• 22Nov 09

  Caustic Disco

  went out with some friends to a club tonight. A goth club to bet exact. One of my friends suggested that we both get jedi mind tricks from the bar. It was rather tasty. And left me pretty buzzed. My friend wasn't able to consume very much of her Jedi mind trick and let me have it. I wasn't sure if i could handle 2 straight Jedi Mind tricks since they are pretty strong drinks. But i downed it anyway and sat in the corner and zoned out. Random thoughts really.

  I started thinking about my future. My birthday is coming up on January 2nd. I really don't like my birthday. With each passing year that goes by, i find myself jsut a year older, and not a shred richer or more successful. I'm dreading it. Knowing i'm a year older just depresses me. Most people celebrate it. I become nervous about my future.

  I also was thinking about my Mom's boyfriend who recently broke up with her. This break up really hurt me. He was the only man i ever got to talk to and bond with. He was also the only reason why i got to go to Kinetik festival this year. He was generous enough to pay for half of it. Quite frankly, there were things i told him but never my mother or my family for that matter. Now i'm stick here again with no other men to talk to. Just my mother, my sister, and my grandmother. It's nothing against them, but sometimes, I really want to talk to men who are old enough to be my father just to bond,

  a bit later some songs came on that i really like. fairly depressing ones. I got up and started walking around the club. I'm not going to go into detail about the songs since i highly doubt any of you here would be familiar with the bands. But honestly, these depressing songs actually kind gave me hope. I much prefered to listen to them than get on the floor and shake my booty. I don't know of it was that or the jedi mind drinks i'd downed earlier, but i actually started feeling really euphoric.

  When i got home i found a gift from a friend.

  http://www.furaffinity.net/view/3072426

  Sure was nice to come home to this.

  • Posted Nov 22, 2009 2:53 am PT
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• 31Oct 09

  Halloween 2009

  tonight was a bi polar evening. there were a few moments where i experienced a rare boost of joy, but the majority of it was ruined by my sister.

  It all started when my sister was getting ready to go to a club. She was in the bathroom putting on way too much make up like always. 2 of her friends couldn't go along so she asked me to print up the receipt so she could get her friend's money refunded. I tried, but the yellow cartridge was empty. I told her it was empty and there was nothing i could do. I even told her to just run down the street and get it printed. She gets all angry and just goes "don't talk to me" in this really snotty voice and calls her friend. I heard her in the next room over going "My brother can't print the receipt. I don't know why he can't" and some other stuff. Basically pinning the blame on me. Needless to say. i was rather angry.

  Then my mom got home and notice my sister was in another one of those moods. She went into the kitchen and then all of the sudden, it happened. The tv in the bedroom turned on by itself. Swear to god truth. My mom comes in and starts wondering why it's on. I told her it wasn't me. And that it wasn't my sister either. She was in her room stressing out. When my mom said the TV went on by itself, my sister called her crazy in a really snotty mood and from there it was all downhill. 5 minutes later she was out of the house. she threw a bunch of stuff in the suit case and was off.

  So afterwards, we decided to go down the street and head to the mall. I took my costume and mask. Along the way we passed a house with a tent in front of it. I asked ehr to stop so i could trick or treat it. Inside there were a bunch of those plastic severed hands and legs, and fake cleavers with blood stains on them. A dude with a bloody apron, disfigured face mask and a chef's hat gave me candy. It was fun. THIS is what Halloween is all about right here. I got some Whoppers, Nerds, and snickers. my favorites!

  When we got to the mall, they told me i couldn't bring my mask inside because i'm an adult. I understand the threat of violence and all but come on. It's Halloween. Can't they have security guards check you? Like search you to make sure you don't have any weapons and make you take your mask off briefly and check your ID? is that too much to ask? That put a damper on the Halloween spirt. But anyway, Inside my mom felt bad for me and offered to buy me some new button up shirts for when we go to formal events. She got me 2 nice shirts.

  Coming home from taco bell, we stopped at a stop sign. Then some kids in clown costumes ran up to the car and started honking their horns. one of them said "hi i'm Mark". It was cute. I wish i could have the opportunity to play like this for once and enjoy was i was denied as a child. oh well. Guess that's life.

  I ordered a crunchy taco supreme but for some reason they gave me 2. I noticed this when i got home. Much to my dismay, one of them had meat in it. (i asked for no meat). Aw well. It's not like i paid for the extra one. Suddenly, there was a knock on the door. I answered it to find some kids with their parents. And well, one of them got not only candy, but a taco too....

  anyway, in response to the TV turning on by itself, i don't know what you people want to believe, and if you believe in things from the other side, but my grandmother things that my deceased grandfather turned it on. When he was alive, he loved Halloween and would take me trick or treating around the neighborhood. Guess he was just stopping by to say Happy Halloween. You don't have to believe that if you don't want, but i do.

  • Posted Oct 31, 2009 9:31 pm PT
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• 25Oct 09

  Charlie horses

  does anyone ever get these? (muscle spasms in your leg in case you don't know)

  i actually Charlie horsed twice this week. the first was rather painful. Just this morning i did it again. I hope i don't keep Charlie horsing. It does hurt to stretch your leg out all the way at first. But ultimately, walking on it works best to make the pain go away.

  • Posted Oct 25, 2009 5:14 pm PT
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