sorry i'm never on! & i probably won't be on a ton until i get a hang of my new schedule with highschool & everything. (:

by the way, highschool here starts in 10th grade. cus most places start ninth.
but i suppose i should say how much i love it already!
i feel veryy outgoing, well compared to the previous years ha. i already got this guy that is interested. veryy cute. & he's actually pretty popular. i know that doesn't matter, but it's just crazy that i caught his attention. but yeah!
about him.. uhm, very tan & tall. i think he may be italian? i'm not sure. but he likes cobra starship!
talk about fvcking amazing. and he plays guitar (:

i don't have any cla/sses with him :/, but he's in my group for this get to know sophmore's thing. ha.
i'll keep everyone updated if they're interested haha.

but i gotta go.

how is everyone?! leave me a long comment & i'll get back to everyone next time i'm on!

lovee.
xx.

so my favorite show, well one of them, is design star.

season finale. yeahh. can everyone PLEASE help me help jennifer win.
she comes from the same place as me, & it's just an inspiration. it helps me know
that there is hope so i'm not stuck here forever. haha. totally kidding.

but yeah! PLEASE vote for jennifer!

go to;;
www.hgtv.com/designstar
vote for JENNIFER. :]]

& try to vote once a day everyday,
or if you're at a friends house, vote their too!
THANK YOU!

thank you so much!
update tomorrow.
ohh, and if you did this amazing favor for me,
let me know.
i'll love you forever.

okay soo today pretty good! morgan spent the night & we watched harry potter & the goblet of fire. amazing movie. :]]
then we tried to go swimming, but it started getting cloudy & thundery. so we had to leave. gay
then my dad got us food. & we watched family guy.
after that sarah came over! partyy in the rain.

they left around 10. so my brother has friends over now. they're all drunk 20 yr olds. it's annoying.
i just wanna punch them and say stfu. haha. being drunk is kinda lame.

butttt anyways. MY PHONE DIDN'T COME TODAY.
i was sad. :[. i guess it's coming monday? ughh. i don't know how i'll wait.
it's kinda pathetic, i'm going through like withdrawl lmao.

anyways, uhhm. i should probably work on my summer read. i really don't want to right now. but i feel really bad not doing it. so i guess i should just try to get some sh!t done.

swimming tomorrow & tanning! unless the weather decides to be like it was today. which i think it's actually going to.. but i sure hope not.
registration is tuesday. i need a tan before my school id picture. ahah.

questionn;; who is your favorite band/singer?

soo. i went to at&t today to see what they can do about my phone.
& apparently when i was at warpedtour it got wet, but that isn't what caused it to break.
but, since it got a little wet, motorola won't send me a new phone because it's "my fault".
neverrrrrr buy a motorola phonee. THEY SUCK.

so i need a new phone. i want a blackberry. it's 150 though.. & school is about to start.
so that's most likely not going to happen.
i cleaned the house & made dinner for my dad. ahha. he's looking at other phones right now.
& he's thinking about a blackjack2? i'm not sure if those deals are any good.
i'm sure hoping so.
i guess this isn't that bad? cus i'll get a blackjack. & it's not so expensive, so i wouldn't feel bad.

but i wouldn't get it till this weekend. and i'm spending the night at my neighbors without a phone.

my dad just came downstairs. I'M GETTING A BLACKJACKKK! woooo. should i get RED or BLACK?

just comment & tell mee.
xx

EDIT-- i got a black onee. it'll be here saturday!

guess whos PHONE BROKE. yeah. mine. i am SO mad.
it does this sometimes, but usually i can fix it by now. it's been like all day though.
part of it is my fault though, cus it wouldn't work last night. so i through it against the bed.
& then it worked. & now it doesn't.
it's not the fact that i lost my phone, cus i already wrote down all the numbers in it.
cus i knew this was going to happen.
but it's that NO ONE in my fvcking family cares to help me.
my dad ignores my calls. my mom can't do sh!t & my brother's just like "fvck off".

i had videos from warped tour & jingle jam on there. i don't care about jingle jam.
but fvcking COBRA STARSHIP was on there. and gabe LOOKED AT ME in one of the videos.
i told my dad we need to go get it on a memory card or something, cus it's about to break.
& he said oh maybe this weekend. i said it's going to probably be broken by this weekend.
& look who's right.

it's a motorola krazr. like. it'll turn on, but the screen won't. so i lost the video.
& now no phone. cus my brother took my moms.
i just feel like crying.
& once again none of my friends are answering except lindsey.

i'm done.
whatever.
fvcking sh!t.

so i'm not sure if that means i do twenty facts? but i may as well. i got nothing better to do right now. haha! :]

20. i have a black guitarr.
19. i had an ortho appointment today, & i got light purple bands. haate em. :/
18. my fingernails are painted blackk, but i am NOTTT emo. not even closee.
17. my favorite clothes stores are hollister & american eagle.
16. i'm vegetarian haha.
15. my favorite bands are cobra starship & cartel!
14. i've been to 5 concerts--hilary duff twice (lmaoo), jingle jam 2007 (boys like girls, matt white, three days grace), cartel!, warped tour! (the academy is..., cobra starship, paramore, jacks mannequin, forever the sickest kids, relient k, mayday parade, anberlin, story of the year)
13. i have a bluee ipod nano, named charlie. he's life.
12. for christmas i want a blackberry & an apple notebook.
11. i'm getting my permit soon!
10. my birthday is march 1st, next yr i'll be 16. :]
09. i've met cartel & anberlin.
08. when i'm olderr i either want to be a real estate agent & home seller, orrr someone important in the music industry. bring it to the midwest. :]
07. when i graduate college from ku, me & my friend lindsey are moving to new york.
06. i try to be an over achiever on school work, but i procrastinate too much.
05. i should be working on my summer read. but, i'm almost done.
04. i own a pair of black converse with a plaid tongue, i've only worn them like 4 times. i don't like them that muchh..
03. i'm kind of spoiled haha.
02. i'm a tiny person in some respects. i'm 5'3, & my shoe size is 6/7. haha.
01. i come on here more than facebook because i know people won't judge me on here.

i could probably go on, but i'll save you time. i don't even think any of that stuff is worth knowing, or nothing that anyone doesn't know. but oh well! prepare to be taggedd! :]

ohhkay. so about the friend thing. i don't even know. it's bothering me. & i need to talk to them like ASAPPP, & i know you guys have read it.. i don't know why you haven't called me or answered my calls. what did i do this time.. did i make you guys mad somehow? just like let me know. i'm in the dark here. you two are like one of my bestfriends & we used to have fun hanging out. but now we never hang out. at least not all three of us. & when we do it kinda feels awkward & it isn't always as fun. just seriously guys, call me.. i'm not mad. i'm just kinda like. i don't know. confused? just let me know wth is going on.

but on other terms, my daddy made steak last night. he was like "i bought three steaks, so YOU can eat one." i was like "dad... i'm vegetarian." so he just repeated himself like three times. lmao. he's so gay but i love him. so i TRIED to take one bite. goshh, it taste so bad. & my dad is an amazing griller & he bought good steak. maybe i'm just not used to it. but that's good. cus now i don't want to eat it. thaankGod :]

so, i've been doing wiifit everyday. pretty awesome, i've lost like three pounds! yaay. making progress. but i've been eating a lot. it's weird, but fine by me.
& i need to start the guitar. my mom bought me this poster with guitar chords lmao. she's dumbb too, but i'll use it. :]

i might go to my friend lindseys house tomorrow. probably stay there for like a week or so. & then i think my friend sydney is coming back with me & staying for a while. (they're from out of town, but only like 30 mins away haha.) i could use a break from olathe. specially with school starting in like a month & what not.

but my summer reading. BLAAAH, i don't wanna do it! i'll read it! but i don't want the fvcking assignment. soo gaaaaay. but i'm halfway done. i'm on the third book. & my goal is to be done by the end of this week. i don't want to have to deal with this sh!t a week before school starts. i don't need it. i'm already stressed for school. i'm not even tan or skinny yet. so sh!t hah. oh welllll.

so i think i'm done ranting for a littleee.
enoughh about me, does anyone here play guitar?

i feel like a bad friend. i don't think my friends want to hang out with me anymore? i mean it was only two people. i have more friends? but i don't talk to any of them cus schools out. maybe i just piss people off haha. welll oh well. i'll make a ton of new friends at my highschool. hopefully.

well anyways i'm on my brothers laptop. he's in texas with his girlfriend, so he doesn't know. but he's definitely looked up porn sites on here. so i'm like eew lmao. need to wash my hands when i'm done with all this sh!t.

snl is so funny. not gunna liee. :]

how is everyone?

totallyyyy kidding. nothing really happened today haha.

i went to church with my uncle. it was this really nice lutheran church. i actually liked it. i felt kind of odd cus i didn't know how to do everything. but oh well, he said i did well. lmao. my uncle was shocked i haven't been baptisted. i feel bad. like, it isn't my fault. my parents just decided not to do that?

on other news. i'm not soooo obsessed over cobra starship & gabe. i love him, & i listen to them practically ever day. but no more staying up until 6 am watching over like 400 videos about them on youtube.
& yess, i really did do that. two nights in a row. ahahah. but whatever, i'm pretty over it.

so i've decided i need a boyfriend. i tried talking to this guy i went out with in seventh grade, aha. he's like 2 or three years older? he'll be a senior this fall. i guess he wasn't very interested anymore, cus he didn't text back after a while? maybe he forgot. i don't know. whatever, boyss suck.

i've gotten a little further in my summer read, which i have like one more month to do & all the assignments. so i neeeed to get on that. like 400 more pages? but there's like fvcking a thousand words on each page. nott really, but close?

how is everyone?
what's the weather like where you are?

haha funny stuff. sorry guys, i'm going through the obssesive phase. love cobra starship.
if anyone cares the song is The City is at War.

i would say my favorite song right now by them is Prostitution Is the World's Oldest Profession (and I, Dear Madame, Am a Professional). long title, i know. amazing song. i don't know how to put the link in a word.. so here's the link -- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mit1bBanfas

listen to it if you want, & let me know what you think.

today was nice haha. my mom & i went grocery shopping. guess who is gunna try to be a vegetarian, & then eventually a vegannnn. hah, we'll just see how long this lasts. i feel like i'm doing it for all the wrong reasons. but i'm not. at first i wanted to do it cus gabe is a vegetarian, & then i did research about how the animals are treated & slaughtered. it just makes me feel so sick. so i guess my first reason is kinda a dumb one, but the second isn't. & sarah-- i'm SO sorry. i feel like a total hypocrit. i'm sorry for all the sh!t i said to you when you were vegetarian. it's really not stupid at all. i'm sorry! :/

sorry about that rant. but, after the grocery thing morgan & i went to our friend natalie's house. funnstuff. now i'm just home. watching family guy. ahah. awesomee!

soo. i need your opinions about the whole veggiee thing. cus i feel kinda bad :/ i don't know. blaaah. i'm too complicated. :/

lovexx.

EDITTT!--
i was watching cobra videos on youtube. i knowww. i'm kinda being a creeper. oh well ahah.
but i just wanted to share this with everyone, cus i probably watched it like 10 times & laughed everytime. i love itt! hah, ryland. that's marvolous.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z5IoztGozcA

ONE more edit--
i just watched this because a girl had it on her profile. it's really not scary, i'm just a nerd & need to forward it & what not cus i get scared. but you don't gotta watch this one. but watch the other ones i've posted. SORRY! haha :]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OwOqoQn-1iM

smile for the paparazzi--cobra starship. only the best band EVERR.

WARPED TOUR WAS AMAZINGGGG.

except for when it totally fvcking rained at the end right before Angels & Airwaves.

BUTTT; I SAW COBRA STARSHIP!
didn't meet them ://
but i will when they come back in the fall with Forever The Sickest Kids.

i am in love with Gabe Saporta. veryyyyy much in love. :]
i wish i could marry him, but he already has a gf & they're engaged.
depressing right? blahhh. but whatever i can live :]

soo for you people that do not know gabe.
which, i have to say is pretty uhh, fvcked? haha.
justplayying. sorta.
here are some pictures:]

he's beautiful.

from the city is at war.
go watch it on youtube!
just anything by cs & you'll understand fersuree.
just go and type in cobra starship. :]

lovee.xx

It's Wednesday!

That's it! Busy week!

Mondayy-- Lindsey's coming over, then swimming & going shopping for WT hopefully!
Tuesday-- Getting tanned upp, swimming probably, & getting ready for Wednesday!
Wednesday!-- WARPED TOURRR! I'M SO EXCITEDDD. (:
Thursday-- Probably sleeping, chillingg. Lindsey may go home? Not sure.
Friday-- Fourth of July! Going to my aunts house for a big partyy thing. Lindsey may come, if she doesn't then Morgan might? If she's back from her cruise. She's supposed to come with me! So I hope.

Yuup! PARTTY! Gotta love summer. (:

Heyy to all the new friends, leave a comment & introduce yourselff! (:

Soo excitedd! gjflgjflkgjflkgjg!

xx

They never get along, they have nothing good to say about each other, they're both too fvcking stubborn. My mom doesn't think she should make dinner & clean the house like every other wife, my dad thinks different. I think she should do all that stuff, that's what I'm going to do when I get married. But she's soooo overreactive. & he doesn't understand that. I just don't know. I don't think it's working, but I hope it's just a stage..

Anyways, went on a bikeride with Sarah, it was amazing cus it's so pretty outside. Haha Kansas is actually kinda prettyyy. But other than that it sucked cus we're out of shape lmao.

Here's a surveyy.! I took it from Sluggmunki.
It's longgg. haha. Sorry!

Name: Catherinee.
D.O.B: March 1, 1993.
Birthplace: Shawnee, Kansas.
Current location: Kansas. But not Shawnee.
Height: 5'2". I'm shorrtt.
Eye color: Brown.
Hair color: Brown, but getting lighter cus of summerr.
Right or left hand: Right.
Zodiac sign: Picese.
Fear: Dying.
Weakness: Lots of things I guess.
Best physical feature: Don't have one.
Overused phrase on IM: Probably lol.
Bedtime: Don't have onee.
Most missed memory: Uhhm, not sure, I've got a lot.
Favorite color: White.
Favorite food: Ceasar Salad (:
Favorite sports: Basketball.
Favorite animal: Kitten! (:
Have you ever been in love? Noope, not yet.
Have you ever been heartbroken? Naah.
Have you ever been cheated on? Nope.
Have you cheated? On school work, yeahh.
Last person you talked to? My brother for once.
Last person you hugged? Sarah before she left haha
Last person you kissed? This guy named Zack. blaah. :/
Last person you smiled to? My dad when he was being nice.
Last time you cried? I don't know, don't remember?
Last time you smiled? Today.
Hot dog or Hamburger? Hamburgerr.
Blowpops or Tootsie pops? Tootsie pop.
Ranch or French Dressing? Ranch.
Appetizer or Dessert? Appetizer. Maybe?
Would you rather golf or play tennis? Neither.
Go to the movies or on a picnic? Doesn't matter.
Coffee or Tea? Tea!
Do you have an inny or an outty belly button? Inny.
Wax or Shave? Shave.
Windows open or AC? Depends?
Rather be the driver or passenger? Driverr. But, I can't drive yet hah.
Ever driven 12 hours or more in a car? Yess.
Fly or drive? Drivee.
Do you beleive in Unicorns? No.
Do you believe in Heaven & Hell? Yeahh.
Think we've ever really been to the moon? Noo sir. We didn't. It's obviouss.
What was your worst subject in school? English
What is your least favorite bill to pay? I don't pay any!
Would you donate blood? Yess.
Would you donate a kidney? Ehh.
Swimming pool or hot tub? Swimming!
Camping or stay in a hotel? Either is finee.
Ever been on a canoe trip? Noope.
Ever been bungee jumping? Noo.
Jeans or sweats? Depends on my mood.
What is your favorite holiday? Christmas or 4th of July!
Do you have any tattoos? No.
Do you have any piercings? Yeah. My ears & the cartilige? Idk how to spell it.
Have you ever done anything illegal? I don't think soo..
Have you ever dated anyone ugly? Yeah haha.
What is your favorite season? Summer or Winter.
What do you look for in a partner? Not sure really.
What is a sexy feature on a guy/girl? Happiness. No complaining. Smile & so on.
What 's the one country you visited outside of US? No where. ://
Where are the 3 places you would like to visit? Germanyy.
What's your favorite cartoon? Family Guy!
Do you find yourself funny? Not so much.
Have you ever peed on a dirt road? No!
Have you ever kissed a pet in the mouth? No. haha.
Have you ever lied to a bf/gf/lover? Yeah. Ha. About something dumb.
Have you ever played outside in the rain? Yeahh.
Have you ever done somthing you regret? Ohh yeah.
Have you ever been close to death? I've almost drown before.
Bush or Clinton for president? Clinton. I am SICKKK of Bush! Dumbasss.
Have you ever flashed someone? No lol.
If Dora and Minnie Mouse had a fight who would win? I don't care. I hate Dora so hopefully Minnie.
Do you think your attractive? Not reallyy.
Have you ever peed in a pool/lake? No!
Do you have siblings? One brother, Danny.
Do you have a best friend? I have three. (:
Can you keep a secret? For the most partt. Yeah.
Have you ever broken a bone? Yeah, my finger.
Have you ever cut your own hair? When I was five.
Have you ever had a stalker? Probably. Creeepers.
What is your ringtone? Remebering Sunday by All Time Low.(:
Have you ever kissed a picture? Hahhaa no.
Do you like to play dress up? Nahh.
Have you ever thought about what people would say at your funeral? I try not to.
M&ms or skittles? M&M's.
Do you have braces? Yuup.
Do you still watch kiddie tv shows? Yeah ha. Spongebob. (:
Vampires or werewolves? Neither. That's silly.
Are you easily amused? Yeahh. Haha.
Have you ever sung karaoke? Nope.
Did you answer this survey truthfully? Yeahhh.

xx

Amazing song. I think I might see Boys Like Girls at Warped Tour? Possibly. (:
I should be getting ready for my aunts; my mom is having her retirement brunch there. My aunt is sweet! But, I'm definitely tiiiired. Went to bed at 4 & woke up at 9. (central time) Ohh well.

Quiz! & then I gotta go. Leave comments!

1. What is your first name?Catherine!
2. What is your favorite food? Don't really have one. Weird, I know.
3. What school did you go to? One that doesn't even matter cus it's highschool next year!
4. What is your favorite colour? Uhhm, probably white. I know it's "not a color", but it's so pure. (:
5. Who is your celebrity crush? Will Pugh from Cartel! Or Zack Merrick from All Time Low. cuute (:
6. Who is our favorite disney princess? Cinderella! Maybe. I don't know. I didn't really watch them.
7. What is your favorite drink? Fuze! Or Figi water. fersuree.
8. What is your dream vacation? Germany. But my family is going there next summer to visit my brother! (:
9. What is your favorite store? Hollisterrr.
10. What do you want to be when you grow up? History teacher, own a record company, or be a real estate agent.
11. What do you love most in life? Everything. Music. Family & friends.
12. One word that describes you? fvckingawesomee! ha justkidding, I don't know.
13. What are your dreams about? Last night it ws that I couldn't type on a computer? Haha.
14. I accidently deleted this one & definitely don't have time to find it.

xx

I love that song :] It's Q by Cartel. Best band ever, don't disagree. haha.

I couldn't think of a title. Nothing has really happened. Just been hanging out with friends lately. Nothing like exciting.

I have to go out later & buy my summer read book. Stupid mom STILL hasn't gotten it. I'm gunna fail highschool before I even get there. blahhh. (my school district goes to highschool in 10th grade)

Ohh & braces suck. I got a new wire on mine to close up the gaps. Definitely can't eat for a while haha. But that means I'll get my braces off soon! Well the ortho people said before December lol. That's close enough for me. As long as I get them off.

Nothing much else has happened. I don't know what to about that one guy. So I'll just ignore the problem. That always seems to work? Nott. I don't have any other ideas though.

Hey to all the new people :] Leave comments & I'll always comment your blog too.

But uhhm. I guess I'm off to cleaning & reading. Partyyy.

xx

i finally went swimming today :] i'm FINALLY getting a tan ahah. took long enough!

things with boys are looking better. i guess. i hope this one guys messages me back on fb hah.
i know.. i'm cool.

soo i'm spending the night at my neighbors. idk how well this'll work cus she goes to bed at like 1 & i go to sleep at liek 5 haha. i'll be textingg some people haha. uhhm. sarah if you read this. WE'RE HANGING OUTT TOMORROW. be ready by 5! :] ily. haha.

not much else to sayy.

how's everyones summer going?

One of my closest friends is moving to Texas tomorrow. Honestly, I didn't think I'd cry. But, when she came to say bye.. it was like one of the most heartbreaking things. I never want to have to move. I'm gunna miss her.

I mean it feels like it was just a couple weeks ago we were in seventh grade just having the time of our lives. & Now we're sophmores and doing homework non-stop (I'm just guessing right now haha). Where did all the time go? I wish I would've spent more of my childhood like doing fun things. But from 6th grade on I just worried about the computer, texting, how I look, boys. I just need to get over it & live my life. Live it full of fun & life.

I just needed to get that out :]

Does anyone know what I'm talking about though?

xx

This isn't even like real how bored I am. I've done nothing when I'm home, sure I was at a friends house the other day, but that too was boringg! I actually started READING, but it's not even the book I need to be reading.

I need a job, majorlyyy. I need my own money, & I need something to do. Summer blowssss. I would go running for the rest of the summer but it's wayy too hot. Not nearly as hot as some of you other guys states lol, but it's hot. At least 90 something?

My neighbor has a pool.. I should start talking to her some more haha. But holy crap.

Ohh yeah, & I figured something out. This may sound good to some people, or reallly dumb to others. Idk, you be the judge of it. It is what it is :]
I want to start going to church. Yeah, my family doesn't go. But we believe in God, so no worries. But I feel like.. idk the word.. full of sins. I just need to bring God into my life. I'm Lutheran, & my dad is too. We're the only ones in our house. My brother is like buddahst? or whatever. Don't ask lol. & My mom is Baptist I think, but she doesn't believe in organized religion. So it's like wthh? No one will take me.

Any ideas on how I can make this happen?

xx

Wow. That's really all I can say. They've just kinda been hellish. My family is so.. not even close to being like a family. It sucks. Buuut I'm not gunna rant about it on here. I can't just promise everyone, my family will be waay better than the one I have now.

So I saw Don't Mess with the Zohan & Sex and the City. Both were GREEATT. Adam Sandler is just amazing :] & Sarah Jessica Parker is pretty much my hero. I'd have to say I liked Sex and the City better because I've seen like every episode. Aha, I'm such a nerd.

How is everyone?

xx