As many people know, this fall has seen an extremely large number of high profile, high budget and arguably high quality games hit the market, in my case, my pc. Unluckily, im a struggling 16 year-old college student stuck right in the middle of it, and i have gained an addiction....to the buying and never-ending playing of games!
in the past couple of months, I have bought Bioshock (£25), Company of Heroes: Opposing Fronts(£25), Colin McRae DiRT (£20), Call of Duty 2 (£15), World in Conflict (£20) BFME2 collectors edition (£20), Rainbow Six Vegas (£15) and I have just ordered Gears of war from play.com (£27) and will be picking up my pre-ordered copy of Call of Duty 4 from Game tomorrow when it hits the shelves over here in England (£30)...
Ok, so over the past 2-3 months iv spent just under £200, which lead me to realise the horrifying truth that I have an addiction to PC games...
after looking through the trusty "12 steps to recovery" I realised that I don't think ill ever slip past step 6, condemning myself to an entire lifetime of the uncontrolled purchase of games, but here is where I have got so far:
Step 1: We admitted we were powerless against games - that our lives had become unmanageable.
I have realised what my problem is, and being a full time college student, im kind of stuck in a never ending battle between slugging over my Physics coursework or nuking pesky Russians on world in conflict. Now that's what I call unmanageable.
Step 2: Came to believe that a power greater than us could restore us to sanity.
Just got my first college report, whilst mainly good, there were a lot of comments regarding the phrase "should do more working at home". I think this is god sending me a message...
Step 3: Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood him
Step 4: Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of myself
"Moral Inventory is a "fact-finding and fact-facing" process
I found out the fact that my bank balance is not going to withstand my constant attempts to buy crisis on release, I then faced the fact and broke down weeping....
Step 5: Admitted to god, to ourselves and to another human being the exact nature of our wrongs
Well, I told my mate during a lunch break, he laughed and we then went to Game where I snagged World in Conflict for a very tasty £20...shame on me!
Ok, so here's the tricky part, so far I have been unable to get past this step, this obstacle...its just too hard to get over!
Step 6: were entirely ready to have god remove all these defects of character
No! just no! How can I??? just look at what's coming up, Crysis, unreal tournament 3 and later assassins creed, followed by Starcraft 2, the very game I have lived for these past few years...what can I do? What is there to do?
It seems I'm stuck in a rut, while I'm a terrible games addict, I just cant knock the habit yet...I dunno, maybe If I leave it until next November...I might find something else to occupy myself with, is anyone else here a ravenous gaming addict?