The title above describes an emotion i am feeling right now.........At this current point of my life at this time of 12:11 AM (EST) 12/1/11: I'm 17 years old. I am a SENIOR in high school....COLLEGE...is something i have been looking forward to..but Idk if i'll be able to get there :o. MY grades are not in good shape at this time.(im not going into explicit details) But I will work on that.
I NEED A JOB.
I'm putting in some applications to work SOMEWHERE...because i need games.(not really NEED but skyward sword is making me cry) and the grades on my report card wont get me christmas presents.
AT ONE TIME...I had certain things! but i wasn't satisfied..
I had good grades, good tennis skills(well still have those :P), Had games, Had hope, Wanted a girlfriend(or girls), Wanted to lose weight and look sexy, Wanted to have confidence.
I have BAD grades, Still have tennis skills, Have games but no new ones, Losing hope, Have a girlfriend(which i love), Have lost weight and i do look sexy :). And i do have confidence.
BUT MY GRADES AREN'T REFLECTING MY LOOKS!
When you ask for something you will get it. But it will Cost something as well..
I have learned that the hard way.. i will get myself together.
IS THIS REAL.? WHAT AM I GAINING OUT OF THIS? WHAT WILL I BE 10 YEARS FROM NOW?
Only time will tell.
Love you for reading this -Donte AKA D-Cashman