hooh there!

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ey everybody! ... how's everyone? ... thanx, im bad/sad ... i dunno!:?

been a while ... aaam! ... ok! , i was reading novels/ writting many many many lyrics, crying ... i guess!!! and made a song too! ... i dont know it sounds good or not but i did it! ... was bizi with love! ... still bizi with love! and will be!.

"these subjects and moments will continue until ... until ... until ... when!? ... oh! maybe tomara or ever or never ... who knows?!"

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so is there any important news i should know? ... hmmm? ... comon comon! oh and i heared bad new from rio{brazil} there is a big and bad flood in there ... is anyone have news from nachi lobo{flipe neto} ... im really worry about him.

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i love you all ... and i still love mon ange!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

darkness breath!

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***read all the post with a deep and pale voice ... which is sick and lonley!!!***

first of all i have to apologize for desappearing for a few days ... i think a week ... i was alone in home so i desided to regroup the band to practice more in my house ... so we covered two songs from H.I.M band ... and one from empyrium band, ... and we made a song too ... its not completed but the genre is "gothic doom metal" ... and i wrote two lyrices too ... both of them are great in friends opinions!

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AND LOVE SAID NO!:

as all of you know i felt in lov with a girl ... finally i spoke with her ... she's a great lady ... she's to kind in every situation and i believed i could live rest of my life with her.

i sent her a message and asked her ... then i wait for a few days ... she finally answered my message.

before anything i have to say: she answered me like a real lady and i never heared sucha word from a lady before ... .

im not going to tell all the details because it ssso privet ... anyway: she refused my offer ... but so nicely and i dont want to hear any joke from this part ... she refused my offer with great resons and wished a great future for me.

it was a big mlost for me ... i have to handle it well! ... as i cant kill her love in myself so i have to bury it deep inside my heart!!! ... love is the funeral of heart!!!!.

but hopefully she's still a great friend ... because we have many things in comen ... she love anime/ DMC / H.I.M{which is so important}/ anathema / she speak english well,lol !!! / and some other things which im not clearly remembering them!

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DARKNESS BREATH

A REAL STORY:

we went to the mountains again ... but this time we start in the afternoon, ... we went up until night! ... we reach 3000meters upper than sea side and we went to the safe house to rest for the night ... and that was were the darkness breath started!!! ...

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ARASH{me}: its locked! ... why safe house is closed?! ... WTF!

ARIA: so what we gonna do now?

ME: hello!!! anybody there?!?!?! hey! we are here!?!?!

... no sound ... still silent ... just the moonlight ... it was cold! ...

KAVEH: sh it! ... whats happend? this place was always open!

ARIA: let went to city again!

ME: are you nuts?! ... climb down all of these mountains in the night?! ... i'll stay here and you will stay too!

ARIA: no i will not sleep here in the outside ... with no safty!

KAVEH: but i think we can stay

it was getting darker every seconds ... and colder! ... .

we spoke for a few minutes and we desided to went to the city ... but i was still disagree with them ... i was anxious!

before i made first step i heared something ... HOLY $HIT! ... $HIT $HIT $HIT! ... what we gonna do now?!

AUOOOOOOOOO! .... AUOOOOOOOO!{wolf} ... AUOOOOOOO! ... they getting more and more every seconds ...

AUOOOOOOOO ... i think they were five or maybe six!

ARIA: what thaaaaaa ... what we gonna do now?!?!? ... im not comming down!

ME: heh ... he a ... he ... a'a ... he 'a a {climbing the safe house wall} ... comon guys ... what do you waithing for?!

***i was hearing their breaths ... theyre getting ssso close!***

hopfully my friends climb the wall fast like me and we survived ... hufffffff! ... that was close!

and funny thing is that BAS#%$#% in the safe house didnt opended the door and when we climb the wall he finally understand what was happening!

so we rent three beds abd rest all the night and next day ... when i woke up i didnt believe i was still alive and survive from being wolfs dinner! so took these pics

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and when we went upper i took these shotes from what we made and what we've done!

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and heres the new member of our band and our new friends ... the guy with hat and pink shirt,he's gay by the way!

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and this is me and him

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i love you all ... but dont know how to handle whats happend t me!

born to be wwwild {3}

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hi ladyys and genntellman!

todaaaaay i bought some animation when i was coming home from the mmountains!

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so heres the list of them:

Anastasia.

Apple seed: "exmachina".

Tokyo Godfather.

How to train your dragon.

eeeerrrrrr ... i dont know the name of this one because its an japanes title which have a japanes name too but the director is: "koichi chigira.

The lord of the ring.

so i think anastasia will be the greatest on ... what do you think? which one i have to see first?.

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i was ssso tierd when i was coming back from mountains ... it was a great day.

i didnt climb up so high this time ... just tried some new ways out of the main way and i was so great because it was ssso hard to climb those big rocks but finally i reach a great point and i wassiting here.

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{why this pic uploaded like this? oh damn!}

and i was looking at

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then after a few minutes i desided to went upper and siton a big rock which was sso higher than grownd ... like a red skin,lol.{but im a viking,lol.}

first i afraid then it got usual and i was moving for myself like awolf! ,lol, ... i wasn afraid anymore and that was awsome.

it was great ... no sound ... just the voice of a dog which was far from my place and wind was blowing ... it touch my skin softly and makes me feel new ... i took meny deep briths.

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in the way of backing home i was sleeping all the way ...

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i love you all ... im getting sso close to find my love ... she's a sweet 666.

born to be wild {2}

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no... this time i didnt fired myself from anywhere ,lol.

last night i was watching new robin hood movie ... you know!? when i headed for buying a movie i was sure that i will not buy this one but the seller said its a new way of telling the story of this man.

i said: im getting sickof the same robin hood which they live in forest and hunting federal moneys ... its good but enough!

he said: no! its not like those movies! if you didnt love this movie give it back to me!

so i bought it and after watching it, i understood what he said ... this long movie {3:20/30} was great and better than any robin in the hood before!!!

i can give this movie a 20 out of 10!

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today we went out with my friend after a few weeks ... it was great to be this much free after that f ucking job that didnt let me even to chat with my friend in Gspot.

we went to one of the greatest park in the city ... its a great park for us because there is no sounds like cars and ... in it.

so great and dark by the way ... at the night just a few peopls coming there for sport ... my friend got some pic from me ... i didnt know why he was this much despert to take them but now i using them too,lol.

its in my images ... if you want to see, just take a look!

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thing are getting better for me these days ... not so much betterbut it shaked a little ... i will go to frech class again.

i will work more with my awful guitar ... i will work more with it anyway!

i will start learning 3D again ... this time syler4815162324 will help me too.

now i will go to the mountains 3 times in a week ... its good for me!

and i will write more review even your not reading them.

i wrote a review for medal of honor but no one still read it ... !

i wishing ...someone read it!

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i love you all ... lovers! lovers! help me find my love!

born to be wild!!!!

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yeah! ... i born to be wild ... i cant handle a cage or a room! ... i cant follow every rules ... i cant live like a robot ... i cant say yes to upper hands for ever ... im not a pig and im not following the rules anymore!

why? what i mean?

"PARAMORE"

"singing"

i can feel the pressure now

it getting closer!

watch my pressure:

http://www.4shared.com/video/R0jZBGHf/paramore_-_pressure.htm

so yeah ... watched the video?

i FIRED myself.

you know?! ... sometimes when i got tiered of working in that shopping center, i came out and i watched the mountains from the roof of there ... it was a great view when i saw the mountains ...

last three days i was speaking with my boss for a complete off day each week ... i have many works to do but he refused,

i spok many times but he didnt want to understand!!! i was the best man in the shope ... all of the shope keys were with me, i was checking moneys at night and all the things that you know is important in a shope wereblong tome but he didnt even understand what im saying!.

many books to read for my exam next year ... over 30 books and i canceld my french c lass because of my work but he's not understanding ... he only care about f ucking money!.

so yesterday he said: go to garage and pick up those things i bought and carry them here ... hurry up! we have many works to do!

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i said to the seller who was standing near me: im not going to come back ... say it to him! say: prepear my money! ... i will come back tomorrow to get rest of my moneys! ...

"that day and in last two days he spoke so bad with me because of one off day subject that i wanted"

i went to elevator ... went to "floor -3" ... went to the other side of garage ... take another elevator to G floor and came out of there!.

five mins later he called me ... i rejected to answer ... he called me 8 times ... .

hell! ... get my number! ... get my f ucking number ... b astered!

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just a few min later i found a new job ... a semi time job which is ssso much better for me.

its a great store in the same shopping center, its belong to two persons ... theyre married and both of them are great artict ... they have a shope with some great arts on wood ... most of things they selling are made of woods ... like status, faces, and many other gothic things like eskandinavia gods and ...

from a few days later i will work there.

now i have time to read my roman{the host} ... he didnt let me read it in the afternoon between 2 to 4 {when no one is in the store} ... but now i have time for that.

i can go to mountains often.

i cant be more active on the spot.

i can read those books for my exam.

i can play games.

i can make melodys and writting lyrics for them.

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hooo ... now i think its more like living.

but not yet because:

I BORN TO BE WILD and live in a great enviorment beside of a forest near mountains ... somewhere which is always grey ... cloudy ... rainy ... floggy ... snow ... forest ... yes!

COMING OUT IN THE RAIN ..... A DISTANCE THERE IS!!!

heres my distance:

http://www.4shared.com/audio/jH4qZOKi/Theatre_Of_Tragedy_-_A_Distanc.htm

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i love you all ... i have more time to find my love now!

grey week

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yep!!! its been a wil that i didnt post anything ... after my sadest birthday i didnt in great mood until last week which ... after a few days weather changed fast and it got cloudy ... greyyy ... it was just like my banner and rain were falling for aloms a week and in last 3 days it was floggy too! i love grey weather!!! i love clouds and rain ... i was out of home all of these days ... and last day i went to the mountain which was awsome and so gothic!!!!! it was just me and my friend with mountains, flog and trees ... wooo hoho ... that was a great day in 3500 meter upper than sea side .... . i listened to many songs which call "rain songs" for me: "islander" fron nightwish. "a distance there is..." from theatre of tragedy. a song from "epica" which i dont know the name. "lacrimosa" from virgin black. and some other songs and the winner of rain and coldness and clouds is "A DISTANCE THERE IS ..." ... its a great song and each one of you have to listen to it, its a great song! ... im i wrong devan? it was a great week after all because of other things too ... i bought: catlevania: lord of shadows. NHL 11. MEDAL OF HONOR. FIFA 11. ARCANIA: gothic 4. ETERNAL SONATA. shaun white: skate boarding. FABLE 3. vanquish. and i bought over 17 movies ... i didnt bought them all ... some of them is my friend movies which i took them from him! shaun of the dead{funny}. sintel{short animation} april showers{dram} the ghost writter{dram}. the fall{dram}. franklyn{old roman}. the duchess{old roman}. leap year{dram}. the pianist{world war story}. dragon quest{LOTR copy!!!}. ... i dont want to make a big list so let it end here,lol. and i bought "GARSHASP" game. its iranian first cirius game project and it have three part and part one is out now ... its a game from the old storys of iran ... its like vikings words and a little like catlevania world ... its a historical game at all with old arts element in iran like monsters and witches which you see in games with gothic thems like dragon age and ... but its an action game{3th person} and its close to GOW in many ways {control}. its a normal game at all and not bad for fist step. but it was so much better if it was RPG ... in that ways they had many more opertunity to make a better game than what we seeing now ... hope it change fron next part! ############# it was grey week which i still wait for my love to show her self again ... from now waiting is all i've got!!!! . . . i love you all ... rain and coldness is my sorrow now.

sad birthday ... so sad ... !!!

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hheeehhh ...

i connected to internet ... search gamespot ... saw the home page ... made a blog for myself ... grow up ... up ... up ... i got level 12 ... then my blog banned ... i started again ... banned again ... i start again ... it worked!!!

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today was my birthday ... i born in a day like this 20 years ago! ... what? ... 20 years? ... what the hells happend?! ... how i get 20? ... i though i must be 18!!!.

some guys say: life gones fast ... i could not believe how fast it gone!!!!.

in my opinion days are the same ... each day with 24 hour ... each hour with 60 minutes ... each minutes with 60 seconds and ... but when you look at your past you will not remember many things ... so you think it gone ffast!!! ... we're always loosing the game agains the time ... it always win. ... we always lost track of time ... .

it was just a birthday day!!! a day like yesterday ... yesterday was like last day... last like another last.

no one even me didnt know its my birthday ... even mom and dad ... no one but time! ... it win again!!!

when i got to work i found out its my birthday! when i saw the calender ... the f ucking calender which told me youre a complete 20 years boy!!! ... nooooooo.

you know? ... its so hard for me to believe because childhood years in here is not even close to other countrys in west! ... its hard ... so hard ... like you register in army and you need to learn fast ...

anyway! today was my birthday ... a birthday with the most sick boy in the street ... i was sleeping in bus station for a hour today ... i was thinking about why no one send me a birthday message ... even a message.

just a message from a girl in our family ... she's my mother sister,lol. ... she's 27 and inour big family she's the only person whounderstand me!

i love her and i send my love to her from here.

this afternoon i called makan! {syler481...} and i said: please sing happybirthday song for me!!!" ... no one did it yet! ... hey im here! ... im 20 years old ... 20 years for nothing ... 20 years to know you have to leave your father{iran-my country-} ... .

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so why i tried to get to spot again?! three times?! ... because finally i found another friend in otherside of world ... a real friend and i found a friendly place ... its my and your blogs ... .

finally i understand there is someone els in america who can understand me ... i have two friends ... not just one ... and that was awsome and still awsome.

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because of these things i opened my heart here many timesand say my good part and sad part of my life to you mates!

i still dont know how i become 20! ... .

i still cant believe mom and dad forget about it ... but i can explain it with stress of modern life, i remember in old days we were a lovely family ... sometimes all the parts of familly got together in some partys ... but this kinda partys didnt happend in last year and this half year ... pffff ... surly its because of money, fast food, streets, cars, rent, ... {modern life calture } ... it make us forget about who we are! ...

i think i spoke anough ... now i feel better!

just do me a favore and sing happybirthday to me!!!!!

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i love you all ... i still could not find my heart!!!!

lovequish!

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its been a week ...i cant no longer stay here and wait for her to come ... i will go to art university.

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as all of you knows i have alittle time these days for game and game news, making music, ... .

so i bought bazinama magazin this month{its the best game magazin in iran as i noticed before}.

it have two dvd with it too {like always} and i watched the demos ... it have so many new news for me, i dont have a great connection so its great to seee 30 demos in a hour.

let start:

ALAN WAKE "the writer":

its a DLC for alan wake ... one of the best games ever{in my opinion}.

it doesnt looks to have a new great story ... just some new missions and new gameplay.

its fair to buy it with MS point i think.

BASTION:

its a xbox live game and its look fantastic .... its a little like fat princess and have a great gameplay.

the world will build during your move in the map and for sure this game have RPG elemnts too.

BIOSHOCK "infinite":

a new bio shock is coming ... its no longer dark and cold and ... , this time you dont have to fight with ocean ... you have to stand agains the sky ... its INFINITE.

COSTUME QUEST:

another game from duble fine ... master fisher done a new job for holyday to make a better scary partty ... this hallowin with a new game from duble fine ... real monsters agains the child with scary maskes.

DEATH SPANK:

who liked the dragon age will like this game too ... its a funny game but very pro in my opinion.

they make a new cover by dragon age cover too ... its really funny and great,

everyone have to try it.

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DEVIL MAY CRY:

what ... is ... your ... name?

i ask you again: what ... is ... your ... name?

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IM DANTE!

anybody have question about this game?! ... i think we all know DMC is always great!

INFAMOUS II:

i really didnt liked the first one but this new game looking so much better and differend.

new gameplay and enemys looking awsome... i love this game this time.

LYLIAN:

nothing showed really ... its just looks interesting!

NFS "hot pursuit":

a new NFS comes to help this frenchiz from falling and this time burn out makers got involved ... this year we will see a great NEED FOR SPEED ... not just from a 0 to 100!!!!!!

this year they have a big enemy too ... "test drive"

WITCHER II:

wolf will experienc a new story this time ...

this time witcher will be so smoother and have more option by rpg elements.

game will have more than 15 way to finished ... so it will be great.

they made a new engine for this game and it will released for 360 and ps3 too.

its a really hard rpg game ... i idnt played any rpg as hard as witcher ... so prepear yourself for a real war!!!

and now ...

VANQUISH:

i had high hopes on this game and still have ... you know?! these days we have so many games which looking good and when you experiencing them you will see how awful they are{mafia 2}.

so i said: i have to wait until this game released ... but now and after i watched the new demo {gameplay} i have to say

FOR SURE THIS GAME WILL ROCK.

its remind me

halo

metal gear and

gears of war ...

vanquish for sure Neon Ninja!!!

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HOWL'S MOVING CASTLE:

i just watched this animation a few minutes ago and i have to say it was great and i loved the story and genre of this animation ... its remind me "ansherly" serial movie.

i loved ansherly andstill love ansherly animation so when i watched this new movie "howl's moving castle" ... its was like a new version from ansherly

thanx to UP.moose ... i had three animation to watched and he said ... howl's moving castle is awsome so i watched it first and im glad by what i done!

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anyway this blog is going to end ... just wish best lucks for me ... i will go to art university in next two days ... i hope i can find her and ...

i love you all ... where is my heart?!?!?!

antiroot!

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after getting no helps from each one of you guys ... yes i mean you and you and you ... except syler and NeonNinja ... who giving me something ... syler said find a new job which is not good for me and neon ninja gave the best answer ... "my ways are mine ... find your own". ################# before any writing i want to offering this blog to my master ... the person who teach me love is the best part of every story and it will never become a root ... love is antiroot ... so i offering this blog to my master: STEPHENIE MEYER . . . just a day after i post my blog here i tried to change anything that i could. i go to work from a new way ... i try to go from another ways and take a taxi to work. i didnt just have my lunch this time ... i was holding "THE HOST" book from stephenie meyer in my hand too. i tried to change my way about how i manage the shope ... new methods ... . i tried to read the host book in my free times there. . . . looks like my star of fate knew how hard it is for me to manage an awful root like this ... wake up 8 in the morning ... bla bla bla, so my star of fate put something in my way which makes me ... makes me ... i dont know. i just get to work that day ... it was differend from the first seconds ... i got my flash memory with myself and i had many of my fav songs on it to listen with the system in the shope ... im one of the basic persons there now ... just after two weeks so no one can be disagree with my songs ... i start playing them{gothics/melodic/symphonic/heavy/punk rocks and metal}. some other persons love the songs too ... after that we had an energitic day which i could not believe ... in the afternoon everythings become so usual but a person ... a person change everything about my life!!!! "deep breath" im an old school boy ... i didnt have any girlfriend until now ... because i didnt want to try as many as i can!!! some of the persons who is close to me know how i feels about girls{on the GS just "uglypinkmoose" and in here-iran- just one person} i just want to fall in love once and for real! ... i know my self in this way, there is no second chance for me in love.{im sure}. . . . a girl with two of her friends come to shope ... suddenly my heart feel an unusual pain ... . ME: ohhhh god! whats happend{said in my mind}. my mouth freezed ... i could not speak ... my heart was biting so fast ... i could not feel anythin inside my chest ... i feel so hot. it was like some one take out everything from my chest and then punch me thrue my chest so hard ... as hard as he could. others understood im not on my way ... they start to speak with that girl ... i didnt know whats happend ... i just know that girl didnt bought the hate she wants because she didnt had enough money... . i didnt speak a word for next 30 minutes ... i didnt know whats happend to me ... why im ... .... ?!?!?! first i tought its because she is the student of art university ... i didnt know i can go to that university too ... so i didnt go to university this year .... to try that university for next year{i have to get a good number in art final exams} but it wasnt for that ... i know many guys who is in that university ... but i didnt become like this!!! i had to be true to myself ... I FINALLY FELT IN LOVE. that girl wasnt there anymore ... i said my feeling to my closest man there{he's a musician too} ... he said: why you didnt tell me?! ... i could speak with her for you! ... ME: man i didnt know whats happend to me. . . . that day gones ... everyone told me: she will come back. in the way of back i was so happy ... she will come back. *#*#*#*#*# next day gone but she didnt come! ... and next day gone too ... i could not resist this waiting ... so i made a plan **************** "BIG FISH" STORY: many of you watched "big fish" movie and know how main character felt in love and found his love! so this is my plan: i will wait until the last day of this week ... after that i will not wait anymore. hopfully i know her university at last! ... each week i have a half day off for my job ... i will spend my half days from next week to find her in university of art ... its far from home but there is no other way ... i have to try. sooo there is not a day like other anymore ... waiting for love is so hard and its not like anything ... its not even like yesterday ... its getting more powerful each day ... . . . i love you all ... you know whats happend to my heart!

bekesh biroon az man!

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hey everyone! ... how you doing? bekesh biroon az man is a persian sentes which mean: "GET LOST FROM INSIDE OF ME" as many of you knows im really bizi these days ... i could not even turn on my consoles ... its been like this for almost two weeks. this is how my days going on and finished: i wake up 8 in the morning .... eating something ... get to work ... eat lunch ... coming home ... coming to gs and after that i sleep. i wake up 8 in the morning ... eating something ... get to work ... eat lunch ... coming home ... coming to GS and after that i sleep. i wake up 8 in the morning ... eating something ... go to class ... eat lunch ... get to work ... coming home ... coming to GS and after that i sleep. i wake up 8 in the morning ... eating something ... get to work ... eat lunch ... coming home ... coming to GS and after that i sleep. i wake up 8 in the morning ... eating something ... OK ...i think i dont have to tell the story of each day! ... its look like there is a line of days and im killing them one by one ... pfffff!!!. i hate root! ... but now im the one of the worsest roots ever ... ordinary weeks ... ordinary days ... its because of the new job ... its a modern world job ... which makes you a pig who have to just say: yes, i will do it!!!! i always loved to be far away from civilization and modern world sickness!!!! ... but now im in middle of it! ... wha? ... !!!. its looks like im not a human anymore ... until yesterday i laughed to these kinda peoples but now im one of those mans!. but i have no other ways ... as some of you know we{ me and my friend } have a gothic metal band ...now we need some new instuments ... keyboard{yamaha 1000} and an acoustic guitar ... we dont have enough money and these two takes more than 750 $ so i have to work ... no other ways ... capitalism devil won this time. now i have to break this root with anything that can help ... anything but ordinary. for this i bought NFL 11 which i dont know anything about the rules of it ... i just bought it because i liked this game and i have to take any chance to break this root ... for now its looks like someone els taking control of my body ... im a robot for now! just following the orders and its more painful than killing me five times each days(really). do you have any opinion for breaking this root? ... im bizi every day from 9:30 in the morning until 10 in the night ... what do you think i can do? help me! dont let this super massive black hole kill me!!!! nooooooooooooooooooooo . . . . i love you all ... but i hate root and ordinary days!

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