and after that I've read all the books many times and I love them all. I've seen the movies as well, but they're not that important to me.
27. Future childrens name? My girl will be Elli Sofia and my boy Rufus [Arttu Oskari].
28. Do you snore? Nobody has ever said that I do, so I don't think so.
29. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? I can't, I'd just kick them out. But I have loads of them. [I hope we're talking about toys, not real animals..]

30. Do you like to sleep in? Whenever I can!
31. Gold or silver? I have a silver ring I bought from Visby (Gotland, Sweden), a silver necklace with an opal that my aunt (who lives in Australia, hence the opal) gave me when she visited Finland ages ago and a silver bracelet my dad bought me last Christmas. I also have a golden necklace my mom bought me and golden earrings my dad bought me three years ago. So both kinds are welcome, I just prefer silver.
32. How long did your longest phone conversation last? About four hours, I'm the worst person to end a conversation.

33. With who? A friend.
34. If you could only eat one food for the rest of your life, what would it be? No idea, I always get bored with anything if I eat it constantly for weeks.
35. Ever go scuba diving? No, but I'd love to.
36. Ever change a lightbulb? Many times.
37. City, Beach or Country? "Take me home, country roads.."
38. Sleep with your bedroom door open or closed? Open.
39. Where did you eat last? In our kitchen.
40. Are you allergic to peanut butter? No.
41. Are you an artist? No.
42. Musician? No, but that doesn't stop me from singing loudly
43. Athlete? No, I'm way too lazy for that.
44. Bookworm? Definitely!
45. Writer? Sadly not.. It takes me ages to even write a short email.
46. When's the last time you cried? I've had tears in my eyes but I haven't cried in a month.. Weird. I'm all happy.
47. Why? When I cried? I was watching BoB.
48. Do you read other people blogs? Yes! .. I should comment more, I know. Do you take smileys?
49. Do you talk in your sleep? I've once said "let's go to the moon. .. nintendo." in my sleep, I was about ten years old. Nothing after that.
50. Window seat or aisle? Always window.
51. Ever met anyone famous? Yeah, but someone no one else knows as a celeb.
52. Do you feel that you've had a truly successful life? No and I won't, but I'm truly happy with what I have so I guess I've had a successful life. [that made no sense]
53. Twirl your spaghetti or cut it? Depends on my mood.
54. Are you ticklish? Yes!
55. Ever bite someone? I don't remember.. My fighting methods as a child were a lot.. Well, let's just say more unfair.
56. Ever push all the buttons on the elevator? No, I'm too shy to do something like that.
57. Ever make out in an elevator? No.
58. How long do your showers last? 10 to 20 minutes.
59. Are you self-conscious? Yes and I hate it.
60. Ever have a crush on a teacher or coach? Yes.
61. Ever drunk so much you threw up? Yes. .. Not that long ago.
62. Do you drink alcohol on a regular basis? Kinda.
63. Do you smoke? No, I never have and I never will.
64. Smoke a pack a day? .. No!
65. Do you drink alot of milk? I should, but I like water more.
66. Ever stay out all night without getting caught? No, would've been difficult here unless I would've wanted to wander around the forest or something.
67. Have you ever given money to a homeless person? No, not a lot of homeless people here in Sysmä.
68. Have you been in love? No.
69. Do you bite your nails? Not anymore.
70. Have you tried sushi? No, but I'd like to.
71. Escargot? No, and I don't want to. .. Too slimy.
72. Caviar? Yes!
73. Have you ever ridden in an ambulance? No. [this is getting boring..]
74. Police car? No.
75. Fire engine? No.. but I've gotten a ride in the car of the local fire chief.
76. Ever had the chicken pox? Yes.
77. Can you tango? I used to.. but I've forgotten. [I'm not too sad about it. ]
78. Ever been to Niagara Falls? No.
79. Europe? Never been anywhere else.
80. Germany? Yes, five years ago.
81. Africa? No, but I'd love to! www.africam.com
82. Mexico? No.
83. Last gift you received? A picture my friend made me. Such a lovely gift!
84. Last sport you played? Scary.. I can't remember!
85. Been on a blind date? No.
86. Dated someone with more than 10 years age difference? No.
87. Been fired? No.
88. Thing you spend a lot of money on? Books.
89. Where do you live? Sysmä, Päijät-Häme, Etelä-Suomen lääni, Finland, Scandinavia, Northern Europe.
90. Where were you born? In a hospital.
91. Last wedding attended? My cousin's wedding two years ago.
92. Have you ever been married? No.
93. Divorced? Surprisingly no.
94. Most hated food? I've been traumatized by soup made from milk and vegetables.. [maybe it's the lack of meat? ]
95. Last person you text messaged? My brother two days ago.
96. Saying what? "Lahessa 20.50"
97. Favorite regular drink? (mineral) water.
98. Favourite person? Mom and dad. .. And all of you! *hugs*

99. Least favourite person? There are a couple of customers I wish to never see again.. And now you know who.

100. Current Crush? Still the guy who delivers the packages..

LAYER ONE: ON THE OUTSIDE

Name: Johanna
Birth date : January 28th
Current Location: my room, upstairs at home, Sysmä, Finland
Eye Colour: brown
Hair Colour: dark brown
Righty or Lefty: righty
Zodiac Sign: Aquarius

LAYER TWO: ON THE INSIDE

Your heritage: Finnish all the way. From dad's side I'm Karelian (his parents lived there when Karelia was part of Finland) and from mom's side.. well, Finnish. I should say I'm hämäläinen, but I've no idea what that is in English. Häme is part of Finland, this area here in the middle of Finland. There's some German and French in me from mom's side.. my ancestors came to Finland from Germany in the 18th century. I consider myself Finnish. .. although I guess I don't look like one. Just last week one guy asked me if I was Turkish! I've also been mistaken as Italian, Spanish and Indian.. Just like my dad.
Your fears: death of loved ones
Your weakness: lousy self-confidence
Your perfect pizza: .. almost anything goes!

LAYER THREE: YESTERDAY, TODAY, TOMORROW

Your thoughts when first waking up: "God I don't like you right now.." (my brother came to wake me up ever so cheerfully)
Your best physical feature: what? how's this "yesterday, today, tomorrow"?
Your bedtime: soon!
Your most missed memory: awww.. my childhood.

LAYER FOUR: YOUR PICK

Pepsi or Coke: water
McDonald's or Burger King: Hesburger
single or group dates: what?
Adidas or Nike: both
Lipton Tea or Nestea: both
Chocolate or vanilla: chocolate!!
Cappuccino or coffee: anything with caffeine in it!

LAYER FIVE: DO YOU?

Smoke: no and I never have.
Cuss: too often..
Have a crush: makes life so much more fun! .. or work.
Think you've been in love: no, not yet.
Want to get married: why not?
Believe in yourself: no and it sucks.
Think you're a health freak: god no!

LAYER SIX: IN THE PAST MONTH HAVE YOU..

Gone to the mall: kinda.
Been on stage: no.
Eaten Sushi: no.
Dyed your hair: no.

LAYER SEVEN: HAVE YOU EVER

Played a stripping game: yes.
Gotten beaten up: no.
Changed who you were to fit in: never ever.

LAYER EIGHT: GETTING OLD

Age you're hoping to get married: no idea.
Age you want to die: when I'm really old, like 110.

LAYER NINE: IN A GUY

Best eye colour: blue or green!
Best hair colour: dark brown
Short or long hair: short! definitely short!

LAYER TEN: WHAT WERE YOU DOING

1 MINUTE AGO: doing this
1 HOUR AGO: trying to find my cat (the white one)
1 DAY AGO: tidying my room, listening to Rufus Wainwright and talking to Emmi.
1 WEEK AGO: at this exact moment? sleeping I guess.
1 YEAR AGO: stressing about my life

LAYER ELEVEN: FINISH THE SENTENCE

I LOVE: my family, friends, pets and job
I HATE: stress
I HIDE: my stuff I don't need in my mom's storage room
I MISS: a good night's sleep
I NEED: to sleep!

I'm really tired right now. So I'll do a lazy blog. I'll put some thoughts here and add some more when I have some thoughts to add. I have a lot of things I'd like tell you, but I can't remember them after work. I should have a piece of paper with me all the time. .. Today was so busy I barely had time to have two short breaks. .. So forgive me, after this I'll go to bed, I have to leave House for tomorrow.

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1. I realised I have a serious fixation. I worked many times (including one summer) at the postal office of Sysmä, and last year I got a job at the store where the postal office is now. That's where I work this summer as well. .. And there's one thing that always happens. There have been some really cute guys that deliver the post and packages and take away the post at 5pm. And I just love them all. If there's a young guy, I seriously want to see him every day! I've no idea why it is the way it is. Yesterday I saw the new "postipoika" of this summer and my god! .. I had a dream last night with him in it! That has never happened before! Today I knew the day was going to suck when I saw that he wasn't delivering the post today. .. And my day did suck. Really.

2. I love every customer! (well.. there's one I'm not particularly fond of.. I'll tell you one day) No matter how bad the day has been (like today..), I still have found a smile for everyone! I love to smile! .. Or I love my job so much I smile all the time. Today I had to write the whole EAN code for fruits and vegetables almost every time 'cos the machine was out of ink,.. etc. etc. Major league problems! .. And still I smiled and smiled and smiled! I've seen so many friendly faces you wouldn't believe it! I've had customers who've said that they like me and all. I really, seriously love my job and I love the people. Of course there are always those who don't say hello, or smile, but I ignore it. There's always the next customer!

3. These were supposed to be only one sentence long.

4. I've been neglecting television and I feel terrible. In a way. I've so much to do I just can't concentrate on tv. In a week I've only seen the newest Sopranos (and I cried cos my favourite died and I couldn't believe it. ), but I should watch at least (House, obviously) The Office, cos there's a chat this Friday. Would be stupid to be there with two episodes unwatched. But I'm so tired at night! It's now past midnight and all I think about is sleeping. I've no idea where this text comes from.

5. Seriously, I must say this.. I love you all. I'm sorry I haven't had the time to comment on your blogs, but I read every single entry and I love them all. You're all so great, you have no idea how much you mean to me! *hugs* You cheer me up no matter how tired I feel. I don't feel sad as I'm home and I've my family and pets here with me. Sadness is not an option, feeling tired after seven hours of standing behind a counter is. So I'm off to bed. This will continue tomorrow, or the day after that. No idea really when. Some day. When I've the time, energy and thoughts. Now I'm gonna go have some more dreams about the guy whose name I don't even know. But he was so nice!

6. I have to ask, anybody know anything about dreams? I had an other dream last night (actually this morning between my mom waking me up to tell me something and my dad waking me up to tell me something) in which I was in a bus which was no ordinary bus. For example there were two people traveling under my seat. I woke up when the driver was hollering "hoi!" through the radio. .. That was actually my dad.

7. Pleasant dreams everyone! Or work. Or studying. Whatever you'll be doing after you read this. If you've read this through. And I wish you well even if you've read the first and last sentence.

8. I saw a woman today who looked just like Miss Anne Elk . I almost called her that.

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9. I saw a stupid thing today. My dad bought beer from Estonia (our southern neighbor) while he was there 'cos it's a lot cheaper. Well, the beer is really made in Lahti which is a town only 60 kilometers from Sysmä. .. So it's part Finnish and part Estonian. BUT recycling the can (we have to pay extra money from our cans and bottles which we get back when we recycle them properly) doesn't work here as the cans are Estonian. Here's the weirdest part: the text on the can says in swedish, and *only* in swedish that the recycling is only allowed in Sweden! So the beer that is produced in Finland, is sold in Estonia and you'd have to go to Sweden to return the can if you want your money back! What a lovely system we have!

10. Oh, I got tipped yesterday! Some guy bought an energydrink and gave me the can after he had finished it. So I earned 15c! .. I should start hanging outside the store a lot more!

11. If you want to annoy me.. Come to the store and buy any fruits and vegetables and weigh them at the first scale that stands alone near the entrance. God I hate that scale! The EAN code never works! It messes up the print entirely and I always have to type the whole code. ARGH! The code always starts with 2000614.. and the rest is different according to the the weight. If this continues throughout the summer I end up remembering different EANs when I should count sheep to fall asleep. .. Other products that bug me.. Green grapes, any bread in a paper bag, discount products, stuff which doesn't have their EAN code on them or a correct one, certain ice creams, milk products, products with small EAN codes so that the machine doesn't read them,.. And my god! Just say to me that you took one or more plastic bags, they don't have to go through me, I have their code and it's very simple! "1" and "tuote"! If there's tons of products, I don't want to deal with bags that are the quickest and least important!

12. Done and done. Now I'm all happy again. I just needed to get this out of my head. I still love my job. And I love EAN codes that work.

I was supposed to start work on Monday, but being such a nice person that I am, I agreed to start tomorrow already. .. Which means that after I travel nearly four hours by bus to get from Turku to Lahti and an hour it takes for me to get from Lahti to Sysmä.. I'm dead tired when I start work at 7pm. Thank God I only have two hours! .. But on Saturday I apparently agreed to do a full day. .. Yeah, I have no idea what I agreed to do when my boss called me. I was like "yes, yes." all the time. (I kept thinking about the money I will get from those extra hours, I need every cent [our paychecks have those 1c and 2c nightmares. ]) I don't really mind the work, I just hope that I remember something from last summer!

At least the supermarket will be closed on Mother's Day so I can stay home that day. However, there will be no rest for me 'cos I promised my mom as a poor student that her gift from me includes one free slave for the day. We're going to our summer cottage to tidy the place up and nobody is allowed to say anything against it. That's what my mom wanted, such a believer on practical presents! Too bad I'll be helping my dad, he's making a new pier after our old one got stolen. .. Yes, stolen. So no more floating piers for us! .. The new one looks so good, and it's much bigger!

I've no idea what I just did to that paragraph but I did not intend to do it.

Guess what? I'm free from reading school stuff and what did I do? .. I stopped reading world's greatest book (BoB by Stephen E. Ambrose) so I could read ethnology! I'm trying to get it as my new major even though I've been certain all year that university is not my place. Well.. That's me, never giving up. .. More like afraid to let go.

Anyway.. I've always been curious about ethnology, so why not give it a try? The books I need to read seem interesting enough.

So my two week summer holiday is over. What a holiday! .. Boring. I did get a lot of things done, but just as many things are stuck. And for some stupid reason, every morning I woke up at 8am! I could've slept all the way to 11:25am (Happy Days. Every day, but not on Monday, Saturday or Sunday. .. That's what the ad said. Why not say "From Tuesday to Friday"? I hate it when these kinds of things start to annoy me.)

You know what? Hyvä ruoka, parempi mieli [good food, better mood]. I'm hungry, I'm cranky. I need to eat!

I feel so goddamn happy, I feel like I'm dancing!

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And I've been dancing. (if jumping around counts as dancing.. I had music so maybe it does)

Today I had my last exam and it was easy. .. Which means I'm getting an F. Every damn time I've thought "Hey! I know this!" I end up answering something incredibly stupid.

Anyway.. Even if I have to do the exam again, my summer holiday started today. And my boss called to inform me that I've work starting on May 14th! I love that place and I can't wait for my job to start! No.. I haven't gone insane. It's just that the money is welcome and I get to spend the entire summer in Sysmä. Even though I work 5-7 hours a day, spending the remaining hours at home feels more like a holiday to me than being here unemployed.

I still hope that if I get a few days off, I'm welcome to visit Turku.. *hoping everything goes according to plan*

So other than that nothing exciting going on in my life. .. I got myspaced yesterday. .. I'm so easily fooled into doing something like that! .. Tomorrow my friend comes here for five days. We're so getting drunk on Monday. That is the day when all students have the right to go crazy and I intend to be one of them.

Now I'm gonna go think what on earth am I gonna do with a myspace when only one of my friends knows what that is.

Hugs!

You know what? I'm feeling really sad at the moment. I've no reason to be sad, my life is as great as it can be. I've got my last lecture today and my last exam on Thursday. Then I'm off! Apart from one trip to Hämeenlinna in May to see.. something. I actually don't know why we're going. But it's an archeology thing and I promised I'd go especially as I'm going to miss tomorrow's trip to Vanhalinna because I've got other things to do.

So no more school after today. Yay. In a week it's May Day which here means a lot of celebrating and drinking. Yay.

Maybe it's the weather.. It's once again, after one beautiful (but cold) day, rainy and gray. If I could I'd just stay inside and continue my dreams. Which I didn't have any last night. Well, my dreams haven't been exactly great lately so I didn't miss them.. But since there was no feeling from my dream when I woke up (you know what I mean?), I have to fight with the feeling I had last night before I went to bed.

I promised myself I'd go to bed early. .. But I watched the last BoB episode so late that it was almost midnight when I finished. And that episode makes me cry! So I cried and cried and cried. The ending, telling what happened to the men.. I don't see the actors anymore, I see the real people. Those who fought the war. I feel sad to think that we don't respect our veterans enough. Here in Finland the respect is so superficial! We say we owe them and we're in gratitude, and that's it. No real help for those who need it. But how many of us have actually even said thankyou to someone who fought for us? I never said it to my grandfather, even though I highly respect/ed him for being a veteran. I regret that I didn't, but during the last months we had together, there were so many other things to take care of. The most important thing was to show that no matter what had happened, we loved him. My aunt and I were the last family members to visit him the day before he died suddenly. It's been a year and a half and it still brings tears to my eyes. I think that somehow I'm still processing my grief when I watch BoB. I've read many books on WWII and seen many documents.. But nothing comes as close as BoB. You know why? Because during a document or a book based on facts you hardly ever grieve. Why should you, you read a line that says "Winter War - Finland: 26,662 dead" and you can't believe it. It's a lot of soldiers for a country this small, but are you really sad? No. At least I'm not. (when I see how many men Soviet Union lost.. I'm more proud than sad [according to wiki they lost 126,875 soldiers.. against us!]).

Band of Brothers is a tv show, a helluva good one! And it does what it should. It makes you care. It's easier to care for someone when you know their story than to just see a name somewhere. Like accidents become so much closer if someone dies you already know. A part of your life is suddenly gone, it could be a small part, but still. Something that was there a while ago is no more. So BoB brought these Easy Company men into my life and it makes me really sad to know they've almost all made their final jump. Okay, I get tears in my eyes during anything remotely emotional (last time it was ER.. as Abby graduated) but last night I really cried. And after that I spent two hours reading stories, interviews and the last chapter of my Band of Brothers-book by Stephen E. Ambrose to know what happened to the men who survived. (The show is based on this book so I can't wait to read it. I haven't read it yet 'cos I only got it on Saturday.)

So I guess that's why I'm sad. Or then it's the fact that rainy days and Mondays always get me down. Anyway, I have to get ready to go to that last lecture.. How funny that doesn't make me sad at all.

*Hugs!* I love you all!

I'm hungry and bored. So I answered some more questions. Okay, this has nothing to do with the fact that I'm hungry, only I needed something to do while my food is in the oven.

1. Where were you 1 hour ago?
Here. No reason to be somewhere else.
2. Who will be your next kiss?
No idea!
3. Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?
My Hoops plush toy. A gift from a friend. She loves Hoops&Yoyo just as much as I do.
4. When is the last time you went to the mall?
We don't really have those.. Not in the same sense at least. .. But if Trio in Lahti counts, then almost a week ago.
5. Are you wearing socks right now?
No.
6. When was the last time you went out of the state/province?
I just spent two weeks in Etelä-Suomen Lääni, now I'm in Länsi-Suomen Lääni.
7. Have you been to the movies in the last 5 days?
No.
8. What was the last thing you had to drink?
Water.
9. What are you wearing right now?
Brown shirt and jeans.
10. What was your last purchase?
Food!
11. Last food you ate?
Candy.
12. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
My mom.
13. Have you bought any clothing items in the last week?
One shirt, that's all.
14. Do you have a pet?
Two cats, a dog and five wild boars (they're officially my pets )
15. What's the last sporting event you watched?
Formula one on Sunday.
16. What is your favorite c.lass?
.. I only have archeology now, but I'm still gonna say French.
17. If you could be anywhere right now, where would you be?
in Sysmä. .. I know, I'm boring. I just wanna go home!
18. What is the last thing you purchased online?
Two books yesterday.. Stephen E. Ambrose: Band of Brothers and David Kenyon Webster: Parachute Infantry. I just had to.
20. What's your favorite pizza?
I don't know.. But for sure I can say that it's not microwave pizza!
21. Do you miss anyone?
My parents and my pets. .. and Emmi.
22. Last "play" you saw?
Piukat Paikat (Some Like It Hot) at Lahden Kaupunginteatteri.. I loved it! I love theater. My mom and I have a deal.. Every year we go to the theater at least once.
23. What are your plans for the day?
No plans anymore. I'm gonna eat, watch ER and go to bed when I feel tired.
24. Who is the last person you messaged on myspace?
I don't have myspace.
25. Ever go to camp?
Lots of times when I was little. Good and baaaaaad memories.
26. Were you an honor roll student in school?
No..
27.What do you know about the future?
Work and studying, that's all my crystal ball will reveal.
28. Are you wearing perfume/cologne?
Yes.
30. Where is your best friend located?
In Lahti. And my best never-seen-internet-friend at Lohja. So close..
31. Do you have a tan?
Yep.
32. How old do you want to be when you have kids?
Over 30.
33. What's on your mind?
My lovely friend, the juggling bear.
34. Do you have any tattoos or peircings?
Tattoos, not yet. Peircings, only for earrings.
35. Have you ever drank your POP from a straw?
Duh, of course.
36. How do you like your POP?
Bubbly.
37. Do you like hot sauce?
Not really.
38. Last time you took a shower?
Last night.
39. Who do you like?
Everyone! *hugs!*
40. Where do you work?
Nowhere now, but starting next month in a supermarket in Sysmä. (yay! I gots me a job!)
41. Are you someone's best friend?
Hopefully! That would make me so happy.
42. What's the last TV show you watched?
ER. I'm on a mission.

Now it's time to eat! Yay!

I'm waiting for the start of the Sopranos chat.. So I might as well do this.

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1. What time is it? 0:31 am
2. Name: Johanna
3. What are you most afraid of? Losing my loved ones.
4. What do you drive? In a month I'll be driving my little red Peugeot 104 '80 again. I love that car!
5. Have you ever seen a ghost? In a way, yes. Not seen, but.. you know.
6. Where were you born? In Päijät-Hämeen keskussairaala. .. In Lahti.
7. Ever been to Alaska? No, but I've been to Lapland. Does that count?
8. Have you ever been toilet papering rolling in decorating trees? No.. We don't do that here. We're "civilized". yeah.. not really.
9. Croutons or Bacon bits? I could take both.
10. Favorite day of the week: Everyday! (Wednesday, Friday and Saturday mostly)
11. Favorite restaurant: Rosso.
12. Favorite Flower: Gerbera . Such a happy flower..
13. Favorite sport to watch: Football. (that's soccer to you Americans..)
14. Favorite Drink: Thanks to sgtpromiscuos, I'll say vat69.
15. Favorite Ice cream: Pingviini Chocolate
16. Disney or Warner Brothers: I like both. So I won't choose.
17. Favorite fast food restaurant: Hesburger!
18. What color is your bedroom carpet? White. At least it should be.
19. How many times you failed your driver's test? None! Hey, I'm a great driver! yeah.. not really.
20. Before this one, from whom did you get your last e-mail from? I've only gotten newsletters lately.
21. Last person you spoke to on the phone? My aunt Aino.
22. Bedtime: Too late.
23. Who will copy this the quickest? No idea.
24. Who is the person least likely to copy? From me? That would be me and all the others who have already done this at some point.
25. Who is the person(s) that you are most curious to see their responses? Everyone! I love useless facts.
26. Favorite TV show: House!! Monty Python's Flying Circus, Band of Brothers, The Office, The Sopranos, Pasila,..
27. Ford or Chevy? Chevrolet.
28. What are you listening to right now? Tahiti 80 - Big Day
29. What are your favorite colors? Well one of them is light purple.
30. How many tattoos do you have? None.. But I'm hoping to get one this fall.. A small one.
31. Do you have any pets? Two cats and a dachshund. .. And five "wild" boars .
32. There is no 32 what happened to it? .. What?! That's a question! Or is this like Bruces say in Python? "Question 32 - there is NO question 32!"
33. Favorite snake/comfort food? Marabou's Dajm chocolate.. If Im really sad, I'll eat loads of almost anything.
34. Last vacation destination: Proper vacation.. Ireland. I'm always on vacation here in Sysmä.
35. Oprah or Ellen? Neither. I could watch Oprah, but I won't. She annoys me.

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Loved the chat. I mostly followed as I haven't seen the new episode yet.

.. It's already 3:25 am. I'm off to bed.. Need to see some nice dreams right now!