I see no way out...help?

I've talked to a therapist for months, but things don't seem to be getting any better. I made an EXTREMELY embarrassing mistake contacting my old high school about the teacher, which just makes me feel suicidal, even if I recanted it I haven't been able to sleep, I feel no joy in things I used to enjoy, and I feel awful. I feel like my life is over and there is literally no way out to ever be happy again. What do I do to help?

There was a time where I was depressed and just hated everything. What really helped me was playing basketball with other guys around the neighborhood. It was fun and we could play aggressively which helped get some of my anger out. Maybe playing sports could help you? Or maybe getting a girlfriend/boyfriend to make you feel loved. That also helped me.

How many threads are you going to make on OT about your unhappiness? How much help do you actually get back in return?

The fact that you're here asking for help shows that you're not ready to give up yet, so don't give up! Yeah, we all go through stages in life where we feel like we've hit rock bottom but think for a second...how old are you? I'm guessing you haven't even lived a quarter of your life, how can you say you will never be happy? Hell, my life was miserable at a point and then I met a girl and in a matter of days I was the happiest guy on Earth.

We can never think we won't be happy; yeah, some days will suck, some days will suck A LOT but other days will be better. If your life is shit and you feel like you have nothing worth living for, start fixing one problem at a time, which is one of the only benefits of hitting rock bottom, you'll have lots of choice where you want to start from. Find someone who cares for you and open up, find something you enjoy doing and do it, find a job you like and enjoy feeling productive, get out of your comfort zone and do something out of character, live life! There are so many things you can try, and remember that life can always get better as long as you don't give up, and just because you might have had a few weeks, months or even years of a shitty life, that's not a lifetime sentence of pain and misery...things might change tomorrow! Stay strong! =D

Your problem's a bit vague, maybe elaborate a bit?

This is solid advice.

Find those simple simple things that bring a smile to your face and surround yourself by them/it. It sounds silly but If I have a shit day quite often il come home, pick my cat up and make a fuss of her. It makes me feel better. As long as you have the capacity to make those around you happy then life is worth living. Watch a few documentaries about physics. In a way realising how absolutely insignificant we all are always makes me feel strangely better. Like your problems really are not so big.

I agree. And this reminds me of another problem with depression. When we're under the weight of it everything looks way worse than it is, and we think that unless everything is perfect it's not worth it but everything will never be perfect, and that goes for everyone, not just you, but somehow people without depression manage to be perfectly happy without a perfect life, which means that so can you if you believe you can.

Take always_explicit example with his cat. If he doesn't have a job he likes, or someone to go home to (he does, but let's say he doesn't for the sake of example =p), will the cat get those for him? Probably not, but if to him, his cat is a source of peace and focus, then he should seek that peace as often as he needs to, and then when he feels that his head is on straight and he can think more clearly, then he can go search for his dream job, his ideal woman, or anything else he wants/needs.

All you need is a starting point...for me it was meeting the right girl, to some of my friends it was video games, to others it was seeking counseling...everybody works in a different way, but in my opinion it's very empowering to know that all you have to do is find that one thing that can be your anchor, your starting point, and you can just keep improving from there. It's simple...not easy, but simple. You can do this!

Go seek help.

Hey dude we all make mistakes. Nothing happened with your teacher. No harm no foul. You have to learn to forgive yourself.

yeah

Unless you call your school say your teacher molested you then I don't really see anything worth getting worked up about. Some details might be enlightening. Stick with the therapy though, or find a new therapist. Keep at it until you find one that works. Anyhow, if you're feeling suicidal you should probably call your doctor or a suicide hotline.

Embarrassing mistake(s)? We ALL make them. And we ALL wake up in the middle of the night reliving them. And when I do I generally chant a bit of my favorite poetry from the
Desiderata:

Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings. Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself.
You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Isn't that personal and private dude....

Wait what's the issue exactly? TC is depressed? Reading OP I feel like I'm missing something

You got to find something that keeps you busy or you enjoy doing. It can be your job (very unlikely) or a NEW hobby. I'd say try to find a gf, but that is a LOT easier said than done. And girls are usually a pain in the ass anyways (sometimes its worth it though). But, check out this site called meetup.com. It's basically a collection of social clubs. It can be anything from board games, to frisbee golf, to dating, to dirt bike riding, to a happy hour social club. A bunch of strangers that are meeting up to do (insert topic here).

Sounds like its time to try something new and meetup.com is a great way to start. It's going to take a long while to find your calling. I've never been clinically depressed, but also try a (possibly) new therapist or meds. Hey, I hate meds too. But it's better than hating life. I've been told pot can help, but as far as I know it can be an upper or a downer depending on the person.

When life hits rock bottom, it has nowhere else to go but up. Hang in there and wait for the day where things are going to get better.

THIS!

It's nice to see people being supportive =D

@thegerg: The teacher yelled at him. Literally that's all that happened. OP failed a class and asked the teach if it was enough to pass and the teacher yelled at him before assigning him extra work to get enough credits to pass.

This also happened 4 years ago.

I am actually speechless right now. Suicidal thoughts because you under performed in a class and got told how poorly you did, 4 years ago. Come on OP. You cannot be serious?

http://www.gamespot.com/forums/offtopic-discussion-314159273/would-this-be-considered-abuse-by-teacher-4-yrs-ag-31359682/

A link to the post where OP talks about his teacher. He has shared this info with everyone before. decided I should edit that in so that everyone knows where I got the info from.

Take the money you use on your psychiatric care and use it to get prostitute... I mean an "escort", unless you live in Nevada or Amsterdam or somewhere with legalized prostitution then yeah I mean prostitute. I mean has not screwing prostitutes been working?

@lamprey263: Ehile that would be a fun night. OP doesn't have the confidence to do such a thing. He should cancel his therapy, for the same price he can go to a gym and get a personal trainer. Build up his strength and look and feel better. This should give him even a shred of confidence.

That's the only thing OP needs.

Mods lock this thread (surprised it hasn't already). These comments are making it worse, not better, and I would have thought a mod would have seen this by now.

He got some pretty good advice in this thread. He's probably so depressed he can't see that it just sounds crazy getting suicidal thoughts about that incident with his teacher yelling at him. For god's sake, stop contemplating on such minor stuff and concentrate on how to improve your life one step at a time.

@thegerg: Maybe he was expecting we wouldn't check his posting history to see if we could find out what this incident with his teach was. Now that he's been called out he doesn't like where the thread could possibly go.

OP needs some tough love. Honestly what will OP do once he enters the workforce and has a boss breathing down his neck? What will OP do when a family member dies? What will OP do if he gets a girlfriend and she cheats on him.

He's contemplating suicide over some trivial BS incident from so long ago the teacher likely doesn't even remember who the hell this kid is. What will OP do when something actually stressful or painful happens?

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