I am still getting used to the new Gamespot so, let's see if this blog about nothing works.
Sometimes I want to write about a topic but the process of putting words down on paper doesn’t come easily for me. See, just like that. This is the computer age so I don’t really write with paper and pen any more so this is the process I go through to more accurately reflect what I want to say. I consider writing “screen” instead of “paper” and then replace that with “document”. Then I would try to word it completely differently and end up putting my sentences in a different order. I type and delete, cut and paste, until my thoughts get all twisted and I get myself completely off topic. So what usually happens is that the words in my brain never make it to the page. It doesn’t matter if I want to write a blog, a journal entry, a review or even just make a comment on what someone else has written. My words end up a tortuous mess and I get so frustrated that I usually give up.
Like this bit of writing. I was originally going to blog about gaming. I had planned to compare my reaction to the game Gone Home versus my reaction to GTA V. I thought to tie that in to the comments and discussions to the reviews on Gamespot of both those games. I chose those games because both reviews were written by the same reviewer, Carolyn Petit. But I got all tangled up in that and tried to clarify my thoughts by explaining how I have to put myself in the position of the protagonist in order to like a game. While I was struggling with that, I realized that an individual gamer’s perspective of a game is tied to the personal history and experiences.
So I thought I would change my blog to how the “old geezers” of gaming look at video games differently those who grew up mainly using the PS2/PS3 and the XBox/360. Then I thought to personalize it by explaining how being a “cold war veteran” made me look at Fallout 3 differently than most people playing that game. I had gotten completely bogged down while writing that when I read a blog about survival horror games. And in turn, that reminded me of how important atmospherics can be in a game. Which made me think about Fallout 3 again, which brought me back to how I have to put myself in the position of the protagonist in order to like a game, which circled right back around to my reactions to Gone Home and GTA V.
By this point, I had bits and pieces of around four or five different blogs saved in a document called “blog ideas” but I didn’t have anything worth posting. Very frustrating! And so I have a blog about nothing.