Ok. Just for the record it is 4:30 AM as i begin typing this.
So lemme tell the story and see what you guys think.
It is 12:00 AM and i'm heading over the cafeteria to pick up some late night food, as i'm walking this taller skinny asian with rather long hair follows up behind me. Now i only catch a glimpse of the person and then i do a double take. it looks like one of the cute Asian girls i'm friends with.
Turns out he's an exchange student from Hong Kong.
Continue on, get in line to make my order when he is right behind me. Doing what i sometimes do, i start up a chat starting off "you look familiar, like a friend of mine here" and he responds "no don't believe we've met". but he says it in a very soft kinda effeminant voice (note not stereotypical). so I start a conversation between him and I.
Now here's the thing, usually i'm just get the food and go back to my place, but i've talked to him long enough and he seems like a really cool guy i ask if i can join him.
We talk about each other's countries, our lives and histories. At one point though i go into sharing my past relationships - just sharing stories and experiences. I ask him about his and come to find he is gay Get to know how is his relationships have gone and in the process get to know what type of person he is.
Before we know it, the time is 2:30 AM. We've been talking non-stop for almost 3 hours. Mostly about relationships.
The thing is, he has a very feminine looking face, and it's kinda reinforced by his long hair, voice, and even his sort of manners and the way he sits. He's not transgendered but he certainly behaves very feminine. and in retrospect i'm sure i was blushing at points in our conversation.
At the end we exchanged numbers and facebook info. Even got a few texts from him before he went off to sleep for the night.
Here's the thing, i have never ever ever felt this way about another man before, and i'm still sorting out the feelings. but my heartbeat rose in the same fashion my heart beat raises when i'm talking to a girl i really like. In a totally unintentional way.
But to surmise my long conversation with him in a phrase. and I have never uttered these phrase in this way before.
Found him to be very cute.
I'm writing this down to collect my immediate thoughts and feelings. But i think i might have developed a first crush.... on a guy.
Don't think i'm gay I really do love the women, and maybe one of the reasons i'm liking him is for the femininity of his behavior.
I mean gosh.. even the way he laughs. Think of the Japanese anime chick giggling - yeah.
k feeling a bit weirded by this. like i said - has never happend before to me.
Gonna try to get some sleep, see how i feel in the morning.
I've got two female friends who have labeled me "the most heterosexual guy" they've ever known, but I can actually sympathize with you. There's a Japanese drama called Hana Yori Dango (Boys Over Flowers) that featured a guy named Hanazawa Rui portrayed by Ogawa Shun who is, in my estimation, the most attractive man I've ever seen. As the series went on I found myself actually ATTRACTED to him; like you this had never happened to me before and it led to a bit of introspection. Thanks for sharing.