• 21Nov 09

  Beautiful, Your beautiful as the sun.Your as wonderful as they come.

  what uppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppp?

  hope everyone is good and well.

  a lots been happening lately.

  for those who have been reading this **** for a long time.. i finally went out on work placement.

  I f*cking loved it. I love the clients, I loved the staff it was just sooo good. so much stuff did happen, and I did learn so much. I worked in a mental institution! it was sooo good I enjoyed it so much never thought i would but I was always happy to get up even at 5 am to go 2 work lol. working 12 hr shifts kinda sucked balls but the coffee helped a hell of a lot. The clients were awesome and I got some behaviour( which is exciting) hahaha. I got to go out on appointments, drs visits, activites. it was great.

  The staff loved me, They called me- love me long time hahahaha some of the staff were awesome, we got along so well and well some 2 well.. hahahaha one man in particular acted a bit odd towards me.. like singing to me, saying i was beautiful, massages etc. ... it was a tad innapropriate but maybe thats just how he is? When i had my last day hes like im really going to miss you. hahaha. ok? hahah we did get a long i just found some of the things he did weird... but you get that hahaha. Anyways when i was there I asked the staff if they would employ me, and they said they would so now i have a meeting on monday to see what the staff said about me.... which is going to be interesting. If they offer me a job ill take it.

  things have been going really well ive been happy.. having fun.. not getting too drunk except a couple of weekends ago where I was a total mess. Some guy was trying to lure me into his car by asking me to look at his rims apparently hahaha( i love nice shiny wog rims hahaa) only aussies might get that hahaha. ohhh well. I dont remember i was drinking absinthe. I was so hungover and I never get hangovers.. ever.. I looked so yuck. like green lol. and I had to sit in the dark. the light wasnt good at all.. why is it we remember the hangovers not the actual events UNFair! lol it was fun night though!

  Tonight I have a party which I should be getting ready for , but im firm believer in being late all the time. hahaha omg i have tequila ready and waiting for me... im going to be a mess.. but I have to celebrate ... well started celebrating last night actually.

  omg we were doing stranger flashing.. and the guys I happen to go and flash at like 2am. I know this guy hes hot.. but things have happened btw us.. and anyways ive also hit him hahaha. he was naughty.. ( its a long story) hahaha it was such a funny moment... like it sounds stupid but i havenht written everything.. my friends were pissing themselves at me. hahaha glad to amuse.... we went out for beverages b4 lol.. mine was so strong but it was ok.. it didnt affect me... but i also had expresso, and lattes lol. .. im soo tired right now must get ready to party.. must.. trying to hype myself up!!!

  The reason I am celebrating is... I got a call the other day I got into uni.... i almost died. I didnt think i'd get in..... still kinda cant believe it. I think it was more the way it happened they dont usually call.. but they called.. so it was odd. but definately a good odd

  Its hard to think how different I feel from a year ago.. i know im still the same person.. but I somehow think ive changed.. I cannot explain it in any way.. sure im still a negative b*tch and full of hatred, but hatred takes energy too. haha. Ive just been really positive and you know what everything has fallen into place for me. everything so far. Im really suprised at it. Maybe ive done a bit to help myself along but im just speechless at my attitude change. My friend said the other day shes going to call me the dali lama. im hahaha. thanks.

  im still sleepy.. why does it have to rain the nite.. when.. hhh,mmm no comment hahaha. need coffee.. which i will get

  not that everything in life has been that great and Ive always tried to look for the sliver lining.. im telling all you negative ppl out there its so much more painful to be that way.. I kinda think you may set ur expectations lows or think badly so you arent let down, but I think even if you are suprised when something finally goes ur way ur still stuck in the past and you keep thinking of all the things that could go wrong, instead of enjoying the moment, the achievement.

  I know ive been through a lot of **** this year ive been unhappy like we all are at some point but I know Ive achieved a hell of a lot as well... Im so thankful for the new friends ive made and people who have helped me along the way.

  I sound like im depressed. hahaha. kinda. Michael jackson :p hahaha this song suites the mood of the night -give into me hahahaha.. this goes out to a certain guy... he knows who he is.. hahahaha. hes not on this site.(that i know of haha)

  hahahaha im not high either.. just so tired.

  well I better snap outta this and get my booze on.. soon..

  stay cool , stay in school hahahaha

  title- smashing pumpkins- beautiful

  xoxoxxoxoxox

  edit:

  omg... ppl dont be like me!!!! I got so wasted last night.. i dont remember a thing.. I have cuts and bruises and apparently I was unconscious.. ah im feeling so sh*t i dont mean hungover.. i feel fine. i feel crap but im stupid. so I hereby declare that im giving up alcohol its just stupid and I really dont need it.. in the end.. im crazy enough without it.. but then i become stupid and like almost die .lol. its just not worth it. dont drink ppl hahaha

  • Posted Nov 21, 2009 12:44 am PT
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• 18Oct 09

  You can run but you cant hide, because no here gets out alive

  hey guys/ girls/ aliens/ santa etc.

  hows life???

  I have been so happy lately. Its been amazing I feel like my whole attitude has changed.. its been amazing.. I have been doing things different trying to be positive and not let things phase me. its working well might I add Ive been doing a lot more random things trying not to get stressed and relax.

  Ive even been enjoying my course lmao.. amazing. everyone has noticed its just been so good.

  I really should blog more cause I dont remember what i have been doing due to my suckish memory.lol

  well this weekend was ok... nothing exciting.. I said I was going to homework as i always do.. but i had a party friday night.. and that all went out the window.. and I wasnt drunk.. hahahahah i really have changed.. hahahaaha I got my most favourite drink and found out that in this one drink it had 3 standard drinks.. ( i was driving that nite so I prob had about 8 drinks so my friends had to drive my car hahahah it was a funny experience.. ) quote of that night was do you want me 2 sexually assault you?? hahaha that night we also went out clubbing it was ok.. i was getting sick but still danced and sang badly which was fun but i also had guys trying to pick me up.. hahahah and this one guuy was singing to me on his knees hahahah he was funny...

  saturday.. i couldnt talk... i slept most of the day... it sucked.. i still dont feel fully better ohh well that nite i ended up getting entertained by a someone.. ahhhhh hahahaha.

  sunday...hmmmm was a weird but still alright day the weather in aus is getting sexual. = good in my vocab hahahah seriously.. amazingness. hahahaha. and yeah i had an even better nite hahahaha.

  omg dont you hate when you run into ppl..u dont want to see.. i was shopping with friends for a present.. I ran into this guy.. who i had a fight with... and yeah I ended up running into him 2 days in a row.. scary LOL.

  i am excited for my soundwave/ big day out tickets to arrive... im sooo excited i AM SEEING PLACEBO... i almost died from excitement when i saw placebo are playing soundwave.. like omfg one of my most fav bands ever in this whole world its just amazing.

  hmmm so im really loving a melbourne band called british india.. you should check them out on youtube WHO LOVES muse??? i do.. loving their new album...

  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=72c2HuI3CBQ

  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DmXwQBV2tV8&feature=related

  love muse.... im seeing them big day out..

  sooo yeah being happy is great and i wish I could have felt the way I have been feeling a long time ago, i guess ive realised that maybe there are certain things i have done that have held me back and in the end the only person it hurts is me. yeah but woooooooooooooooooooooooo

  times a changing i guess. maybe cause im older now hahahahah older then a month ago lol.. I just wish I knew what has changed i think my attitude definately has.. but I also think its the acknowledgement that sure i have bad things in my life but not everything is bad there are still some really good things. Its hard to see the positive things we are our own worst critics and its true.. ohhh well...

  better get back to these assignments lol catch ya

  xoxoxoxoxoxox

  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uL1UdVGczR8

  title- placebo - julien

  • Posted Oct 18, 2009 8:59 pm PT
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• 24Sep 09

  I get that feeling when we're apart. I cant be without you

  everytime i blog about to party well not much has changed my friends.. its thursday nite mates want me to go out and im ready kinda and comtemplating if i should go...

  so... im slack i know. hmmmmmm

  ive been partying and drinking way too much lately... a couple of weekends ago i had a party.. there was a bar tab... need i say anymore.. I actually couldnt walk.. i had massive bruises cause i kept falling.. omfg it was bad but kinda fun.. not tha falling part.

  remember that dude.. well yeah i ended up running into him.. yummy bartender dude.. and he is sexy. he doesnt have an eyebrow ring!! hes really nice we were going to hookk up that weekend but I couldnt because I was 2 drunk.. and amongst other things. LOL. i sound like a whore now... but long story short we didnt and yeah stufff happened no not that stuff.. and overall it sucks hahahaha.. i know that doesnt tell you much but I understand it and thats all that matters..

  you guys should be proud of me... I went out to a party had one glass of wine and partied like an awesome sober sally.. i HAD SO MUCH FUN and maybe i dont need alcohol maybe i just like it? lol everyone thought i was drunk I wasnt.. ive found a club where the cute guys are.. LOL wooo.. im thinking bout going there now.... but i bet it will suck tonight.. and I cant find anything to wear even though i have stuff ive never worn thats cute.. im just not feeling it 2nite.. but I think if i dont go out it will be awesome. LOL. omfg im such a girl.

  im going to see la roux on thursday woooooo! Im going to soundwave.. and like next week BDO lineup gets annouced and rumour has it that Muse are headlining.. look u already know im going!!!! LOL yay.. im a festival whore i'd go to all of them if i had the money.

  dont start me on money. or my course. honestly... it will make me depressed and I will cry.

  lifes on a downhill spiral.. i think i bring it on myself though Im not sure maybe I do.. maybe I dont.. i Dont know anymore.

  all I know is.. the other day one of my closest friends said she was worried about me.. makes me feel even worse.

  I have a lot going on inside my head i think i should go talk to someone.. but im the type of person that hates talking about my feelings how unlady like

  hahahaha awesome.. so... anyways. I should blog more often cause i forget **** that happens cause im a retard

  I cant believe it I ended up speaking to my brother.. ihavent spoken to him for maybe 4-5 years... I still dont like him or really want to talk to him.. I dont trust him and really want nothing to do with him it was the circumstances that made me. do I regret it yes. I know that sounded f*cked up but I guess ur not me and you dont know what I've been through.

  I guess thats the same with everyone though. wow this is not making me want to go out... lol

  happy thoughts.... no there are none atm lol

  so...... im sorry ive missed ppl's blogs ill read them oneday I promise

  ok.. well im going to try n go out and party... sober round 2 hahaha.

  ahhhhhhhhhhhh i dont know......

  title- empire of the sun- without you... wish i was going to parklife lol. awesome song and describes a lot for me well kinda LOL but its an awesome song

  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EOmwrLgrBBI

  catch ya on the flip side

  edit;

  ok im a good girl and went out!!!! its past 4 am in the morning... i had an awesome night... and omfg i ran into dustin.. i want to stab him... staby staby.. ahhh when i saw him i had 2 drinks.... to take the edge off!!! and I wasnt drunk I was sober I danced my arse off.. and wtf do i see guys from highschool out and they all recognise me. nooooooooo

  and for the record there was so hot f*cking pieces of arse out tonight just so you all know!!!! drool drool.

  I went to the bathroom.. yes i know you need to know... and this gay guy came into the toilets and sat on the seats waiting for his other friends/ girls and guys in the chick toilets.. this girl comes in and sits next to me.. look and sees that guy who you could clearly tell he was gay .... she was like get out you F*cking **** and punched him... she was very drunk I know it wasnt right but it was something u had to be there for.. it wasnt as bad as it sounds. but yeah....

  still cant believe i saw him... noooooooo anyways. I had a good night and i was sober.. 2 times in a row. woot woot louder woot woot. mmmmmmm i cant sleep im wired up I shouldnt have left!!!!!!!!!

  im in a better mood now lol

  xoxox

  • Posted Sep 24, 2009 6:24 am PT
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