"There's nothing in this evolving universe to hold on to, and nothing to be gained by trying. [...] We're as ephemeral as raindrops. We all fall, and we all land somewhere."

Taken from Spin, by Robert Charles Wilson.

• 16Dec 09

  Heavy Rain.

  Thanks to Jerry I saw this video today.

  I thought it was a very interesting short movie. I fully enjoyed it. I hope you do too.

  I don't know if it has anything to the game, but regardless, video games need to tell stories of this depth/quality. I loved the dialogue. Even if the animations look a bit funky, I forgot for a moment it wasn't a real actress.

  Enjoy!

  • Posted Dec 16, 2009 1:19 am PT
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• 11Dec 09

  Little Lion Man.

  A friend showed me this song/band today and I really liked this song. Not something I normally listen to, but damn this song is catchy. I love it.

  Little Lion Man (some language, get over it).

  Please leave some feedback on it.

  Enjoy!

  • Posted Dec 11, 2009 6:20 am PT
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• 5Dec 09

  Take it with a kiss.

  This weeks song is Take it with a Kiss by The Pistolas. You may have heard it in GTAIV. I think last time I chose "Goodbye my friend" and for the same reason this week I'm choosing this song because of two simple lines. They are:

  I've simply fallen in love and My best and only friend, we've gone and lost again. Those are two very important lines that very easily sum up my life right now. I cannot express how depressed I am, or how much this situation is killing me. Last time I said I would try and be more cheeful, but it's just not working and I'm at my ends-wits here. I don't know what to do. Worst is she still wants to be friends. Apparantly 5 yers of friendship means a lot to her, and "nothing" to me. Obviously that's not true and I'm still not sure she appreciates just what it is I've lost. She's worrying about losing a really good friend, and here I am losing my ONLY friend, my best friend, possibly the best friend I'll ever have, and more importantly the love of my life. To make matters even worse she's stubborn, and a ***** and insists that if I don't want to stay friends well then "that's it. [She'll] never talk to [me] again," compeltely ignorant of how much it wil kill me just to say hi to her and know that I'm not allowed to say "I love you" or ever hear it from her.

  You'd think after 2 years of this situation I'd be used to it, and maybe that's why I haven't cracked altogether, however she gave me a taste of her love, she showed it to me snd for a short while gave me everything I ever wanted and I was actually happy something none of you have ever seen from me, something none of my friends in my entire life, something my family has never seen. So that's why I'm so ****ed up right now.

  I'm just getting this out there, I'd prefer if you tried to focus on commenting on other parts of my blog rather than this. If you must do anything just pray for my soul, or you could come here and Take Me Away.

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  In Team Fortress 2 news I finally got some hats, although they aren't hats I'd like.

  The hat controversy in TF2 has died down now, I think people are finally getting over it. When someone unlocks a hat there'll be a chorus of "Congrats" from other players, as opposed to "I still don't have a hat!" or "You lucky ****! **** you, I **** **** **** hat **** **** your mother **** **** and your sister **** your pet hamster **** etc" (usually my response sans the hamster comment, and I usually add on "As long as she's hot" in regards to their female relatives).

  Anyway, so the two hats I got are the Mining Light for the Engineer, and the Trophy Belt for the Sniper. They're both one of the original 9 hats, and also two of the most boring designs. They're built upon the original hat that came with the model, unlike the other hats which are completely unique. In a sense I'm disappointed that after playing so long I get these hats for cIasses I don't play all to often. They're about middle ground in terms of hours played (I think Engineer is my 4th most played, and Sniper 5th most) however I would have easily prefered a hat for the Medic, Heavy or Soldier. Not only do they have beter hats, but I actually play those cIasses now and would have been able to show them off.

  To top it all off I got the Sniper's hat while playing some silly custom map, and then I got the Engineers helmet yesterday while griefing with the Medic. Yes, I was ruining the game for other people by building up my very needed Ubercharge and then using it on myself and running into the enemy and taunting in from of them before being slaughtered, and I got randomly rewarded for it. Sounds good to me.

  The drop system still hasn't improved. I currently have 16 sadnviches in my backpack, and I'm going to keep collecting them. (I was going to post pictures, but oh well.)

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  The holiday season is coming up, which means I have 3 months to myself. Now, in accordance with the above shennigans I don't have much to do, and I'd like to take a gander at any PC games I may have missed over the last few years, so any suggestions by you lot would be great. (Am I being racist? Who knows )

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  I'm having lunch with my dad today.

  I haven't seen him for 10 years, except maybe once or twice for 30 seconds at a funeral or two.

  I'll repost to comment on this.

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  The lunch is because I turn 21 tomorrow (the 7th). I can't believe I'm 21... Sheesh. I still wish I was 10 years old. As far as my mind and personality go I still am 10 years old, unfortunately I've been thrust into this big bad world of adult issues that are just making me depressed. In America this might be the perfect time to solve all my issues by going out drinking stupidly (drinking age here is 18 ), but obviously I'm not going to do that.

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  Okay, so the main parts I'd like you to comment on are wishing me a happy birthday and telling me how awesome I and my taste in music are, and suggesting some PC games to me.

  Have a good weekend everyone.

  Enjoy!

  • Posted Dec 5, 2009 2:33 am PT
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