My ex has been texting me and wants me to meet him at the mall tomorrow. I'm not sure if I really want to. I'd rather have a different guy, to tell the truth. But sadly, he's an oddball because he's willing to date me even though I'm fat. I wish more guys would date fat girls. Yet, I can't blame them because it's only natural to want what's attractive. Same for me. I'd rather have a thinner man rather than a fatter one.

Oh well. I have just drank lots of beer and need to have more to drown my sorrows in. Maybe I'll read some of my new manga too! YAY!

I finally got Harvest Moon DS Cute! Oh boy, I have a new drug for the next few weeks! It's one of the few things that's better than beer and NyQuil!

Tomorrow I have my figure drawing class. I need to get up around 8:30AM and it's only 5.5 hours until then.....I'm gonna be tired. And I am not in the mood to draw naked old men. Yuck.

I hope I don't run into my ex tomorrow. He's been wanting me to meet him and I don't know why, nor do I trust the little bastard.

So right now it's 1:47 AM and I'm slowly getting drunk. I haven't had any beer for over two weeks so I'm getting drunk faster than normal. I mean hell, I'm only on my fourth beer and I already feel totally relaxed and happy. I could also pass out right now and sleep like a baby.

Bud Lite tastes bad. I wish we had some apple or raspberry Smirnoff, but since I'm underage I can't get it and my parents won't get it for me even if I pay them to. How sad.

I need some sort of other addictive thing. Yes, when Harvest Moon DS Cute comes out later this month, it will be my new drug. Oh boy, I can't wait. I can't get a real boyfriend since guys keep on standing me up and screwing me over, so I guess my little virtual farmgirl will have to give me my virtual boyfriend. YEAH!

I'm also sad because I owe my mom $100 of my next check. Ouch.

Yes, when it rains, it pours. This last week has sucked.

I got stood up by a guy I met at work. I'd love to find him and castrate him.

I also found out I have high blood pressure, weird ear canals, and may have to have my gallbladder removed! JOY!

Oh, and I also had a migraine that lasted all day on my day off. Wow, I just can't seem to have a day off anymore where I'm not sick. I was wanting to go to the mall today to buy some good stuff, but of course I must be sick.

Oh well. It's back to work tomorrow!

Oh yes, what a boring thing life is. Nothing new, nothing to do, nothing to see, no one to see. My two closest friends are alwalys busy with college and work (and so am I). The next party I am invited to is way off in mid-March, so I have nothing to occupy my time or look forward to until then. Blah blah blah.

I skipped my composition class today. I'm a bad girl. But after working for almost 9 hours, I don't want to drive an hour away to sit in in class for 3 hours, then drive an hour home. YUCK.

I wish the guy from the party I was at on Saturday would call me. He was so affectionate and I could use some sweet lovin'. CALL ME D@MMIT!!!! And how the hell could he write down his own phone number wrong?! Was he really THAT drunk? Holy cow....

I wish I felt like playing my DS, but games don't sound fun right now. Guess I could read some smut or something. Yeah, that woudl be fun fun fun.

Life really sucks right now. I broke up with my boyfriend, have nothing to do, owe my mom money, and never get out anymore. *sigh* At least tomorrow is payday, so I can have some cash in case I find some crap I wanna buy. Can you buy boyfriends? Why can't boyfriends come in packages like Twinkies?

Tomorrow is an 8.5 hour day of work. Man, that's gonna be a b*tch. I'm not used to long shifts like that. I hope it's busy. I don't want it to be slow like it was yesterday and just stand at my register most of the day zoning off into boredom.

I'm sad because the kinda-cute guy in my college class didn't talk to me this time. I was hoping to get myself a fresh catch. Oh well. Someday....maybe?