... In April 2008! Gahh I can't wait. I've never been there and I've been bugging my parents about going forever, and they finally gave in! Actually, it was between going to Las Vegas or going to Lake Tahoe on a ski/snowboard trip (I've been snowboarding my whole life, and I'd love to go there, especially because I've read "Remember Lake Tahoe", which is one of the GSR/CSI fics known to man), but we decided on Las Vegas.

It's going to be sooo fun because we're staying on The Strip at the Flamingo and probably the Riviera, and we're gonna go to the Stratosphere and theNew York New York and ride all the rides! Haha, now only five more months to go until spring break!

Yesterday. It was pretty bad, at least for me. I guess you could say I'm kind of the type to let things bottle up and hope that they'll just fade away, (and usually they do... at least for a little while), because I don't really like talking to anyone about my feelings. Yesterday, however, I was being really b*tchy with my mom and sister because there were several things that had just been building up and I was extremely frustrated with everything, and so finally my mom explodes at me saying stuff like "You are such a b*tch" and "If you don't have anything nice to say, shut the hell up", and I just burst into tears because I hadn't even meant to take anything out on anyone.

I ended up telling her how insecure I am (I'm wayyyyy too insecure for one person), and how I don't feel comfortable talking to anyone, not even her. I did tell her, however, that I think I might be actually depressed, like people who cut themselves and consider suicide. No, I don't cut myself, but sometimes I feel like not living anymore would make things much better. So my mom eventually decided that I need therapy. Yes, therapy. Therapy where you talk to a stranger about your problems and they supposedly help you get better. I don't know if it will actually help, but I've been feeling so horrible about everything lately, and I don't want it to get out of control. And I don't want to think about suicide.

Has anyone on here been to therapy before? If you have, does it help? You can PM me if you don't want to comment publicly about it. Any help would be appreciated.

I'm excited for - and dreading - next week's CSI. What will happen? Could this lead to Jorja leaving the show? Everything looks great now, but could it go horribly wrong?

We don't know. Well, I don't know. I'm spoiler-free. Except promos.

And I had sushi and pancakes for dinner. And I have no school tomorrow. And it's 11:37 pm here and I'm feeling crazyyyyyyyyyy.

GSR!

I felt the need.

AIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I've officially decided that 'Dead Doll' is my favorite CSI episode ever. I really thought Sara was going to die, but I'm beyond excited that she didn't.

First of all, I squeed SO loud when Sara picked up her phone and answered "Hello, Gilbert". How cute! And slightly dirty... They're so adorable together. I also loved Grissom's flashback to the chalk scene. Slimply amazing.

My favorite part of the whole episode was the last scene, though. I really couldn't ask for more. Some may say they wish they could've seen a GSR kiss then, but I don't. The scene was beyond perfect for me. The whole time I just knew that Sara was going to open her eyes, and when she did the way her and Griss looked at each otherwas just breathtaking. They're perfect for each other. And it wasn't even eye-sex, it was more like they were saying "I love you" with their eyes, you know?

On top of all of that, I found myself breathing for Sara when she was under the car and when she collapsed in the desert. Plus, I was sobbing the whole time, even after we found out she lived.

This is going to be an amazing season - let's just hope Jorja says on the show!

I've decked out my whole profile with Sara Sidle stuff. I've been praying that she lives, and I'm not even lying.

For those who were wondering, I will still watch CSI even if Jorja leaves the show (if you know what I mean) but I will be no where near as excited about it. I just want to clarify that I began watching CSI because it was an interesting forensics show, and I loved it. I remember the days before my discovery of GSR, when I watched the show solely for the awesome cases.

But that day has come and gone. GSR is a part of me now, which I am both happy and disappointed to admit. I almost wish I had never come across GSR, as tomorrow won't be as painful if I hadn't. (If... you know... she goes.)

I am not looking forward to tomorrow. I just have to get that off my chest. I kind of never want it to come, and even though Sara is just a TV character, I love her, and no matter what happens that will never change. Sigh. About 25 and a half hours left for me.

Tomorrow could be the best day ever, or the worst. I guess we'll just have to wait and see.

Good luck, Sara.

Or should I say funniest night ever? Hmm. You can decide.

Ok, so yesterday after cheer practice me and four other girls from my team (Katelyn, Alicia, Trae, and Anna) went to Qdoba for dinner and we were planning on going to Wal*Mart to look at prices of T-shirts since we're planning on making some cool shirts for our team. Sounds like a nice, innocent time, right? Wrong. So wrong.

So we went to dinner first and that was really good (seriously, if you ever get the chance to go to Qdoba, go ). We talked about who should be on competition team and stuff (since our coach is inviting us on to the team and so far Katelyn and I are the only ones guaranteed to be on. (Our coach told us, don't worry I'm not actually that conceited). And we were all stressed because our first pep assembly is next Friday and we're not really ready yet and stuff.

So then we leave Qudoba and we're driving right next to this guy who looks about high school age, and since we - being teenage girls - have to holler at people when we drive by . So then Katelyn steps on the gas and we fly past him, all five of us screaming. It was great. But then we come to a stoplight and guess who pulls up right next to us? That guy. So then Trae rolls down her window and starts talking to him. It was so funny because she was just talking to this random stranger! So we turn and Katelyn pulls in behind him, and starts tailgating him. We're all cracking up and then he pulls into the lane beside us, so Katelyn speeds up and pulls in in front of him. We're driving on a 50 mph road, but she slows down to 20 and puts both blinkers on. It was the funniest thing ever, and we're all laughing so hard (including Katelyn, the driver, who can barely see because tears are running down her cheeks from laughing). Then the guys gets in front of us and does a U-Turn. So do we. Try doing a U-Turn at about 40 mph. Seriously, I thought we were going to die. But it was hilarious. But then, he pulls over to the side of the road and we have to keep going, so we lost him.

At Wal*Mart, we see these robes that are obviously old-granny robes (think obnoxious colors and patterns) and decide to put them on. Then we walk around the store like that. It was so funny. By this time, we've completely forgotten about the T-shirts. Katelyn then tells us about this game were you take condoms and put them in people's carts when they're not looking (sounds mean, but it's SO funny ) So then we all put our robes back and grab some condoms. We had gotten a few people done and then we see this dad with his sons and daughter (they were probably like middle school age). So we all walk past them and while they're looking at a shelf Trae throws a box of condoms in, and I look up to see the daughter staring at Trae. We all sprint off and turn down an aisle, but when we get to the end of it we run right into the dad and his kids. I swear my heart stopped, because the dad goes "I think you need these more than I do", and hands the condoms back to Trae!! Omg, we all ran off and were like dying of laughter, but we knew we had to leave just in case the guy told anyone. Seriously, though. I haven't laughed that hard in a long time.

So that was probably the longest blog ever, and I'm sorry if you read the whole thing and wish you hadn't. I don't know, I thought it was funny. But thanks if you did!

So our school's first football game is on August 31, and since I'm a cheerleader I'll be, of course, cheering at it. This year we got new warm ups, bags, and poms, and kept the same uniforms. Wanna see?

Cheer uniform:

Back of cheer uniform (the little white scribbles are my name):

Close-up of the white scribbles:

Warm-ups:

Back of cheer warm-ups (again, the white scribbles are my name):

Close up of white scribbles on cheer warm-ups:

Cheer bag:

Name on cheer bag:

Silver poms:

New red poms:

Cute, huh? Gahh I'm so excited, although I'm not too excited about school starting again - (ours starts on the 4th of September). I can't wait for second tryouts for competition team, either, because I just recently got my aerial (no-handed cartwheel) solid, and I want to do it in a competition! It's going to be so much fun!

Talk to you all later!

Oman Norway Kenya say that Iran to Iraq with Chad and Jordan when I was Hungary for Turkey Greece that Jamaika in your Sudan in France with Ivory the Guinea pig.

Did you get that? Hint: Everything that starts with a capital letter is a country, and we just made a big sentence out of it. Here's the easy-to-read version...

Oh man no way can you say that I ran to Iraq with Chad and Jordan when I was hungry for turkey grease that you make in your Sudan in France with Ivory the guinea pig.

Yeah, I know. We're losers. ButI know you're jealous.

So where is everybody? I haven't seen Trace or Dev or Jules or anyone in forever.

I made my very first CatNick video! Link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ENwqfpJkqjIIt's to John Mayer's Waiting on the World to Change", as the cutest CatNick scene (or one of them) in CSI history was to that song. Let me know what you think! (Even if you aren't a CatNick shipper )

Plus, I'm now a Level 15, which I'm proud of since I'd been a Level 14 forever.

Also, I finished my fanfic "Gone". It's a GSR one, so beware. Reviews are loved, as always. http://www.fanfiction.net/s/3227410/1

YouTube won't let me comment on anyne's videos, and i've been forced to comment directly on their profiles instead. Whenever I go to comment a vid, an error box pops up and says "Your comment was not sent, either because it includes a URL or email address". What does this mean?! I did not type a URL or email address in the comment space! Anyone else have or have had this problem? I want it fixed.

Thanks to everyone who stopped to at least read this!

In the hood!!!

Haha my sister told me that joke the other day and I cracked up. I just thought I'd share it with y'all.

Annnndddddd... now that I have your attention, I just thought I'd say that I finally saw Harry Potter 5 yesterday!! It was much better than I expected (since the book was so long), and I think the scenes that were cut out were ok to nix. Except could Harry and Cho make out any longer? Geeze louise. And I loved Umbridge. She made me laugh. I can't read the 7th HP book until I finish my other two summer reading books for honors, though. Sounds easy? Nope. One is 500 pages and the other is about 400. Plus I have to find 15 quotes out of each and annotate them.

In the GSR Club. Yes, I know I am stating the obvious, but whatever. There just is.

I miss the old days when we were a tight bunch that actually talked about GSR. Today I walked in there and didn't recognize anyone, and they weren't really discussing GSR, either. Sigh. Hopefuly this is just like a summer thing, because that was my favorite baord, one I loked forward to checking eeryday. Now... I kind of dread it as nothing good ever happens anymore, but I still fell obligated to check it. Argh.

Anyways, how has everyone's summers been? Mine's been pretty good... I just got back from cheer camp and it was so much fun. I was one of the top 5 jumpers in camp and I made it onto an All-Stars team that travels to London if you can afford it. I probably won't go, though.

Oh, and Ryan kissed me for the first time today. It was soo amazing, but I'll spare you all the details because you probably don't care.

Sigh. I miss the old days on here so much. Hopefully I'll get used to it.

Today was finally the last day of school! It was soo much fun, too, becuase me and two other friends wore really pretty dresses and heels to school, and then after school was out we walked to this really small, really nice little restaurant and had lunch together.

Now that I think about it, I think I'm in denial about school being out, because it really doesn't feel like it, and I feel like I'm just gonna have to wake up early on Monday and go to school lol.

This summer should be really awesome, because I have so much going on! All summer I have cheer three times a week, and cheer camp in July, and I'm going to hang out with my boyfriend and my friends a ton. I'm also going to be tutoring elementary school kids in math, and going to get a tutor myself because I'm starting Pre Calculus in the fall and I want to be prepared! Haha let's not think about that yet...

Anyways, I don't know how much I'm going to be on Tv.com. For all I know, I could be on all the time! We'll see.

See ya later!

*sigh* This past week or so has been sooo crazy.

 But it's been amazing.

First of all, let me start with HE ASKED ME OUT! Yes, I, Jess, have a boyfriend. And he is the sweetest guy EVER.

EVER.

There is so much to tell, but i don't really feel like writing too much right now. Oh, and if you're wondering what guy it was (if you read my blog two blogs ago), it's the guy who dumped his girlfriend about a month ago. And, being the fine gentleman he is, he asked her if it would be okay if he asked me out, just so to not hurt her anymore (hopefully ). But so far, its been going great. (Even though it's only been about 26 hours since he asked me ).

But the reason I haven't been on as much is because I have sooo much homework lately, and I have cheer and I started Drivers Ed yesterday! WOOOOO!!! i'm getting my pemit tomorrow.

Sooo life is pretty darn god right now, and I'll keep y'all updated, of course. See ya later!

She's a smooth-haired retriver, and she's only seven months old!

So adorable, right? She's the sweetest puppy you will EVER meet, and guess what her name is?!

*drumroll*

Lorelai.

Yes, my puppy's name is Lorelai, She's not named after Lorelai on Gilmore Girls, though, (or so my dad says ). It's nice, though, since GG just ended, that my puppy is kind of a tribute, or just a reminder of it.

Seriously, if you told me I had to do this week over again, I don't know whether I would smile or cry, because it's been an awful week, but it's also been amazing.

Beware: Long Blog Post Ahead.

So it's easier to read (if anyone actually read this ), I'm going to break it up into sections by numbers.

1. My two favorite shows in the universe had finales this week. The Gilmore Girls one was great, and very memorable, but I was so sad to see it go, since it was actually the series finale. The CSI finale, however, was a "To Bo Continued" one, and I'm going insane because of how HUGE the cliffhanger was.

2. One of the guys I like, let's call him Boy A, has been so nice this whole week, and everyday this week we've talked and he's made me laugh. Also, this week I found out that we get to sit together in French for the next two weeks. Plus, one of his friends told me he mentioned me on the bus yesterday, and that he likes someone, but I don't know who it is. Also, here's what happened with Boy A one day:

*Jess and her friend walk to the local store, which is about a mile away*

*they buy things, and start to walk back, but suddenly notice these two guys walking along the road without thier shirts on, and both have liek eight packs*

J-Friend: Wow, look at those guys. They think they're so hot.

Jess: Umm... I think I know one of them. *a moment passes and Jess realizes who it is * Yeah, I do. ...

*Jess and her friend walk past them*

Boy A: *smiles at Jess* Bonjour! (Jess and Boy A are in the same French class)

Jess: *smiles back and then laughs because she's too mesmorized by his bare chest to make real words*

And that's what ahppened. *le sigh*

Also, the other guy I kinda like, Boy B, broke up with his girlfriend this week, and we had another nice conversation on MySpace. (Stop laughing!) Here's what happened toward the end:

Boy B: You should say hi to me at lunch.

Me: Or maybe you should say hi to me.

Boy B: Maybe I will.

And then he put a HUGE smiley face under that. It made me smile.

3. Cheer has started back up again, and it's already CRAZY!! I made it on to the team for the second year in a row, but there's a lot of incoming Freshman this year, so I don't know how good we are going to be, since most of them don't have experience.

BUT, we had an all-team sleepover at our coach's house last night, and it was SO MUCH FUN!

So, first of all, we went for a walk at about 2:00 in the morning to this lake that was like a mile away, and we saw some people standing on the dock when we got there, and one of my friends was like "Let's go see who it is!" Yeah, it sounds stupid, but we were all hyper, and it turned out to be one of the cheerleaders that ditched the sleepover early on iwht her boyfriend. Wow.

Then when we got back, me and three other girls were in the back of the group and when everyone else went inside we were like "Let's leave." So we did, at least for a little bit. And our coach never found out. We drove to the local Wal-Mart to buy some underwear to put on our coach's head while she was sleeping, but it wasn't open. So then we drove to Safeway and Fred Meyer. Nothing was open!

Seriously, what store isn't open at 3 in the morning?!

So we drove back and just stayed up talking until about 4, and then we finally fell asleep. But then I woke up at 6:30, so I got two and a half hours of sleep. Great.

But then I took a six-hour nap today, and when I woke up I thought it was Sunday already.

And today is my parent's wedding anneversary, so I'll be home alone for awhile since they're out to dinner. *sigh* If you read this whole blog, you are the greatest person ever, and I owe you a cookie.

It's over. It's really over.

After seven amazings seasons, after seven long years, Gilmore Girls is really, truly over. I'm still in denial, I think. Come September, and I'll be waiting for a new episode to come on.

But it won't.

Last nights episode, though, the series finale, was seriously the most perfect episode of Gilmore Girls ever. I love that Luke and Lorelai and really back together, and now that the show has ended, we can assume they'll be together forever. I'm glad that their kiss wasn't the last scene, though, since it was focussing on their relationship and not Lorelai's and Rory's. The end scene was amazing - simple, yet perfect. A true GG moment.

To Gilmore Girls, I'll miss you so much. I'll mis Lorelai and Rory's quirky habits and the way they talke, I'll miss Luke's attitude and his coffee, I'll miss Sookie and her cooking, Emily and her strictness (is that a word? ), and Kirk and... well... I'll miss everything about him.

R.I.P. Gilmore Girls, we will never forget you.

Gilmore Girls, 2000-2007

I finally saw RENT yesterday!! *sigh* I remember those times when I had no idea what everyone was talking about, some sort of "musical" that everyone loved, but now I know! And I loved it, too! At first I was kind of confused about what was happening, since all they do is sing, but then I understood and it was AMAZING. I loved the singing especially, and Roger was my favorite.

Soo... about the "boys" part... There's this guy that has been smiling at me in the halls at school lately, and two nights ago we had a very nice conversation on MySpace (). But he has a girlfriend. Whatever, we'll see what happens. BUT, the guy I've liked all year broke up with his girlfriend, so that's pretty cool, too.

Just thought y'all might like to know. I'll keep you updated.

Oh, and of course Happy Mother's Day!! to all the mothers on the boards. (Which, I think there's only two I talk to. )

... On Tv.com, of course.

Wow, one whole year. It really seems like just yesterday I found this site (while searching for CSI sites) and decided to join. Little did I know, I'd become addicted.

Because of this site, I have become a CSI, GSR, CatNick, Gilmore Girl, JavaJunkie addict. I spend a great deal of my time on here, and I come to Tv.com more than MySpace!

Since joining Tv.com on May 3, 2006, I have: made 72 friends , 2,647 posts, made 18 reviews, gotten 183 submissions accepted, become the editor of six people, and become a Level 14. Not bad, I guess.

In the following year, though, I would like to: make 100 friends, 5,000 posts, get 300 submissions accepted, and build up enough confidence to post a picture of myself.

Thank you to everyone who I've made friends with on here; you really have made my time worth while. (Well, most of the time. *looks pointedly at D-Rob* )