While I keep other weblogs outside of Gamespot I thought I’d try out the Gamespot journal system here. I don’t know if anyone would read it or how they’d find it.
I wish I worked in the gaming industry. I could work anywhere in it and I think I’d likely be pleased if my work had something directly to do with gaming. In particular I’d like to work in the gaming media as I enjoy writing about and discussing games just as much as playing them.
Having said all that much of this journal entry is about obstacles that would keep me from achieving, and perusing my wish to work in the gaming media and / or industry presented in no particular order.
I have a job and some semblance of a life and as such time is an issue. This week I’ll be working a nice 60 hours. Now that isn’t every week but such weeks (even regular ones) leave little time for playing games as I did when I was younger. I don’t have the time to play, write, or read about games as much as I feel I should. I go through a smattering here or there of periods intense gaming and writing, while other times, I do very little of either.
Toss in maintaining a relationship with my SO (by no means a burden but it takes time) and there’s not nearly the amount of time I wish I had to game, write, and improve my writing.
Starting Over Is Hard To Do
As I noted I work. I consider myself well paid being that I’m able to save for the future, bought myself a house about a year ago, and I’m able to do most of the things I want to do within reason. While I certainly am not doing my dream job I also do not hate it. I work with good people and there is some satisfaction I derive from it. Being well into a career saving for a family and such I can’t imagine starting over at an entry level job.
I can imagine that’s the entry rout as I would think there’s a lot of competition for such gaming media jobs as it is, and thus it’s unlikely for me to just plop down in a good position. This would seem to direct me to freelance work but even that I’m not sure how much demand there is as gaming media outlets seem to have a lot of permanent staff.
I Don’t Live On The Coast
I love where I live. The Twin Cities is a wonderful place and I recently bought a house there. Unfortunately for me most gaming media companies exist out west. As far as I know my local area is not a hotbed of anything gaming (other than my house ;)). Again more of a personal preference issue with me. It is one of the larger obstacles in my mind. One I might not ever overcome.
I Can’t Write
I’m rarely satisfied with my writing. I freely admit at times it is total crap. I have an issue with writing and rewriting my work into irrelevant parenthetical nonsense. I’ll start writing a review, get something nice in there and when rereading “oh damn I should have said something about that”. Then I edit and rewrite, and more often than not it is down hill from there. Most of the time salvaging my work involves rewriting from scratch. While not the end of the world it does take time. No doubt regular practice would help there, at least I think so.
In the end I recognize that much of this is more an issue of me taking the steps and making the sacrifices to see if I can get there rather than anything else.
Now where’s my cake? I’d like to eat it too.