How Rin Changed My Life *Potential Spoilers*

Wow.
As the credits rolled, I sat there and let the tears stream down my face.

I was not expecting this.
I was not ready for this.

You see, upon hearing of Katawa Shoujo, I hadn't heard of any emotional response that people were getting. I had just heard that it was a very well written story. I wasn't expecting much...until I met her. I don't want to spoil anything for those who haven't played, but as I got to know Rin more I found myself getting annoyed with her for being so into her art and not paying as much attention to Hisao as he was to her. But for some reason, I kept pursuing her. I played all the way through her story and I got the good ending. So why was I weeping at the end?

You see, Rin and I are not so different.
I have been studying and pursuing a career in film. I have been putting my heart and soul into my work. I went through a lot of hardship in my young teen years, and I've had a really hard time coming to terms with it or telling anyone about it. For me, using film as a means to explore my emotions has been a huge part of who I am. That's not what hit me so hard though. I have a girlfriend. A beautiful, wonderful, supporting girlfriend. And I'm such a fool because it took me this long to figure it out.

I have been Rin and my girlfriend has been Hisao.

I've been so enraptured in my own work that I haven't pursued her. Film had become my main source of attention. I realize now just how hard this must be for her.

I'm leaving this here for now. I'm going to talk with her tonight and appologize for how I've been treating her. She means more to me than this and I haven't shown that to her. Maybe, like Rin, I need to destroy myself. I need to change who I am.

We actually just got lunch.
I am incredibly blessed. The conversation could have ended very horribly. She said she was thankful that I realized this and that she wants more attention. She still wants me to pursue film, but she wants to be more than an afterthought. It hurts knowing I made her feel like this, but I need to fix this now. I'm going to take a break from things now and pursue her. Sorry for a long rant, and then a short conclusion. Just needed to let it all out.