Why is everyone getting married and pregnant so young, and why does it bother me so much?
For example, my friend who's been dating his gf for 5 years, hasn't married her, has a shit part time job and is 24, is having a kid and I feel like shit. I don't know why.
If I had to guess, I'd say it's because I'm severely depressed. I'm being treated for it, and I'm not a virgin, I'm 22, gonna be going to one of the best universities in the US and I'm decent looking. But I just feel like... don't I deserve happiness too?
I feel like a bad person - like I want to feel happy for him, but I can't. He'll be having a kid and a happy gf and a whole new family, meanwhile things for me are the same and I don't know if they'll get better.
The worst part is that this has happened before. I cut contact with people who are happier than me (mainly Facebook shit) because they make me feel worse. Everyone is getting married and having kids and wonderful lives and I'm not. I don't hate them for it, I hate the fact that I'm not happy and everyone else seems to be. Everyone seems to be moving forward and being happy... and people like me and some others aren't. Don't we deserve happiness too?
TL;DR friend is gonna be a dad, feel like shit because people seem happier and I'm not.
And yes, I realize this makes me sound like a shitty person, but I want to be happy for them, but I can't, at least until I'm happy with myself. Thoughts?