Hey…yeah I know it's been quite a long time since I last blogged. To begin things off, I have been on a hiatus for quite a while, whether or not you have noticed my huge lack of activity for the past few months, or just been busy with other things as well. I am just listing my reasons for my absence.
"Time heal all wounds."
Estancia…means stay in Spanish. Do you ever wish that your life is so good that you want it tostay the same...forever?
I have gone through pain, grief, trouble, and even new beginnings to make it this far but now I need to know, how all of this will end.
In May of this year, everything was according to plan, prom, school being over, and finally my graduation. Things were bright and hopeful, you know like nothing can go wrong….right? Well, that's when my life completely went downhill and made a big change…in everything I see. On the night May 17th, to the morning of the 18th, it was early morning, my grandmother was seriously ill, I was knocked out, and I could not hear anything, it was not until she turned on the lights and called out her friend and me to help her. She said: "Help me…" she collapses, my eyes were in shock, I dashed to her and tried to pick her up with her friend helping me. She said; "The pain is unbearable, call an ambulance," she kept breathing heavly, and looks like cannot breath, she collapses again because we are not strong enough to pick her up, she was heavier for some reason. She kept calling my name, and she said "I cannot see…Marvin, Marvin, Marvin…" I said, "Grandma, grandma, everything will be all right ok? I am here for you grandma…just don't pass out on me." As she could not stop breathing, my mom came in and said "Mom, don't worry I am here, I am here. I love you, I love you." Eventually, the ambulance came, as the workers put her into treatment, and we moved everything out of the way to make the path clear up. Eventually, we got out of the house and put her in a wheelchair, "oh my god….oh my god…" as she strives to breathe. She got into the ambulance with her friend, and I went to the car with my mom, and my sisters, we all went and left the house and went to the hospital. As the doctors put her in the emergency room, the nurse asked us to fill in her information, as we turned in with all the possible information we can possibly give out, we waited. We all preyed, we all hoped that things will be ok, so we can go home and I can give her a cup of coffee to start out her morning. About half an hour later, the nurse allowed us to sit down near the emergency room, and the doctor came out. He had a very unfortunate face, and said. "I have some very bad news. Ms. Ramirez died." When I heard those words…my face was in the state of shock…I did not see this coming, my mom my sister were in grief and in crying. My grandmas friend said: "Oh S*** no…this cannot be.." all of us called in other people to let them know the bad news and life changing event. Everyone had a bad morning, as we saw her body, and we said our final regards in that room, we all left in pain, and grief.
*Time skip to after the funeral*
It's been nearly 4 months now since her death, however a lot has changed, I am not longer the guy who likes to fool around, her death became an unforgettable, and even a pain that will never be healed for me, 3 months after I graduated from high school. So, yeah I am in college, I took summer c!asses, and I am doing good right now. I only have 1 course but 2 days a week. Not a bad deal considering I got 8 credits, and this will be my 12th for the semester.
*Insert song to my grandmother* 0:30
Yeah, a lot has changed, I have gotten stronger from this painful experience, and I have a feeling that my life will only get more difficult later on. All I know is that my grandmother is with me, all the times we went together, and her last words to me will not be in vein.
Well, from the past, to now I have finally got back on photoshop and made a few new sigs and got my theme updates, the banner is Saya from the anime Blood+, and the header is Altiair from Assassins Creed. Tell me what you think? Next blog I will display them and I will talk about games, and…even anime?! I got back into anime yes….:P
Good to be back on gspot…hope you guys can hear me…
Artist: Bill Elm & Woody Jackson
"May the winds of fortune may blow at your side"
Catch ya later…