My Birthday

It was my birthday three days ago and I honestly don't feel like I've gained more responsibility because I already had it. I can now vote, considered to be an adult to the community, and a whole new world filled with responsibilities. I honestly feel like I'm older or think more mature enough to like 35yrs old, which sounds crazy unless you've spoken to me. My intellect has gained and surpassed more if not all people my age while others think what's fun to do I'm reading, sports, and finding a job. I also think about life, time, world issues, and why people act they way they do. I feel isolated in so many ways that I have a lonely life I don't have any friends and if I did I still wouldn't want a party. I personally don't like parties because I think celebrating something like a birthday is pointless because no one is ever responsible with what they do. So in other worlds they waste my time when I could've been doing something constructive with my time. To tell you the truth I don't think I ever had a party of my own even when I was young I didn't want a party.

Being more mature than people my age has its advantages and the same time it's a burden. You're able to articulate yourself very well at the same time when you do that they don't know what you're talking about. I also hold back on these blogs and also change most of the words I use so anyone can read and understand. Most people think intellect is just knowledge but there's a level of understanding which most people don't have. I can even say that about most adults today don't fully have good intellect they mostly have hard skills. Thinking that's all you need if life and also use that to over power people of my age yet they don't know I can take their job in a second. Why do I say that? Because with the last generation most of them don't like change yet at the same time don't know how to talk to each other. I've been in offices and people don't like conversation with each other person-to-person but rather use their computer to talk to the person right next to you. With that said what they know and do for a living can be taught in colleges or universities. Intellect on the other hand you can't teach someone they have to gain it on their own and that'll be hard for most people. Considering that they don't really talk to each other I'm referring to my blog (Are We Destined To Be Alone?). The only advantage that an older person has over me is the experiences with other people other wise I personally think I'm at their level or even greater.

 The thing I like about my birthday that it's on holy week and at the same time ironic. I say this because I don't actually believe that there is a God but was made up to give false hope to people. Just to make sure you understand I mean to let people think that there's something to hope for after death. So I mean it in a good way I don't mean it was a bad thing but a very good thing. I came to this conclusion because you aren't suppose to take the Bile literally but is suppose to teach you or guide you in a sense. I'll give you an example of one story that every should all know even if you aren't part of Christianity.

Example: Adam & Eve

 Story: and the Lord God planted a garden eastward in Eden; and there he put the man whom he had formed. And out of the ground made the Lord God to grow every tree that is pleasant to the sight, and good for food; the tree of life also in the midst of the garden, and the tree of knowledge of good and evil. And the Lord God took the man, and put him into the garden of Eden to dress it and to keep it. And the Lord God commanded the man, saying, of every tree of the garden thou mayest freely eat: But of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, thou shalt not eat of it: for in the day that thou eatest thereof thou shalt surely die. And the Lord God said, it is not good that the man should be alone; I will make him a help meet for him. And the Lord God caused a deep sleep to fall upon Adam, and he slept; and he took one of his ribs. and closed up the flesh instead thereof; and the rib, which the Lord God had taken from man, made he a woman, and brought her unto the man. And they were both naked, the man and his wife, and were not ashamed.

Now the serpent was more subtle than any beast of the field, which the Lord God had made. And he said unto the woman, Yea, hath God said, Ye shall not eat of every tree of the garden? And the woman said unto the serpent, We may eat of the fruit of the trees of the garden: But of the fruit of the tree which is in the midst of the garden, God hath said, Ye shall not eat of it, neither shall ya touch it, lest ye die. And the serpent said unto the woman, Ye shall not surely die: For God doth know that in the day ye eat thereof, then your eyes shall be opened, and a tree to be desired to make one wise, she took of the fruit thereof, and did eat, and gave also unto her husband with her; and he did eat. And the eyes of them both were opened, and they knew that they were naked; and they sewed fig leaves together, and made themselves aprons. And they heard the voice of the Lord God walking in the garden in the cool of the day: and Adam and his wife hid themselves from the presence of the Lord God called unto Adam and said unto him, Where art thou? And he said, I heard thy voice in the garden, and I was afraid, because I was naked; and I hid myself. And he said, Who told thee that thou wast naked? hast thou eaten of the tree, whereof I commanded thee that thou shouldest not eat? And unto Adam he said, Because thou hast hearkened unto the voice of thy wife, and hast eaten of the tree, of which I commanded thee, saying, Thou shalt not eat of it: cursed is the ground for thy sake; in sorrow shalt thou eat of it all the days of thy life; Thorns also and thistles shall it bring forth to thee; and thou shalt eat the herb of field; in the sweat of thy face shalt thou eat bread, till thou return unto the ground; for out it wast thou taken: for dust thou art, and unto dust shalt thuo return. And the Lord God said, Behold, the man is becoming as one of us, to know good and evil: and now, lest he put forth his hand, and take also of the tree of life, and eat and live for ever: Therefore the Lord God sent him forth from the garden of Eden, to till the ground from whence he was taken. So he drove out the man; and he placed at the east of the garden of Eden Cherubims, and a flaming sword, which turned every way, to keep the way of the tree of life.

Thoughts:

If God is so great don't you think he knew they would take from the tree of knowledge or good and evil? With the said he purposely put it there for them to take it. So the question is why, why just let them know everything from the start. The answer is because as we grow up we are innocent and therefore don't know any better. As we grow up we learn more about good and evil / reality. This story is supposed to represent the stages in our lives that we don't all stay innocent having the good life forever. The other thing is that if they didn't take from the tree they would've lived forever. So since they took it God made them mortals because if they weren't they would be Gods / Goddesses in a sense. With me I have taken the fruit of good and evil / knowledge before I was suppose to and can't go back. I can only go forward from now on my innocence is stripped of me and most of my teenager years as well. 

 That is one of many reasons why I think it's made up because it mostly teaches you about life instead about actually facts about Jesus. Do you ever wonder why they say Jesus is in all of us or what would Jesus do? That is just another way of refering to yourself in my opinion.

Five for Fighting - 100 Years To Live

Don't Speak - Gwen Stefani (favourite)

I listen to music that expresses my feeling or moods that I'm in because before I couldn't talk so I listened to music. It made me different from most yet now since I can talk it has just flipped things around and now everyone else can't talk, ironic. I tried so hard to be like everyone else that I some how passed them in many ways and yet in others they're ahead.