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Here, you know all about Beth... KC KC KC !~
~ Destiny by sinner sought. Tragedy by power wrought ~
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2Feb 09
Dreams come true.
Yeah. I still want to dream with belief.
KC has applied for a scholarship to study music creation (midi, game/soundtrack music) in Japan since 2007.
KC tried for the scholarship twice. Failed the first time, succeeded at the second. And so, KC is going to Japan in April to make her dream come true.
This is exactly the reason why KC quitted GS and resigned from the unions (my dear beloved FFFU).
On this quest to fulfil a dream, KC has also spent less time on games, and KC is trying very hard to get back into games. However, before all else, KC will study in Japan with all concentration and effort.
KC wants to be successful. KC believes she will succeed.
- Posted Feb 2, 2009 10:12 pm PT
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8Oct 08
And here comes the time for me to leave GS...
I would say it's for absolutely personal reasons that i do not wish to disclose here.
The most painful decision i had to make was regarding the Final Fantasy Fans Union. I still remember the day i asked for charter officers to start the union, the day it was formed, the people that made it happen, and the union it is today.
FFFU aside, the worse part is having to say goodbye to all the friends here. Sure, now, we can all keep in contact with Facebook, MSN, Yahoo or other means, but the part that i'll be missing is the posting in forums with everyone.
Apparently, i've been irresponsible with all the unions i'm involved with. The Square Enix Experience, The Breathing Effigy and of course the FFFU. I sincerely apologize for my abrupt resignation from my leadership duties and would like to express my sincerest thanks to all the officers involved in these unions for your great understanding.
Dear friends... This is probably goodbye from KC here. I won't be active on the forums, except i'll still be here to check games out, and post some blogs with regards to my gaming life.
I've managed to keep in contact with a lot of friends here via other means.As such, if you wish to keep in contact with me, and still like to talk with me, and visit my personal blogs (Blogger, mixi) , please just send me a PM. I'll appreciate it, thanks alot. I regularly (if not daily
) use Google Talk, Skype, Facebook, mixi, and MSN. Keep in touch folks!
- Posted Oct 8, 2008 4:27 am PT
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18Sep 08
Ok, it's nothing as big as E3 or TGS, and probably because of its small scale, i managed to try out games i wanted to without having to queue up a long time.
I didn't actually have the intention to go to that exhibition, but it was held at the same building as the HospiMedica, so i just dropped by after visiting the medical convention.
I tried out one mini game in Rayman Raving Rabbids TV Party , and it was really really 'FUNny' (funny and fun) . My arse could have been too large, it was hard to balance my ski in that game. I hope i can get a Raving Rabbid soft toy... it's so awesomely adorable!! Now, i just wanna get a Wii. But i know my priority still lies with Advent Children Complete and the PS3.
Tried to play Devil May Cry 4 on the 360, but i got stuck somewhere in a chapel like thing, maybe because there was this photographer that wouldn't stop taking pictures of me playing DMC4, i felt so uneasy.
Some games i already own and played, but i just wanted to play them at the convention. Games like Trauma Center 2 and Guitar Hero III. I failed abyssmally at GH3, at Hard Mode. Ok, it's not because i'm THAT lousy, i had no problem at home. But it's simply because the demo stage for Rock Band was just behind me while i was trying to strain my ears to listen to GH3's audio. And also partly i'm totally distracted at how amazing Rock Band is...
Either ways, i didn't manage to get too many freebies (the exhibitors are totally stingy!!), just some trash posters and post-it. I wanted that giant Panda Hammer, but i couldn't be bothered to find out the answer to the stage quiz. So, i went home with a few more enriching gaming experiences and a few photos with some mascots and Wall-E.
A note from my previous blog
To friends who are still tracking this profile of mine as my blog:I've created a new blog on Blogger. If i hadn't informed you via email or PM, please drop me a note, i'll give you a link.
I'll be updating all 3 blogs regularly, so...you can either add a link to my new blog or just leave it as it is. But if you wanna know EVERYTHING about me... I'll give you access to my new blogs lol.
- Posted Sep 18, 2008 7:20 pm PT
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17Sep 08
HANa Yori DANgo : Final
Hanadan = Hana Yori Dango... I swear i was banging my head when Mai enlightened the fact that it was actually the abbreviation for "Hana Yori Dango". But SERIOUSLY! Japanese people abbreviate words faaaaaaaar tooooo much! *snarls at Mai* Ok, if they do it to English words... but they're doing it to their own language even! Can't believe it...
Actually, whatever i'm gonna say next has got nothing to do with the movie...
Anyway, apparently, TV.com got a new face too, if you GS hoggers hadn't noticed... I just wanted to write a new post after seeing TV.com's new face. CNET is working hard to update its pages, i should work hard in updating my blog too!
hahaha~In any case, if this blog post doesn't display properly, blame it on TV.com. There's no text editor, i'm purely using HTML. But it's not that difficult to write a blog in HTML, is it? (OK!! TV.com certainly doesn't want to publish this blog... i'm now doing it via MP3.com .. seems like the old faces are more stable than the new faces... And with the nice same-old-conventional text editor too. )
Hanadan: Final was a nice movie overall, especially for fans of Hanadan like me!
(pssst...Hanazawa Rui!! Kakkoii!) Caught the movie with one of my colleagues and my ever-so-incorrigible cousins who couldn't stop teasing my height.... To friends who are still tracking this profile of mine as my blog:
I've created a new blog on Blogger. If i hadn't informed you via email or PM, please drop me a note, i'll give you a link. I'll be updating all 3 blogs regularly, so...you can either add a link to my new blog or just leave it as it is. But if you wanna know EVERYTHING about me... I'll give you access to my new blogs lol.
Peace...
- Posted Sep 17, 2008 5:14 pm PT
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3Sep 08
One life, one family, one future, one chance.
Jan 2007 : Started preparation for MEXT scholarship application
May 2007 : Applied for MEXT scholarship
July 2007 : Took and passed MEXT scholarship exams
Mid-July 2007 : Application rejected due to documentation faults
Aug 2007: MEXT opens up policies regarding foreign students
April 2008 : Graduates from SP with Diploma in Bioelectronics
June 2008 : Applied for MEXT scholarships
7 - 11 Aug 2008 : Took and passed MEXT Scholarships exams and college entrance exams
14 Aug 2008 : Interview by embassy officials
19 Aug 2008 : Official recommendation made to MEXT for secondary screening process in Tokyo
At present: Still waiting for approval/rejection notice from MEXT. *Keeping fingers crossed, but expecting the worst*
Just a little timeline... insert overwhelming emotions, insert unnecessary worries, insert pacing back-and-forth, insert family rejection, insert family support, insert friends' kindness, insert unrelenting studying time, insert everything else not stated in the timeline... you get my depressed little past 30 days.
I'm no longer too stunned or depressed to do anything... i'm looking forward no matter what happens. YAY! I'm just looking forward to Mooncake festival now, too.
- Posted Sep 3, 2008 5:30 am PT
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20Aug 08
Ho ho ho~
I was crumbling alone, i didn't want to let anyone know about how i was feeling. I managed to open up to Quistis (Symon), but i still couldn't tell her my full story. I couldn't open up to anyone at all. I tried to look alright, at home, at work, everywhere.
NOT that i dont' have any friends or anything, i'm not anti-social lol. Just that, i realize i couldn't talk to anyone about it. After near to a month of pacing back and forth, i finally had an answer to all my own questions.
I made a decision, and that decision will remain made.
I thought i was confused enough when i wasn't able to keep myself organized for the past month. But now, i am actually more confused than ever, even after making a decision.
And it just strike myself, i am still unable to tell anyone about things, yet... *sighs*
The unions i'm currently involved in, i'm absolutely very very sorry for being a selfish prick and didn't participate as actively. But I will work on the double now, for all the unions i'm an officer in.
I'll be honest, the unions i'm currently involved in are not 100% strong yet, and things just keep happening. Officers leaving, lack of activity, etc. All these seem to be common problems for all unions. But when i lump all the troubles together, it's going to be quite a headache. I am not sure if i can pull it off. But i'm hoping all the officers i know will all stand together, and we'll overcome anything.
A big sorry to all my friends. And a big thank you to my friends for bearing my self-centered actions.
*kisses*I'm back.
- Posted Aug 20, 2008 5:38 pm PT
- Category: Opinion
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8Aug 08
Just how i feel...
Ironic how i can relate my real life to a game... Anyway, this is how i'm feeling now.
I know i've actually abandoned my post and neglected some unions and other internet activities.
(I actually haven't switched on my computer for the past 5 days)But it's because of personal matters i don't wish to talk about. I'm sorry i had been gone, and i will still be, until i straighten out my life (or my thinking) again.
I'm still trying to fix things at my end, and am trying to keep focused ahead. Fix? Hmm.. i dont' think it can be fixed. I think i just have to change my thinking...
I just hope I can get over it soon. I want to go back to my old self too, on that point. I don't like how i'm behaving now either. I want to get back to post on GS again and i want to... just... return.
Not that i'm busy with something else, in fact, i don't even know what i'm doing. I spent the whole of my yesterday crouching in my bed thinking of what i'm supposed to do. I could have spent those time gaming or something, ya? hmm... What on EARTH am i doing? uuuuhhh...
haha~ I just laughed
lol... It could be a good sign.- Posted Aug 8, 2008 1:18 am PT
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28Jul 08
My principle is "Stay away from them.."
It's the time of the year again, it's the 7th Lunar Month, it's the Hungry Ghost Festival starting this Friday (1st August).
A few things make this year's festival a little different.
Recently, i've stupidly engaged myself in a horror game by Square Enix (Nanashi no Geemu, "774" in short). 774 is not THAT scary... but I am a scaredy cat. So... yeah, dumb as i am, i've even stopped playing it for now, after i got caught by this stupid ghost in a book store (in the game).
Also, my parents are apparently obsessed with this Hong Kong variety show which interviews all sorts of people with horror experiences. And they're always watching that show in my presence, i WANT to ignore the show, BUT the TV volume is just so friggin loud!! *ugh*
Most of all, i now work in a hospital! Fun eh?! No. I think my hospital's going to hold some praying ceremony/session some time soon. To pray for the spirits' blessings? Or to protect ourselves from these spirits... hahaha~ Either way, the hospital is considered a "dirty" place for us superstitious beings. I think i have to watch what i do too. There are A LOT of do's and don'ts. I just have to be more "careful" than ever, i guess. The most common caution i got is to avoid coming in "close proximity" with the newly dead. But it's not like it's something i can avoid so easily. It's like a ... daily thing... for me that i get to see the newly-dead being transported to the mortuary.
Well... i should really take Symon's advice of tying my talisman around my neck. Just in case.
Ugh... just seems like i'm more afraid than previous years LOL
hahaha~HA! I AM SUPERSTITIOUS?! HELL YES i am!
- Posted Jul 28, 2008 9:46 pm PT
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16Jul 08
For me... that is...
WHY DON'T I EVER GET THINGS THE WAY I WANT!?!?!!!
Ok, i've considered getting a PS3 because of FFXIII and MGS, but Infinite Undiscovery and other games were the stumbling blocks that made me decide i must get both the ps3 and the xbox 360.
And then WHAM! Msoft says FFXIII will also go on the 360!! YAY! For a moment, i swayed to buy a 360 immediately, what with the price drop and everything... but then, i checked my RSS feed from Square Enix. It says "FFXIII Official Site Opens". And i happily went to check out that site, oh sure there was a nice trailer there too... I saw something there... in font size 8. Then i finished the trailer and large bold words say:
" 対応機種 日本 PLAYSTATION 3 "
For PlayStation 3 ONLY in JapanI say... Great... JUST great... Things remain the same for me... NOTHING ever changes! No way can i wait for a NA version of FFXIII. EVERYONE knows i always get the first release first hand, that's a definite answer for every single Final Fantasy game in my life. Unless SE decides on a worldwide release of FFXIII for the ps3 and the 360, which i highly doubt so, i would still have to get a ps3 for this fantastic game.
So much for a PS3 port for the 360... that's something unheard of yet... but SE is making it happen, eh?
- Posted Jul 16, 2008 4:42 am PT
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4Jul 08
ugh... But I still love my job.
Am so totally pissed towards the end of my work day today. Some end-user just decided not to do something simply because "it" (i say it, because i refuse to think of them as respectable human beings) is unable to trust another department/section of the corporation.
And for some reason, me being totally greenhorn on this job and the ignoranceof things that i am supposed to and not supposed to do, "it" decided to lodge a complaint directly to my boss!
Of course, i wasn't in the wrong, nor was "it", and my boss didn't scold me or anything, just kindly advised me like how a mentor should do to a new girl at a new job. In fact, nobody was in the wrong.
I'm just FREAKING PISSED OFF at how someone can't trust someone else working in the same corporation to let them do things the RIGHT way. "It" is just being paranoid! And then, with me trying to reassure that "it" CAN trust "its" own coporation's colleagues, "it" takes it as something like "I didn't respect their wishes by doing what they want".
But hey, i'm going to take it as a real adult and will still do what "it" wants, after all, it is part of my job to make "it" happy. I respect my boss as well, and will do what he says which literally translates to "some people are like that... but our job is just to keep 'em happy! Good luck!"
But then, i SWEAR i won't let "it" get the better of me if "it" decides to do anything that belittles my pride or dignity as a human or a TRUSTED employee of the corporation. For "it", i am still not obliged to take "it" as a respectable being of the human species.
(just want to scream now, but i don't want to take my bad mood from work back to my home and family. AHHHHH!!! So i screamed here. Sorry for the rant.
)- Posted Jul 4, 2008 4:15 am PT
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30Jun 08
I'm back to square one...
I seriously don't know where my two months worth of salary was spent on. As some might already know, i started working about 3 months ago, and when i checked my balance at the end of my 2nd month, i realized i might have not saved a single cent at all!! It was the exact same (a little higher, by a few ten bucks) figures i checked before i got my first pay slip!
Honestly, i've only spent on ONE game, and that was Guild Wars: Eye of the North.
But then, being such a glutton like myself, there is a very strong possibility i might have spent most of my money on good food.
Hmm... Oh great, no money saved, but i gained something: Weight.
- Posted Jun 30, 2008 4:39 am PT
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5Jun 08
Seriously...
This happened two days ago. My handphone rung at around 10:30pm. I picked it up.
"Hello?"
"Hello? Who are you?"
"Umm... you called me, i should be asking the question."
"No no.. i AM asking you. Who are YOU? I am abc's wife. You have been sending love messages to my husband's handphone all this time."
"uhh... WHAT?"
"Is this number xxxxxxxx? "
"yeah...... it is this number.... but i don't remember doing such a thing"
"Oh come on. Tell me, what is your name!"
"Uhh... i don't thnk i'm obliged to give you this information, it is confidential."
"You are a coward. You have been cheating my husband's money and now you don't dare to identify yourself."
"hmm...hello? I don't even know who your husband is."
"Did you change your handphone number recently or you've been holding on to it for the past 3 years?"
"No i didn't change my number ..."
"Oh! So you've been using this number for years, right? That means, the person that has been been in contact all these years with my husband is you!"
(come to think of it... !!!!!?!?!?! All these years? I just turned 20. Wow~ I have an affair with someone's husband since i was what, 17?? Wow~ Mature... very very mature )
" (???!!!) Umm, ma'am, please allow me to check with my service provider about who is misusing my hp number to do such a thing and i'll.... "
"NO! You tell me! What is your name and where do you work?"
"I told you, this is confidential information, i don't think i want to tell you."
"ok! I just want to know, what's your name."
"hmm..." (I hung up the call)
I went to call my service provider and requested for assistance, they told me to acquire a time and date when i "sent" those messages and to what number. Honestly I was more afraid someone was misusing my hp number for bad deeds, or this could be a scam. And so, i called that lady again.
"Hello?" (it's a man's voice, i suppose it's the husband)
"Hmm...so... YOU ARE abc."
"Who are you?"
"heh what? I'll try asking you that too."
(The lady "took" the phone from him and started yelling all over again)
"How can you not know my husband? And you (referring to her husband), isn't she the.... blah blah...)
"Ma'am i need to know a recent date where you've received such love-dovey messages from my number"
"Come again? And you at least tell me your Christian name!"
"I don't have one and i need to know a recent date when you've received those messages from my number"
"WHAT? All i ask is your name, one question and you're asking for so many pointless answers? You should know, of all people, YOU should KNOW!"
"No please, ma'am, listen.. i told you ... "
"No, YOU listen, you have been doing this for so long and now you're.... "
"I said, LISTEN!! I can lodge a police report if you keep on harassing me."
"I can do the same thing too! And all you know next is... "
"MA'AM! Can you pelase ****ing listen to my ****ing question. If you jolly well want the ****ing truth, you better give me your god damn husband's handphone number and the most recent dates and times your husband's hp received those ****ing messages!"
(silence)
"Ok. You know my husband's number, you sent it on 2nd May 2:43pm. I'm not going to tell you more, you have got to be......."
(I hung up straightaway)
I checked with my technical service provider again and verified that no such message was sent at the time and date. I requested for an official copy of detailed bill for evidential support.
I was all ready to scream at that lady when i called the third time.
"Hello? Ma'am..."
"I'm very very sorry."
"what?"
"In my frustration i misread the "5" as "8", and i called the wrong number."
"oh really? Do you know how much trouble you've given me? And for heaven's sake! If you want to direct your anger, do it on your hopeless husband. And go get a pair of better glasses."
(yes, i was fuming mad. Hell! I had to pay $5 per page for my detailed bill you know?!
)"I really really am very very sorry ma'am."
"yeah ok, i understand. Good night."
"Good..."
(I hung up)
LOVELY! isn't it?
- Posted Jun 5, 2008 2:16 am PT
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22May 08
This feeling is only possible towards "virtual" internet friends.
I read a blog today, about someone venting his anger on life itself. Certainly, if he was a friend I can physically meet and is geographically close in distance, I'd probably be able to do much more.
I really want to help this guy. But ALL i can fcku-ing do is TALK!
"I'll support you always!"
"I hope things get better soon!"
"You can always talk to me!"
"You should do this, you should do that" (and i can't do anything for you).
This is not the first time i've felt this way. TheOdinson told me about all his problems, I only WISHED I could help. Then one day, he disappeared, leaving me alone to wonder if his troubles finally prevailed. If his "disappearance" really had something to do with the problems he was having, I'm very sure that nothing good has happened to him, that's why his "disappearance" had such a deep impact on me.
So please, this guy... if YOU are reading this blog. I just hope that you don't do anything rash or reckless. Things that will make a "virtual" friend like me worry or even cry. At least, try doing something to make yourself feel better, and stop worrying about life itself.
And SHEESH! All i'm doing is TALK again!!
I'm USELESS HERE! DAMN IT!
(sorry, am still a little agitated... )
- Posted May 22, 2008 5:26 am PT
- Category: Rant
- 17 Comments
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17May 08
A little insight into my real self...
Chinese = Citizen of the People's Republic of China
aka 中华人民共和国人民Chinese = a member of the Chinese race
aka 华侨/华人I am not a citizen of the PRC, but I am, after all, a Chinese. In fact, my roots do not trace too far back in Asia's largest country. I still have relatives from one generation back in China, in the South Eastern province of GuangDong and Hong Kong.
Although I am not that close with my faraway cousins and relatives, and I do recognize myself as a Malaysian-born Singapore-bred citizen of the Republic of Singapore, but it is not debatable that I still consider myself a member of the Chinese race. In fact, this is a part of me that can never be hidden from anyone, anywhere.
Singapore is made up of a large Chinese population. The number of PRC permanent residents has also increased over the years, and I have plenty of friends from different parts of China itself.
A news headline reads:
"四川大地震牵动全球华人的心"
Layman translation would be:
" SiChuan Earthquake Moves the Hearts of Chinese all over the world. "This phrase is all, but so true.
As I watched the news features, it was almost impossible to stop tears from flowing.
What must have been noticed from the rescue effort in China is the amount of heart involved. The rescue effort, I believe, is not comparable to any rescue effort in human history. The immense amount of support from peoples all over the world, the strong feelings and drive to use every single second available to a rescue someone. Voluntary survivors, artistes, soldiers, social workers working long hours (up to 66 hours) non-stop in the first aftermath to bring back the lives of everyone affected by the quake.
Stories about how rescue soldiers held onto hands of living buried victims, unable to remove them from the debris, until the victims slowly go into an eternal sleep. Stories about will-strong soldiers' hope being crushed and collapsing out of fatigue and emotion. Stories about how a man refused to let his dead wife be buried with the other victims in the quake site, and carried her on a motorcycle all the way back to her hometown for a make-to-do funeral. Stories about how parents have lost their only child, due to China's one-child policy. Stories about how children became orphans overnight. Stories about how students studying in school were buried alive.
The last time I checked, there were 28,881 deaths, and the Chinese authorities have expected a death toll of around 50,000. There are lots more injured, lots more undiscovered. As figures stand for physical losses, this has affected all Chinese, everywhere, psychologically and will always cast a shadow on every heart. Every single Chinese I know, is affected, somehow.
It is indescribable, my feelings. Things are so far away and yet, so close.
Singapore, Japan, Korea, we trace our roots back to China, I believe. Rescue teams were sent; while all we could do is at least donate some supplies or money to aid the rescue effort. Any help, no matter how small, is appreciated.
We went to my grandmother's for her birthday celebration, but everyone was moved beyond words as we watch the news, altogether. At that moment, I knew. I wasn't the only one who felt this way. We are, all Chinese.
- Posted May 17, 2008 9:23 pm PT
- Category: People
- 12 Comments
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27Apr 08
An audio blog in the form of a video... I wonder what this is...
Well... that's my voice you're hearing
Darmi: I realized what the problem was... My computer was in Japanese set-up and uploading a video proved impossible because of that -_-
- Posted Apr 27, 2008 6:13 am PT
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13Apr 08
If my Engineer taps me on the back this very moment, i'm dead.
The thrill eh? The possiblity that i might get caught anytime by my boss. Hahaha~ Well, i suppose it isn't that bad if i really get caught. It IS tea break now, and where i don't want to have a snack, there should be nothing wrong with me using my free time to blog...uhh.. right?
I saw another fresh corpse today, early in the morning. It is kinda creepy while travelling in the tunnel alone, and because there's no way i can overtake the truck "pulling" the 'coffin', but... at the same time, it's kinda saddening. Where hospitals are there to save lives, death is inevitable.
(pause 10 minutes)
Ok, there goes 10 mintues of my 'tea break'. Some nurse from the CTSICU came in to borrow a Compat pump.
I've actually just began work last week, and so far, it's been quite fun and enriching. I'm able to put what i've studied for the past 3 years to good use. At least, i'm not stuck in some HR or admin desk where i have to do is deal with boredom.
Okies, getting back to work now~ Later!
- Posted Apr 13, 2008 7:42 pm PT
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6Apr 08
The aftermath.... ahh~
I'm sorry Gato. It really seemed like I still don't have the courage. I can't overcome this fear. *sighs*
I made a terrible mistake two years ago. Then, after some thinking, i made a silent promise.
"I will not dedicate myself to any other union, except the FFFU"
It might seem like i'm just trying to do my best and give all my time to the FFFU. But there are some other reasons for this "oath" i made.A dark past that I don't think i will ever get rid of. I was made use of, betrayed friends, trusted the wrong person, hurt people, and deceived myself. And then, that was the time when this phobia grew. In other words, my "oath" was just part of me running away from reality itself. I realize i am not fit to be an officer in any other union.
I am afraid of making the same mistake again. Maybe that's why.
Then, later, I was hit by another incident. Jonas passed away and that was probably when my co-dependency striked in. I was counting too much on myself and then co-leader FinalHorror. That was the time i almost felt like I'm totally dealing with the FFFU myself so much that I myself, didn't trust any officer to do anything else unless i'm the one doing it.
Ever since then, I've moved myself away from this thought, and so I've started this concept of making the FFFU an "officers' union". The union now boasts a large officer group with about 10 active officers. They are all responsible for various responsiblities in the union. Everyone is excelling in whatever they're doing.
Then, this thought kicked in. That also makes me just one ordinary officer in the FFFU as well. So, why can't I go and be an officer in another union? What is holding me back?
And so, i did some selfish things. I tried to work my way up as an officer in several other unions at the same time. Starting from the origin of my problem. Selfish things which i can only profusely apologize for and hope that i haven't caused too much trouble to the people involved.
smoothie and Darmi, i lied about there being nothing. I apologize for not being able to open up to the both of you. As for the leaders whom i've made some ridiculous and selfish proposals to be an officer for, I sincerely apologize for being so pathetic with my own selfishness in the guise of helping your unions.
Maybe i'm just not cut out to be any officer in any other union except the FFFU. But i'm just doing the same thing what officers do. Something ties me there. What i don't understand is why can't i feel the same way towards other unions.
- Posted Apr 6, 2008 9:52 pm PT
- Category: Relationships
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4Apr 08
...the Japanese way...
First off, my Japanese friend is having trouble understanding my English. And i'm also having trouble understanding her English. The same way she's having trouble understanding my Japanese, and I'm having trouble understanding her Japanese.
She claims that my Japanese is the correct way, and that she has been exposed to too much slang that she now wishes to learn the right Japanese from me. Too deep... too deep... i can't understand what she's thinking sometimes. Oh, most of the time.
"bikkurishi-ta!!" is what she says most of the time now, because she thinks i'm using Japanese that are too profound, DUH~, I learn them in my Japanese cl-asses.. it isn't ... that... profound my dear friend... So let me do my part, to learn her English.
Start with daily phrases eh?
How are you? = Ha-u aa-ru yuu
I am fine, thanks. = ai a-mu fa-i-n, sa-n-ku-su.
Let's go. = re-i-tsu go-o
Good. = guddo
This romaji is quite vague of course... the real katakana is the 'right' way.
Now i'm wondering, if they are being taught this way ever since the beginning? How on earth are they ever gonna learn the right way to speak English??
*sighs* And things like they TOTALLY like to abbreviate things beyond comprehension is beyond my limits...
Departmental Store has been totally abbreviated to "depato". geez!
Building = biiru
Personal Computer (PC) = paso kon
And (dun dun DUN!!) i just realized they study American English. Me? British English learner. Trust me, there are some words that are totally used differently. "Biscuit" and "Cookie" is a pretty good comparison. Don't try to tell me they're different in taste.
"Dustbin" and "Waste paper basket" etc...Okies, they abbreviate a foreign language, forgiven... BUT! They don't just abbreviate English words... them doing it to their own language just makes things more difficult...
Just one typical example, my friend LOVES to use it a lot, and i didn't know the REAL meaning till i finally asked her:
iya ni natte shimau (this is the correct way)... and it has become "ya n nacchau"
Oh yea... thanks? How am i supposed to decipher a whole conversation like that? What they're saying and what is in the tetbooks are totally different! I can't believe the "Up-to-date" stickers on their dictionaries and textbooks anymore.
Whenever she says anything in English, i'll be "huh? what?" Then, she'll have to force herself to repeat HER English. Then i'll be "OH! Right... right." Think of it in the Japanese's point of view, I look like the one who doesn't know English, right? And so... she laughs... wowsers~
Amazing... SUGOoooI !
You know what, my dear friend? Try learning English from me instead, don't learn my "correct" Japanese. Too confusing for my small brain.
- Posted Apr 4, 2008 6:31 am PT
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28Mar 08
I'm tagged back by angelbless this time.
Oh my god... given that fact that i took a long time to answer the last tag.. i believe this is gonna take up more of my brain juice as well:
1) I study in the field of Bio-Electronics. I will get my diploma this May.
In fact, i just got an offer letter for a job at the Singapore General Hospital as a BME Technician. I hope i can do well.2) I am a soundtrack (OST) collector.
Which means, i hardly listen to pop, rock, and other things that go with the trend. Games, movies, drama, anime OSTs. Yes i mean OST, not just the theme songs, i mean the instrumental themes. I sorta like music with a story and background to fall back on, maybe that's why i like OST so much.3) I am a Singaporean Chinese.
Some people ask if i'm from China because of my name. No, i'm not. In fact, i was born in Malaysia and is a full Singapore citizen now.4) I...suck..at...Math...
I don't know how to say this. Honestly, i've never gotten bad scores for my mathematics modules: Additional math, normal math, engineering math. The lowest i've got is B3 for A math and either As or Distinctions for the other math. So why do i suck at math? What i'm trying to say: Don't judge my math ability by my math scores. I am a square person. If you twist the math question a little, i'll be whimpering and squealing at the question.5) I am very co-dependent.
Hmm... it's not something i'm very proud of. I didn't realize i have this problem, until...Who should i tag this time?!
Well i tag: eztarg8 , maniamsmart , STK3000 , smootheyes2 and Fantasy_Gamer (i hope he does pay attention...)- Posted Mar 28, 2008 11:36 pm PT
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27Mar 08
I was tagged by iowastate and smootheyes2 . Here's one for everyone.
Oh wow, i got tagged
And i'm having problems as to how to post this! 1) I am a girl.
You'd be surprised how many of you don't know this, yet, despite the fact that i try to publicise this as much as i could2) I am only 1.5m tall.
That's like uhh... 4.9 ft3) I care alot about political and world issues.
Say... I am living in one of the twenty smallest countries in the world, but i like to care so much about the large countries in the world. Little people thinking big... 4) I am an only child.
I wonder how many know this. I may the only child, but i'm not spoilt! No, not at all! I just get what i want. 5) I like to post crap on the forums.
Although i can't do it most of the time...Now i tag: AlbeadFFx, angelbless , Darmi , fs_metal , joeadonis1
- Posted Mar 27, 2008 10:10 pm PT
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