Denizens of Gamespot, TV.com and any other CNET websites, what is happening?! This is Hurricane1123, better known as Huracan Del Oro signing on at the end of yet another semester at some Texas university. I'm on Summer break baby! YES! YES! YES!
The more I write on this site, the more I fear the day will come when a possible future employer will see these online blogs and associate my real life identity with them. I wonder what they would think if they saw these? Truth be told, as I look back through a lot of my old blogs I am very embarrassed by a lot of the material I used to post, most especially during my high school tenure. Even some of my earlier college postings kind of make me shudder what with all the nonstop whining and complaining I do. Oh well, I have always treated these blogs as my online diary so why not continue that with another diary like entry?! For those of you who do not know me, I am Hurricane1123, veteran of the GWF/TV.com Roundtable, one of two General Managers of the Roundtable and the head editor for both the Raw and Smackdown boards. In real life however, I am just some 22 year old college engineering student trying to balance many different things in life just as I am sure many of you have multiple things to juggle each and every day of your lives.
Recently I have done an absolutely mediocre job in maintaining the episode guides for the two main WWE shows. Time has just been a huge issue recently, but thankfully a user by the name of "goalkeeping-god" has been able to update the different webpages. I have since made him a Trusted Contributor for the Raw board which saves me a whole mess of trouble when I am not able to get the most recent episode for Raw up on time. Goalkeeping-god, if you are reading this, thank you very much man! Needless to say, my motivation to continue maintaining the site or even be on the forums has hit a low. After spending time away from the site, I find it a tad difficult to return to my duties to even as so much as post a promo in the roundtable thread. Maybe now that it's Summer and things have calmed down I will find myself visiting the site more frequently and being capable of maintaining my responsibilities and feuds (Sorry about the lackluster Extreme Rules feud Jake). We will see where things go but I hope to stick around, especially if it gives me the opportunity to post a cool 10th Anniversary blog sort of how like Spideynerd and Jandsman did an anniversary spectacular for their blogs! I cannot believe how fast time has flown by. I saw that you two gave me a shout-out so here is a shout-out to you both:
Jandsman, my General Manager counterpart. Back when you first started in the forums, I could not stand you because of the many spelling and grammar mistakes that had begun to become the norm within the forums from the influx of new people. Needless to say, time has passed and I have since grown to appreciate you as a brother on this site. In character we may be at each other's throats, but off-character I have grown to respect you and I appreciate everything you do for the RT and for the forums, especially when I am not around. Thanks for being there and I hope to have a feud with you sometime in the future, perhaps at a certain biggest event of the summer, wink, wink, nudge, nudge!
Spideynerd, ah yes the guy with the "Woo woo woos" and the "You know its". It's crazy how far we've come on this site! From total noobs who were criticized by the older members all those years ago to now respectable (I like to believe so anyway) posters who have a lot to offer. Your feuds and especially your character in the RT are quite possibly some of my favorite things on this site. Although your GWF days are pretty much limited, I look forward to continue seeing you around these parts, and if not, then Facebook it is! Thanks for keeping track of scores as well in the RT. It can be a thankless job but we all appreciate you for doing it, plus I know how time consuming it can be, so thanks again!
I will have more shout-outs ready for all of you when the time comes for an anniversary blog but as of right now I just want to give a big thanks to everybody for making the past six years on the forums a cool part of my life. We are like a community, a BREAKFAST CLUB, only without the breakfast, or the awesome 80's-ness of it all!
As far as wrestling goes, I have not had much interest in the product recently. Now I love Daniel Bryan, CM Punk, Randy Orton, and many of the other guys on the shows, but with the exception of John Cena, half the time it seems like everybody is just meandering around in nothing storylines. Even in the Cena storylines, Big Show vs. John Cena is not enticing in the least as we have probably seen that matchup many times in the past before! I don't know, maybe we will have another cool Summer storyline like the Nexus back in 2010 or the Summer of Punk back in 2011, but these past couple of Raw and Smackdown shows have kind of made me apathetic to the whole product. That is partially why I have not been on the site as well by the by, no interest. I guess I was kidding myself when I thought the WWE could sustain the momentum from Extreme Rules and carry it on throughout the usually dull days of May but eh, whatever.
Life outside these digital walls has been up and down like a roller-coaster for the most part. My grades for this past semester came in not too long ago and needless to say I was not pleased. Even after preparing myself for the worst after knowing that I did not do so hot on my final exams, the low scores I received still managed to surprise me, especially with regards to two troubling classes. As much as I would like to say that this is all the fault of poor instruction, inadequate preparation for difficult material, etc., there is no one else to blame but myself. All semester long I have been having a difficult time focusing in class and on my assignments. My mental concentration and ability to hunker down and get something done has been completely lacking, which is why I am also having a somewhat difficult time typing up a blog such as this one when in the past I was able to undertake a blog writing task with ease. I do not know, maybe I am slowly becoming more ADD as time goes on, but I just cannot sit down for more than an hour to get something done. This inability to concentrate has hindered my learning and my grades have suffered because of it. Thankfully the university has a three chance program where someone has the ability to retake a class up to two more times until they acquire the score with which they are satisfied with. It's kind of bittersweet as retaking the two troublesome courses that caused my GPA to take a severe hit would fill up my schedule for next semester quite nicely and undo the previous grades, but having to redo the same difficult material is not exactly enticing. This Autumn will encompass the last couple of months of my undergraduate career so we shall see what happens.
On the contrary, the two most important exams of my life, one for graduate school and another one to become a certified engineer, went well. It's a bit ironic that the most important exams are the ones that I finally manage to score well on as opposed to all those other tests that are…you know…part of my course-work. Well at least I knew where to make it count. Thankfully those doozies are out of the way and now I have the glorious gift of never having to sit down for a straight nine hour test ever again…until my professional exam in four years, but four years is a long time so I will just leave that in the backburner!
Social Shark Sea
Grades may have been down, but one thing that has definitely not gone astray is my social life. This Spring started off on a really bad note due to personal reasons, but thankfully as everything progressed, it became probably the greatest couple of months of my life (but then again I probably say the same thing about every semester). When I first entered college back in August of 2008, I was really depressed about everything; my courses were abysmally boring while my social life was virtually null and void. Everything required some kind of complaint and it definitely affected my outlook on life. Four years later, and I can safely say that I have had my fair share of laughs and fun, now all I need to do is balance that better with my scholastic and research responsibilities and hopefully things will be golden!
I may not have learned too much regarding course material but I did learn a lot about myself. For one, I think I have realized that if I were to pursue graduate school, it would not be in the structural engineering field. To be a graduate student of any field, one has to be passionate about what they do and make sure it is what they love. Now I find structures interesting, but it is not exactly something I feel passionate about. This is really important because going to graduate school means specializing in a certain field and I do not think it is worth the extra time and pennies to narrow one's focus further into something that does not entice. Now whether I continue my education in another sub-discipline of civil engineering or just go out in to the working world is a matter in and of itself, but it gets to be really annoying when the whole "what are you going to do with your life?" question continuously pops up in the back of my mind. I like to believe that by just continuing to live life and work hard, things will work themselves out and fall into place, but I am having a lot of trouble to abide by that mentality. As a person who enjoys having a certain level of control, not knowing of what is to come can be quite agitating. I honestly wish I had an answer for how things will turn out; I suppose giving up control and just letting life take its course and allowing things to be set into motion is the correct answer. As much as it makes me sound like a 2011 version of Alberto Del Rio or a 2004 version of Randy Orton, I do believe in destiny, it's just the kind of destiny where at least there is some semblance of knowing of where one's going in life.
Sea of Goodbyes
People-wise, with the conclusion of another year, comes another set of farewells to another batch of graduating students; People whom I will see less frequently, and some of whom I will probably never see again (at least for another several years). When it was time for high school graduation, I was ready to leave behind that chapter of my life and was anxious to start a new one, with university graduations though, it's different. College isn't just some building where one goes to take classes; it becomes an integrated lifestyle that combines people, atmosphere, labs, and all the other stuff that colleges are known for. Saying goodbye to all those things takes more effort and it definitely takes a toll on me. I have never really been good with saying goodbyes so obviously I struggled this time around to say goodbye to those who were leaving. One of those people was a girl whom had created so many problems, yet so many memories for me throughout my college tenure, and her alias that I am using for these blogs is Jane. She had gone on another study abroad trip to another country and returned in January. I no longer had feelings for this girl but it was strange that when we met up to just hang out, it was as if she had never even left. With hindsight being 20-20, we talked about everything that had occurred between us throughout the past several years. I owned up about having so much anger for her at one point over what she had done and she apologized for all the things she put me through. It was amazingly simple, but after knowing each other for so many years I would imagine discussing such things no longer required effort.
Both of us confessed about many things, and it was good to finally get them out of the way. She is not the golden girl that I had built up in my head two years ago, or the two dollar whore I portrayed her as last year, she's just…human, a flawed human like every one of us. A lot happened between us this past Spring, some stuff I do not really want to go into detail about, but Jane has probably been the closest friend I have ever had, and the inner pessimist inside of me says that no other friendship/relationship will ever be able to replicate it. Who knows!? All I know is that I struggled mightily to say goodbye to her, though truth be told I know deep down that it's not the last time I will ever see her again. We ended on a really good note but I have a feeling that we will see each other again very very soon. I will admit that I probably do continue to have feelings for Jane and am too stubborn to admit it, but it's not something that I will obsess over. Just like with graduate school, I will just let life play out, try my best at whatever task is at hand, and see what happens.
Monday August 25th, 2008, I arrived thirty minutes late to a 3:00 PM lecture in a four story engineering lab building. Wednesday May 9th, 2012, I arrived several minutes early for a final exam in that very same building. As I walked towards the white brick edifice, I could not help but reminisce of all the memories I had gathered throughout my time in this university. A lot has transpired these past eight semesters, people have grown and changed, and I like to think that I myself have done some growth as well. Though I did my fair share of complaining, looking back at it all now, I regret nothing. Well I do regret some things, such as not better enjoying myself freshmen year, but for the most part everything that has occurred has been a learning experience, through which we all mature. Say what you will about trial and error, but it's a really good growth mechanism, and I would not take back anything that has happened which has caused this mechanism to continue to do it's work. Now as I look towards my final semester at Texas A&M University, still unsure about what is going to happen come graduation time in December, I look to go out with a bang and make my last couple of months as an undergrad, the best months of my tenure.
Thank you so much for reading everybody, if you have any comments about the things I have just shared or any stories you yourself have to tell, please feel free to leave a comment. I hope you all enjoyed this blog and may we meet again another day, whether it be in the forums, roundtable, someone else's blog, an anniversary, or another journal entry of my own. Peace out! I'm just sayin'!