so i'm crying like a bltch over a 2 months relaionship which came to an end today.i almost begged her not to leave me at this point. i asked whether there is anything i could do to fix it and she just kept repeating her "no"es. i knew she once cared about this relationship and i just don't understand why she stopped caring all of a sudden! that aside; i also have no idea what's happening to me, i used to believe that i was an apathetic **** and i was quite proud of it and look at me now!ol i've never felt this weak ever!
i can't think of anything else but her, i don't know where to go, nor do i have anyone to talk to, and i'm too embarrassed to tell my friends that i'm actually crying over such a short lived relaionship. guess she was more than just a girlfriend to me. she was my only getaway of this loneliness and boredom. she made me feel hope once again and i just can't get over all of these now. yeah! i'm such a loser. not sure why i'm posting this here,guess i just needed to save this moment right now for i'm going to feel numb for months and i'm afraid i've got to get back on medication once again. i just wish i could get back in time and kiss her while i had the chance.