It really was. I've blogged on this site for what, almost 6 years? I can't tell because, as I write this, I can no longer see my sign up date. As one of Gamespot's most prolific bloggers and most active site users; i.e. Spotters, I defended this site. I rose up against detractors and tried to keep tensions down. Even @DigitalDame said she thought I was a Ranger and, since I wasn't, that it seemed like an oversight.
The truth is I'm tired. I'm so tired of waiting for people to do right. It's not Synthia's fault, in fact she's maybe the only staffer I've noticed stand up for us. The fact is CBS just doesn't care about the Gamespot Brand as it relates to community. They gutted the social structure of the site and they've not replaced it with anything meaningful. Now I feel like an idiot for standing up for this site when they talked about a redesign. I participated in the beta and I tried my best to calm the fears of the Spotter populace but it turns out I was wrong. I was wrong to defend Lark and the redesign. He was killing the site; killing me softly and I just went along like a good little sheep.
I wish I had an alternative. The truth is I don't. There is NO PLACE like what Gamespot was. I mostly get my news from Kotaku now; the unlikable personalities delivering news here just don't cut it anymore, especially since now they regurgitate what I read elsewhere. I don't check reviews here anymore either: I never cared for KVO's opinions, Carolyn drifts off target too often... against the grain I always respected McShea but, once more, a host of unlikable personalities is not a draw for the site. I don't come here for videos; I find the humor in Feedbackula droll. I came here; I spent 8 hours a day, 5 days a week on this site for one reason...
The community. That tiny population still here reading this tripe right now. Nearly everyone is gone. Those that are left (what soldiers you are!) I cant even find your blogs without developing a migrane. So I'm tired. I'm tired of wasted hope, tired of waiting for a cavalry that is never going to come. I'm sorry Synthia. I feel like I owe you an apology, but I just can't fight anymore. You are the best of them and I truly mean that. CBS got what they wanted, I guess. They stripped out the community and strangled what remained.
I'll check in once in a while, maybe in a month, in the vain hope that CBS will see the error of their ways. The rebel in me encourages those of you who feel like I do to do the same; they choked us out, why not choke them out? This is not goodbye forever, but I'll not continue to give Gamespot traffic every day in reward for f*cking us over.
I miss all of you,