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Death and Gaming

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As my grandfather lay on his deathbed unconscious, and literally hours away from dying 2 hours away I'm sitting at home comforting myself with a little game time. For you see my grandfather and I were never close and in fact never spoke. So while the rest of the family is in mourning I'm feeling subtly out of place as this hasn't made a significant impact on me emotionally. I'm sure I'll have my time of mourning at his funeral and even as heartless as I may sound it's no different to me than for a stranger to die. Call me a heartless bastard but it just doesn't bother me. My granfather has been in bad health for a little over 15 years, and to be honest I'm surprised that he's made it this long. I don't mean to sound disrespectful, but when it's time to go it's time to go and I've embraced this hard fact and did so many years ago. I should also add that my grandfather didn't want much to do with me (just to help you understand a little better my situation), but over the years it became a mutual feeling.

To be honest I feel more for my mother, and father then I do my grandfather.

Anyways I'm finding comfort in peeling back some bandit wig on Borderlands and I've some to realise that gaming is one hell of an emotional outlet. Anger, sorrow, loneliness... no matter the feeling gaming is there for you. Immersing yourself into a work of fiction and releasing a bit of emotional distraught to help weather the storm that of reality. So... Have you ever found yourself in a similar situation comforting yourself through gaming?

Please feel free to share your thoughts.

Modern Warfare 2 - I'm intrigued

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Despite my open hostility towards ActiVision I decided I would do some research and see what all the fuss was about regarding Modern Warfare 2.

So I head over to the Modern Warfare 2 page here on Gamespot and decided to glace through the screenshots which were intriguing but hadn't changed my mind. It wasn't until I decided to look at the videos that my curiosity piqued. I watched the Launch Trailer again despite my open hostility towards ActiVision I must admit that I'm VERY impressed with what Infinity Ward did with Modern Warfare 2. So now I'm compelled to buy the game just to see if the game stacks up to the hype.

Even though I'm unemployed I have a bit of gaming fundage set aside and I'm debating on going to the midnight release.

Props to Infinity Ward for piquing my curiosity.

Unemployment **** so bad!

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So unfortunately Sunday I found out that the Hotel I was working for was closing (at least temporarily) and I would be once again joining the ranks of the unemployed. So it's been nearly a week and I'm getting a little stir crazy. Fortunately I have a wonderful fiance, Uncharted 2, and my most recent addition; Demon's Souls to keep me company. I've been to the unemployment office to file my claim in hopes that I can draw some cash to get thru the holidays.

I live in such a small town that even while we're gradually recovering from the recession it's near impossible to find work. Most places have already done their holiday hiring so I'm stuck within the confines of these walls. There are a couple of places that have called me in for interviews but at this present moment it's me in my room crossing my fingers and praying someone needs me.

On the bright side I have taken the time to form the first official Bayonetta Union of which I'm quite proud of, and while it's not a featured union some of the best users on Gamespot have joined. So I extend my thanks once again to those that help form the union and the ones that have joined. So even though I'm unemployed I thankfully have some money set aside to live on at least for a short while. There's really nothing more I can do at this present moment but enjoy the company of good friends, of loved ones, and to kick back and kick some serious virtual ass.

Thanks,

Black-October

Common Place for Common People. Nah!

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Welcome to my blog.

First on the agenda is an extension of thanks from yours truly for taking the time to visit my blog.

Second order of business is that I'm going to tell you a little about myself. Sure it means nothing, but it never hurt; Did it?

I'm 22 and have been gaming since I was old enough to pick up a controller. I started out on Mario Bros. and became hooked from that point on. I'm engaged to be married to the love of my life whom also is a gamer. Our idea of a good time is a small group of friends sitting around drinking a couple of beers, and playing some competitive multiplayer games from Super Mario Kart to LittleBigPlanet. I enjoy gaming, movies, anime/manga, and soup!

So it's not an autobiography but it's enough of an insight to understand me better.

Alright so until I have more to say... Peace out until next time.