Everytime I come to this place I cringe. I don't know why, but something is getting to me. It the felling that I'm missing what life is really about. This place has been goo to me in a lot of ways. I made great accomplishments here and Some great friends. It's just that every time I enter a thread hear at GS, the fun of posting is zapped out of it by people who love to argue why their fanboy logic as perfect, and why their supported system is going to come out on top and win a superficial war of some kind. I don't know, but it makes me feel like my topics and posting has some how become irrelevant and no longer needed. It makes me feel like I have outgrown the silliness that is gaming. The need to feel like you have to be a great fan of something that is really useless and not at all that important to life. Maybe I'm loosing my gaming stripes, or my will to compete in this community environment.
Over the past couple of years I made great achievements. I started the first ever DS forum on GS, and For a while it was a very popular place that others felt like they discovered.
I tried to create a place where people felt good about connecting DS to DS when the Wi Fi service came about. It was not as popular as the DS forum was.
I bought ON to the forefront, back when Nintendo was announcing the Revolution. I regret ever doing that. I also followed the Broken Saints Blog, which I also regret doing.
And then I was Perm banned for a link in my sig.
Since then I restated myself as overfiend, retook control of the Nintendo Wi Fi Clans Union Now just know as the Nintendo Clans. and just kinda been a passive poster here at the community. Yet I just feel like it's no longer worth it to continue posting thoughts and feelings about games. Most of my friends here have grown up and moved on to other things, and I just don't feel like I have moved on to improve myself much. I very much love the work I do as an artist, however I don't think it touches many as it does me. Maybe it's the content a worked that has grow to be a staple of life in what you are. Or maybe its just the skill. What I do is not the master skill people want. All I know is that failure is a ***** and It hurts to be involve in it. Maybe all of the masters in life already lived, or maybe entrepreneurship just took it over. All I know is that my passion has been my art, and when I can't put pencil to paper to make something creative, I feel dead to the world.
Thanks for reading to the ramblings of a 29 year of artist and old style gamer. Maybe tomorrow I will feel differently.