Reign of Fire

It's amazing that some people can inflict such pain on others and have no remorse I always wondered that. It almost seems as if they completely lost themselves and I have dedicated my life on to reversing this process. I just realized that there are two kinds of people dragons and actual humans. The dragons cause havoc and don't speak your language. The second are humans people who you can reach and can actually communicate. With dragons they stay away from the water because that's their weakness since they breath fire that can cause tremendous pain on others. Humans on the other hand love playing in the water and actually run towards when things get a little hot. Unlike dragons the fire has consumed them while humans see fire as part of them but not all of them. Humans come together for warmth while dragons stay amongst themselves yet still being alone.

I see fire as people's fears, it was something I read somewhere is how I somewhat made this connection, this can be dangerous on the situation. If you can control the fire you can use it to burn houses, cars, or even people. If you don't control the fire the fire will start to control you and consume you, burning every last human emotion inside of you. Thust creating dragons with these dragons they have been burned to the point of no return. Water is their weakness because water is the emotions of the result of the fire. Dragons have stayed away from the water for so long that they are somewhat institutionalized they're just too use to the fire to come out. Humans on the other had don't know how to swim right away and must be taught to each other. If a human isn't taught how to swim they'll drowned in their own emotions leading to death. Staying in the shallow waters is playing it safe because going into the deep end is also dangerous. As we all know staying in the shallow waters doesn't do anyone good because the fun is further out. Sometimes being vulnerable is being human yet it's what makes you grow. Just like fire, water can have just as the same amount of effects being human.

Anyone who's reading this must be lost but I'm starting to think that I can't help people the way I thought I could. I'm on fire myself and I'm trying to put out fire with fire which isn't working and just realized what I was doing. I don't know how to swim I tried and it nearly killed me yet a part of me is also wondering, "Do I really want to go in the water?" That's a good question to ask myself because to tell you the truth I don't want to go in the water yet I still want to be human. As I already described that it is impossible to be on both sides since it will consume you. People also talk about sex like it's hunger (food) but I never heard anyone talk about fear / emotions and how they're connected together. I think I may have a standard metaphor for this. Still readers must be wondering, what's the whole point of this blog, why write about this?

I think I'm turning into a dragon, a point of no return and may lose my human side of me forever. If anyone tries to put out my fire breathing breath it will kill me because that'll be my weakness. I'm not sure if anyone knows what a feral child is but it's when someone has been isolated so much that they can become something else. An example would be if I was growing up with dogs and had pretty much no human contact what so ever. It's said that they'll never really have a social life that'll be considered normal to humans. It's like taking that term and twisting it a little and thust a dragon is formed. I don't believe in any religion like people would want me to, considering my blog around my birthday called "17yrs turning 35yrs." Then again I could just be over reacting and maybe it's just a reaction that's normal. Someone died (metaphorically) and I'm not showing any feelings at all which is kind of scary because when I really look at the situation. I'm not that close to anyone in my life no offense to GameSpot friends but chatting online I don't consider real friends. Like someone having 200 contacts I highly doubt that person really cares about anyone.

In conclusion somewhere along the reign of fire and pain I must have started to get use to the treatment, a little too use to it. I think I'm going to be lost if someone tries to put out the fire that I'm in because my fears have consumed me. All I can do is continue to walk the path I've chosen even if it looks like hell, heck who knows maybe there's light at the end for me. It seems like being a police officer to help people seems to be out of the question if I'm a dragon when I'm done school. The battle of fighting for who I am to what I might become is scary.

Songs Describing the Emotions

American Rejects - It Ends Tonight

Micheal Bolton - Go The Distance (Walt Disney - Hercules)

Stabilo - Flawed Design

Gwen Stefani - Don't Speak

The Goo Goo Dolls - Iris

David Usher - The Music

Five for Fighting - 100 Years To Live

Natasha Bedinfield - Pocketful of Sunshine

Lion King 2 - Not One of Us

Related Blogs: 17yrs Turning 35yrs

Metal Note: I just use this terminology to describe something I'm going through to give you a vivid picture of how I see things. The water and fire analogy come from other people (I think) but everything else the dragons, humans, deep waters...etc. is all me.