Alright, I composed the following as a stream of consciousness analysing some issues which have been playing on my mind lately. It's entirely unedited save for some formatting and removal of personal details, so there bound to be some type errors; also bear in mind that this wasn't written for publication, which is really more of an afterthought (or maybe a desire for attention... I'll examine that later). There's also possibly some stuff against the content guidelines... report if you want, but I don't care. If I'm banned for it, I'll take it somewhere a bit more lenient. Anyway, without further ado, here goes:
All is in vain if the mind is a blunt tool.
the mind must therefore not be allowed to grow blunt.
What makes the mind grow blunt, though?
- Lack of sleep.
- Lack of exercise.
- Lack of proper stimulation.
- Other physical debilitations.
Of this list, I am afflicted by all but the fourth. This must be remedied.
Dealing with each in turn:
- Lack of sleep.
I must develop a proper sleeping pattern. Five or six hours seems a discredited figure for my current state. Seven is perhaps a wiser target. I should wake up at 7 o'clock. Ergo, I must be asleep by midnight. With this in mind, I should leave the computer for bed by 23.30. Even with this, it is still unlikely I will get 7 hours average per night. Estimate half an hour lost each weeknight. Counting Friday and Sunday as weeknights, this makes 6 week nights, so three hours lost sleep. Therefore this will have to be made up Saturday night. Assuming wake up 10 o'clock on Sunday takes us back once again to midnight. And so it works out that I should go to bed at the same time on all nights.
Can this be managed? Perhaps I should revise the figure down again to 6 hours... that might create a more workable model, provided I am stringent in not abusing this target.
I shall return... for now I must indulge my family and watch Merlin. Sigh.
So, 6 hours. (We shall say nothing of the awfulness which is Merlin.) How would that work out?
Counting back from 07:00, that's 01:00. So that would leave us with the current system... off computer by midnight. That would give an hour for getting to sleep... as well as fapping beforehand. Only, it doesn't seem to be working... I'm still frequently tired. But maybe this is purely a deficiency in the other highlighted factors?
We'll leave sleep for now. Next on the list. Exercise.
- Lack of exercise.
Clearly a problem even notwithstanding the mental capacity issue. I'm already somewhat overweight; if my metabolism decides to slow down once my teenage years finish, I'm screwed, and probably not literally. But that's not the issue du jour. So, what do we think? An hour a day average?
Probably this should discount time taken traipsing back and forth between school and whatnot. Hm... if we get the hour out of a brisk walk every day, that exercise can be the compensatory factor to allow for the fact that my walking probably wouldn't be quite brisk enough to count for the full hour recommended.
So moving onto the issue of where it should fit into my daily routine. Almost immediately afterschool seems the obvious choice. So, maybe get in, take a shower, go out again? We'll try that.
(Hm, would that last "we" be a French "on"?)
Then where to? Around [the wood]? Possible. Up to town and back? Productive if I need something. Maybe I shouldn't try to plan it too much. Maybe I should just let my feet take me where they will.
Ah, but back to routine again. Tuesday through Thursday night could prove problems, Thursday in particular. In fact, I think we'll definitely have to write off Thursdays. Not enough time. What about Tuesdays and Wednesdays, though? Well... Tuesday first... let's say we can get a lift off Fred every week. That gets us back to [my home town] for roughly 17:10, I think. Maybe sooner. So call it back to base by 17:30. Is a shower (half an hour) then an hour's walk really plausible? 19:00... well, let's be honest, there's no reason it shouldn't be. Not like I'm doing anything special on Tuesday nights. Won't be having dinner until dad gets back in (probably later than me even given that), and only other possible commitment is University Challenge at 8. We'll try it and see.
Wednesday could be more problematic; no lift. Half an hour down to the station, 15 minutes to buy a ticket, wait for a train and get into Beaconsfield, 20 minutes to get back in... actually, thanks to Greek finishing that little bit earlier, that's probably not so much worse than Tuesdays. Maybe play this one by ear too.
But that still leaves Thursdays (no chance there). So we've got an hour's deficit per week. That'll have to be made up at weekends... of course, weekends could be a problem in of themselves, given my aversion to letting my parents know when I'm trying this sort of thing out... my brain wants to shy away from this issue. For now I'm inclined to let it. We've got a whole week to finalise this at least. Maybe I'm being weak... but I need time for contemplation. So, if I am being weak, point to my weakness, though I haven't lost the war.
So that's exercise. What was next on the list?
Ah yes, stimulation... that chiefly means reading. Whoa boy...
(It's a mark of my chronic tiredness that I had to look back up the document to check that.)
- Lack of proper stimulation.
So reading. I haven't been doing enough of you lately. (Along with something else, ever, but we'll leave that aside.) I just haven't found the time in my day... you know, I'm going to toss violin in this category too. Hm.
In the short term I'm going to stick to my previous plan. Have a week of heavy reading. See if that model, alternating it with bursts of violin practice, has any merit. Of course, that'll mean the exercise regime's put off a week. But considering my Oxford interview, I think that's more important...
So then. Overall plan. Week of heavy reading. Leaving even turning the computer on until at least 9, I think. (Let's see how far that one gets...) Daily showers, as already attempted with some but incomplete success. A week of heavy reading – in the living room, with Nightwish or whoever pumping out on the CD player. Short bursts of violin practice when I get bored. Move up to my room once the 'rents get home, but keeping the reading up. Then once my Oxford interviews are over exercise regime. Oh, and throughout it all adhering strictly to my current sleep timetable.
Sounds like enough to be getting on with. Hence ends my first stream of consciousness journal entry.
Actually, that's a detail to add. One of these per day. ... actually no. No schedule for now. Just whenever I feel like it. Yeah, that's better. I need more flexibility in my life. ... sort of.
Sorry. Really am ending now.
No, no, let's expand on that last issue. My problem isn't so much that I'm flexible or inflexible but that I've too much inertia. So... structure will help there. But not too rigid a routine. I don't wish to turn into an automaton.
And with that, I leave a possible double standard/contradiction very much unexplored and end before a fallacy is exposed. Vale.