• 13Jul 07

  Cleaning out my account...

  I just spent the last hour tying up all the loose ends I left here. My sig, banner, personal information, games, unions... All gone. It's kind of funny how you can virtually erase most of two year's worth of your life. Guess memories are the only thing that actually lasts forever huh?

  Seeing all of it floating away made me quiver inside, so I ended up not deleting the blog posts I made over the years. They'll remain as a testament to all of you who supported me throughout my stay at GS. It made me sad to see your comments on the last blog though, guess it'll be tough not coming here after all. Maybe I'll come back in the far future, but, if I ever do, I'm afraid it'll have passed too much time, and most of you will probably have forgotten about me. I guess I'll take the example of Sen (and use it in my own way), I won't come back here till something good happens to me. Not good meaning getting a new laptop or winning the lottery. I mean something that makes me feel happy again. Then I'll come to at least let you know I'm happy. If I don't come though... You know what that means...

  Hum... Guess not much else to say... See ya, or not...

  P.s. Sorry for dumping the union on you aj, it automatically goes to the member that's been part of it for the longest time, and since you helped create it... Feel free to resign though... I got your pm too, but I'll answer it on an e-mail.
  

  • Posted Jul 13, 2007 11:17 am PT
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• 28Jun 07

  Going away...

  In this month in which I've, yet again, been away, much has happened. But nothing, among all the stupid things I did, was positive.

  So I figured, why say anything at all? I guess that's it. I won't talk about what I had to endure, but instead, I'll talk about what brought me here, and the reason I made that title. I'm going away. Gs has lost a lot of meaning to me, as have most of my other hobbies. Haven't watched anything on Tv lately except a couple of simpsons reruns, haven't written anything good in a while (which is bad since my dream IS becoming a writer and all) and I stopped talking to most of my friends, both on and offline. It must have become clear to most of you (the few that still care) that this was bound to happen. If so, glad I didn't disappoint you. If not, well then, surprises are always nice, aren't they?

  I leave much behind and I know I'm gonna regret this, but it is a step I must take. I regret leaving some of you behind, though. Aj, Yami, Sen, Dan, Nano, Rave, Boat, Sith, and many more, I had a lot of fun knowing you guys and I really will miss being here and posting. I won't even check the post count for Dan, I bet he's hit a really big amount. I'm sure Nano is still drawing really awesome stuff, as well as Sen is designing the coolest sigs I could ever imagine. I'm also sure that is still pretty easy to make Yami go lmao and that she still uses way to many smileys. And Aj... you're the oldest friend I had here, or, at least, the one I'll miss the most. There are too many things I'll miss about you, and about the rest of you, but there just aren't enough words to describe it.

  And so, I bid my goodbye to you. Or do you bid farewell? Bah, who cares, I'm portuguese, I'm not supposed to know XP

  Oh and if anyone misses me, just send me a pm with your mail or something, I know I'll eventually get it and add you on msn.

  P.S. To Yami and Aj: I finally got around to really watching Bleach. I'm on ep 41 and I'm totally hooked, hope that lasts

  Your friend,

  Tanao, aka Ricardo Amaral

  • Posted Jun 28, 2007 7:06 pm PT
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• 2May 07

  Is it worth it?

  What do we do when you look around you and only see s**t, no matter where you look? You close your eyes, go to sleep, and hope someone will have cleaned it up by the time you wake up...

  As I said two blogs ago, my life couldn't be worse right now. I've had a few fights with a girl I was going out with and, although I thought we had settled things last week, it turns out she's still angry with me (go figure). Plus, she stopped returning my mails all of a sudden. I've heard rumours she's into another guy right now, hopefully they're wrong...

  That has kept me a few nights without sleeping, which shows when I can't pay attention in class. This was supposed to be mylast year, I should be making that extra effort to get into college, but I can't concentrate on anything. I have a test tomorrow, a big one with about 150 pages worth of stuff, but I have yet to start studying. They moved my computer out of my room again too, so when I go to my room I just lie in my bed listening to music. A bit depressing I might add.  What will happen when I don't get into college?

  My parents don't want to hear any of that though. To them, I'm not applying myself cause I'm lazy. Maybe it's better too, since I wouldn't want them to know how fed up I am. My dad won't handle any more deceptions, he's made that pretty clear. I tried to talk with my mom the other day, but she wouldn't hear me. She doesn't believe in me, she says I have to do something besides writing, it won't put food on the table. They're starting to get to me too, cause I've stopped writing like I used to, the only stuff that comes out are dark and depressing poems...

  Well, dark or not, they're still pretty good, at least, that's what my friends say to me. I'm starting to lose faith in them though, sometimes I think they're just being nice.

  Earlier this week I met some friends of mine from a couple of years ago and I went out for a drink with them. They offered me a smoke and I just took it. Four years since I kicked that nasty habit and now it comes back. Took me a while to get used to it again, but now I'm smoking on a daily basis. Another one for my families book of disappointment (it's pretty big by now). They don't know, or at least, they haven't said anything, but how could they not know? I smell of tabaco and I smoke even when they're home. Maybe they just don't care...

  I had another reunion today, this time with a teacher from two years ago. She's young, in her mid twenties, and wealso went to get a drink. Can't say I disliked her company, we even talked for a long time, but she's moving to another city, so no luck there... Not that I was thinking of anything, it's just that it was nice to be with her.

  So now, what am I to do? I probably won't get into college, I'll have another fight with that girl when she finds out I started smoking again and my head is about to explode with all the cr*p that's loged up in there.It doesn't seem possible to go through all of this and still keep my mental sanity.

  Oh well, if I do go crazy, then my blogs will become a lot more fun for eveyone to read... 

  • Posted May 2, 2007 7:59 am PT
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