30+, living with my parents. Have a situation in which I can't really study or work. But I'm going to make that happen anyway. It comes with great risks though, and it'll take some time. For now I have to live on a... I don't know what you call it in English? Benefit? I receive money to stay alive each month, but it's not much (obviously). That is why I am still living with my parents, so that I don't get all these extra costs. Because of this, and being very aware of what I spend my money on, I have quite a bit of money left every month that I can use for games. Lucky for me, I am well respected at home so living with my parents and much younger siblings has been great.
When I go solicit for a job I may lose the benefit and that could potentially mean no longer having a roof over my head for the rest of my life. So I'm a little hesitant to just 'try' a job to see how it goes. It has to go well in one go and given my anxieties, it will have to be a job that I can rely on for a good part of my future. I do want a job, but not to feel useful. I've had a job once, and it definitely did not make me feel useful. I would do it for the money. And the money would be nice to have so that I could support a relationship and look for a partner in life.
The past two years I've been learning how to program with C#. I've made a little card game and an ASP.net website that is quite dynamic and uses a database and all that. (Just making that website took me like 6 months.) So I'm learning some skills that may eventually land me a job. But learning those things takes a lot of time for me. (Energy is the problem. Effectively the many hours of struggle I put in translate to 30 minutes of actual progress per day. If I'm lucky.) I'm also a bit of a philosopher. Several people told me to write a book. But I don't have a degree and philosophy is not something you can (or I want to) get paid for without excellent writing skills (that I lack). And again, the book would have to be very successful to support me for a lifetime :P
Lately I'm very interested in machine learning and how to create a sentient A.I. I'm a bit of a dreamer, so some part of me hopes I can stumble upon a way to create a very flexible, fundamental A.I. that could solve all of my, and our, problems. I know that is not very rational. But it is nice to have something to hold on to.
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